THE BOOKS OF PROPHECIES VOL. II part 2 (second page)

-  Dream continues- A woman (Jee?) sits up and repeats the last line of Tim’s Sleeptalk- “WHEN WILL HE COME TO INDONESIA?”

-   THAT TIM SHOULD TIE UP/ OR PUT ON SOMEONE ELSE’S 

MOUTH (?) THE MASK (GAUZE MASK).

 

TRIVIA:

TIM IS A CHINESE NATIONAL.

H1N1 VIRUS BREAKOUT IN HONGKONG 

JANUARY 9, 2002 – VOL. 9

  -  I could be either a regimen soldier or of royal blood fighting during the early centuries. For sure I am without a helmet on. One scene shows us visiting a huge castle- like structure- a wedding, actually. The woman who’s to marry is the other woman imprisoned in a cell (all women likewise-sinester-like) who can come in and out of her cell/ room. Some scenes would show she haunts some of us while the rest go on with the wedding rites. One scene, if it’s just a period movie, being __?__ by this old woman who turns into a young sexy woman complete with a tight over-all jersey/ cotton outfit headset and mike a la Madonna and “swings” (?) ­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­­– modern- could be machine-flying solo almost touching the ground running after Tim and Nolan and the rest of the group. There are scenes where Nolan and Tim act out well and are given ample acting time on the screen (?)/ even I, too, earlier. I just cannot recall the incidents. Earlier, in the restaurant I keep asking the first old woman the key (?)- hazy. Unsure about the details. Earlier, when the old woman prisoner turns into a young looking woman, she wears an all-black attire. Nick and I see her get out of this building- infront of the building, about to strike. Nick comments- “How come she’s all modernly, high-technologically equipped?” I say she can jump into different time and space. This time, she enters the future to acquire all these gears to pursue Nolan, Tim and their group (?)

   - A scene where Bel is about to do / see something at the table which I believe, all the flock will be do/ see– when SUDDENLY COME POPPING FROM NOWHERE (FROM GOD) NUMEROUS THINGS – BIG TABLE-LIKE CAKES AND GIFTS, WONDROUS THINGS JUST APPEARING LIKE MAGIC. I see Audrey- Gie who’s so amazed at this shower of “gifts”, boxes after boxes of goods appear, mostly food (?). Gie and Bel pull these things under something, when we find Ace hanging by two electrical open rods/wirings – He doesn’t get electrocuted – I summon him to come down. One huge box of cake, I touch – I say it is chiffon cake – soft like marshmallow – It seems without a box but more like a soft wrapper. Bel touches it, too and says, “Chiffon”. Bel puts some of the things in another area – I COMMENT, “KUNG HINDI KA PA MANIWALA (?) / MASIYAHAN…” SOMETHING TO THIS EFFECT WITH GREAT REFERENCE TO GOD AS HER GIFT “GIVER”. I seem to feel Nick’s presence. Looking back at the corner where Bel first places the gifts, I see a little chubby boy hanging by the electrical rods – Nothing happens to him – I ask him to get off them and he does greatly resembles Ace – He maybe Ace at 4-5 years of age. I play with the boy and sort of spank his bottom. Unsure where we are (house). Earlier, when I get back to the place where Bel first puts the “gifts”, they are not there and I comment, “Baka mamaya / pag-uwi mo, wala na ‘yan!” – just a notion.          

   - BON JOVI sings the last line of his song in a huge, mammoth concert – singing/shouting “WELCOME 2003!” On my mind, it would double the spectacle if these are lettered fireworks after saying these / singing this line, “Welcome 2003”. It is then that I realize as if happening simultaneously / overlapping each other that I am wishing that such an act be done. – I am telling my wish to a somebody I do not know / is not shown. As if the fulfillment of the wish, I see a tall framework of a structure facing Bon Jovi as he points to it after singing the line. The mammoth crowd looks towards the direction of his hand and behold – The fireworks of a structure with caption/message “WELCOME 2003” – fireworks ablaze – A celebration of life and the most magnificent, poignant moment in the history of man – A grand salute to the coming of 2003 – I see people light up candles / candles lit up. People applaud, roar and show their awe and admiration to the fact they already believe in – This dream is wondrous. I see myself in one area as if on a high plane/level overlooking the concert (from a distance). I am seated on the ground/slumped on the ground wailing unabashedly – There’s so much tears of joy and respect for the hour that befit GOD, now being given/dedicated to Him for the first time by people, other than my flock. Earlier, before the fireworks blast, I seem to be mobile about to cross the intersection of EDSA and Ortigas telling my wish to somebody. Praise is now given to God truly and faithfully by a group of people. It seems this knowledge is already massively, widely known / circulated / believed in. AMEN, I say! (After waking up from this dream).

JANUARY 11, 2002 – VOL. 9

   - “COMMUNION WITH GOD”

 - I see myself in different places – Conversations with the Almighty God through the voices of Nick, Brian, Tim (more of justifying), male voices reverberating the omnipotently, the divine mind and hand of God through many male voices – different situations that cannot ever be given life through words alone. A scene where a woman’s voice communes with me, I see from down below (from where I am – seemingly upper plane) an inscription on a piece of stone saying, “PINULOT NA INA” – This scene shows later, I am lying down on a diving board (?) with the panoramic view of waters below me. With great resistance upon knowing the woman’s voice is that of Mother Earth or the wisdom of this earth/world. I rebuke her mightily and as quickly as my head would sway to the left and to the right, as a motion of refusal to heed her “advice”, echoing everywhere (at least in the place surrounding, me) her voice is heard no more. All throughout this dream, scene after scene, there is a peculiar/deafening but not- sound of rigging/ drilling on top of my head – or the drill aimed directly at the top of my head. This sound is most evident on reveries – A scene where I see myself vanquish my foes by the GIFT OF FLIGHT – soaring up to the skies – A mobile scene where I hear the voice of my son Brian sharing his thoughts on what/how I should take/understand things. Precious child! A scene I hear my brother’s voice – Blessed child! A scene where I am eating “pusit” (ginisa) near the mouth of a cave (inside) with water below us / we are submerged in water (Tim and I) like a brook as Tim tells me of his opinion on things – He is justifying a fault/misdeed. While Tim’s dubious intent to belittle what seems like a big matter, I am eating pusit worried that it is already spoilt and we may / I may have an upset stomach later – A parallel insinuation / indirect exposition of a “little justification” aired by Tim – I see his physical self unlike other voices. I remember throwing a bit of squid from my mouth. A scene where the POWER that surrounds me is challenged in the deep ocean – I dive and search for a shark, take it by its tail and wade it against the water in circular motion, slowly rising myself with the shark in tow to the surface of the ocean and throw it away. A scene where I am met by several people (foreigners?) at the entry of an overpass (?) where there are throngs and throngs of people below the bridge shout, cheer and welcome my presence with so much warmth and honor . Foreigners all (crowd) with placards. In a fit of uncontrollable feeling of appreciation, I weep heavily as I acknowledge them, waiving my hand to them like a hero or something – a Prince, a King - an idol! I seem to ask a certain group below asking them, “Bakit sampu lang kayo?” as against the huge crowd, that I don’t seem to see these 10 individuals I seem to be addressing the query to. A scene where I am lying down, as if a camera revolves around/moves around from my head down to the posterior parts of my body – It is here where I feel the Mighty presence of the Lord – I, being the CHOSEN ONE – A feeling of great joy despite my iniquities. A scene where I ask God about my sexual indulgences - He seems to ignore this question and proceed to another topic – not to think with so much self-imposed confidence, the question lingers in my head. This scene I seem to envision His “physical” but not – only spiritual presence – only in my head does such a manifestation of a physical state exists. It’s God’s voice that is overpowering every scene, voices after voices, all coming from different people, not shown physically, but only heard. – My supposed VISION OF GOD is my own conception of a “likeness” – His probable likeness to His creation, man, is an imagery of my own mind – I am  not sure I see Nick physically – if I do in one scene, the “camera” / focus runs in a speed of light away from him or so it seems. 

   JANUARY 17, 2002 – VOL. 9

   -  We are in a house (modest), unfamiliar – Alex with boobies and long hair (blonde / dyed). Oliver who I scold again / reprimand and here, he shows utter repulsion, but tries to maintain composure and whatever is left of it, for what I have. Bel, who earlier suspects Alex’s boobies and tries to touch them to feel its genuineness, as Alex claims them to be and, again, injects it with me identifying the marks of changes (silicone implant as I suspect Alex undergoes) along with his waist to give it a curve that of a woman’s. Later, I would see Alex carry a huge cross (silvery) about a foot with a lace attached to it and which he puts close to his chest. In this act of his, I remind him that Jesus never wants his images to be crucified, but only RESURRECTED. This, Alex would respond as if to avail himself one (resurrected image) but I deter him not to. One scene, he will be dancing before us a la Madonna. Another scene, where Bel and I inspect Alex’s boobs and hips. Bel cleans my right ear with a steel-ear wax remover, perhaps because she would scrape my ear passage that I could feel every scrape. This cleaning of the ear scene happens twice. Another scene where Oliver sits at a table (?) and I lie on a narrow bed – He’s still consumed by much disgust over my incessant invoking for him to change. I discover little plastic cups with cover containing food – 3 plastic cups which I find among other stuffs. Oliver says it’s Tim’s – who’s to be seen / focused with several rich, matronly-looking ladies (showbiz personalities I couldn’t remember) who are all well-dressed (gowns even). One woman would say, “They’re spoilt (food) already” and would be discarded instead to which Tim confirms by nodding his head. It seems there’s food served and we eat earlier. Back to Alex, I express to Alex (with Bel cleaning my right ear) that maybe, Junior (upon Alex’s instruction) injects / puts him to sleep and during his unconscious state, he undergoes such an operation that would provide Alex these womanly attributes / possessions. Junior is Alex’s lover of almost 30 years (if not more). It seems Alex, on one hand, listens to my preaching and on the other, still embraces his faith. Here in this dream, Oliver is at his natural, normal self – stone hearted – but musters enough courage to maintain calm and reverence. I seem to notice Alex has a secretary in tow.

   JANUARY 18, 2002 - VOL. 9

    - I am, along with others (?)/flock?, in a church that I suspect to be Agustin de Cebu if there’s such-

   -  There’s a man who wants to kill me (in an earlier dream, do I accidentally kill someone he loves, his woman?). A scene, I see fighting, on a 2^nd floor area (exposed / open area). It’s either I am a bystander (?) – I cannot recall the whole picture – This hostile, angry man wants to kill me and another (?) – We are on the run – A wild chase that entwines Mayor Lito Atienza’s life with ours – On the street (?) with several police (?),we bump into him and he carries us to different places to hide. Later, it would just only be me. We go enter a precinct (?) – Later, turning to a church (huge church) where there is a midnight mass (Christmas?) – People are lined up – long line – as if to receive communion. I do not see a priest – I just see myself seated along with another (?) and the long queue of people would pass by us (?) – The single line turns somewhat into 2 lines – where I see my son, Brian, accompanied by a relative (?), Yammy (?). Unsure of this. Confused why I am seated there, Brian would ask me (and address me differently), “Tito Bong, magmi-miracle ka naba?” or something to this effect. It is as if I anticipate what Brian would ask that I call Atienza’s attention to listen to the boy’s statement – I think Atienza fails to catch it. Next scene, I see myself and another man whose identity isn’t revealed, lying on the floor, night time – The camera focuses on several sweet mementos between this man and myself – picture frames, maybe essaying our romantic liaison. From where we are, seems like the parlor, I can see my pursuer from the glass mirror (display window) that he intends to break with something heavy- He does. – The mirror gets broken. He hits the display mirror twice – I ready myself from his assault. My companion doesn’t seem to be aware of what’s going on – Luckily, Gam who’s outside, witnesses what my pursuer does to the display window and subdues him – hitting him with punches like an action star – The pursuer is down on the floor and I come in to help Gam out with him. I hold both his hand raised over his head after getting his knife – On my mind, Gam will see that I am with a man in that stall (?) / room (?) and am afraid this pursuer’s going to tell – This pursuer talks about / requests is not to talk about love / romance – While I try to tie his hands up, I see his right arm tissues are showing/ exposed – He’s badly injured. One scene, I try to cover his face with something (cloth/newspaper) / gag him for he shouts, “Magnanakaw!” to make it appear he’s being robbed / held against his will – I do not know what Gam and I intend to do with him. Earlier, I remember being with a crowd that Atienza, politicking maybe, acknowledges – different / various.

JANUARY 21, 2002 – VOL. 9

    - Ground floor (outside), old set-up (Nanay’s house)- The flock is mingled together (for what? I do not know) Night time (?). Of these people, I see Jee, Nolan and many others – Inside the old set-up, sala area (now part of Hernando’s clinic) are lying (on the floor) Nanay, who later turns to Purita (?), Lolit, Olan sleeping – By the loudness of their snores, sighs / breaths, we hear they Sleeptalk. Jee, upon impulse, is glued to the walls (which have screen at the upper portion) and 2 others – even I, too – Their Sleeptalks answer each other as if they’re talking / awake which unfortunately they are. As we rejoice over the harvest we think of as such, it is to them a bolster of laughter – They are faking their talkings – Angered by their malicious act, I go upstairs seeing a knife (big) that which I see in _________ and upon reaching the second floor, puts down the knife on the divider. Olan, who looks different / slimmer has a knife, too (long, thin) – He is with another man. Strangely, he gestures to give me the knife and dares me to stab him – In my heart, I do not have such rage enough to kill – Only fury over the desecration of my God – I say this verbally and other stuff relevant to the incident – 

JANUARY 24, 2002 – VOL. 9 

   -  I see myself looking up to the skies still deep in sorrow over the “reality of this world”, as far as the system of things are concerned, MONEY being the God of all men. The memory of last night’s talakay fresh – Still appalled by the fact that those who are corrupt and out of the mission are the ones

   “favored”? heavily by God – That is just my resentment – not necessarily true and pathologically forever/permanent. With those things in mind, I see the clouds as such – plain, ordinary, everyday devoid-of-mystery-clouds – And am deluged with much anguish – Suddenly, like a dream – one, and then two, angels appear – flying and hovering up in the sky – They are a bit far – somehow colored yellowish, maybe because of the rays of the sun (?) – somehow golden yellow – I see some other activity but could not recall what they are – God shows me this vision to prove a point – One – miracles do happen in the senselessness and emptiness of every day that passes will change truly in the twinkling of an eye. Two – these are “Angels?” - physically or – literally speaking? And as quickly the vision appears, it just goes back to its normal state – an unmysterious being, normal everyday fixture up in the sky. As the sun and the moon rise and vice and versa, the clouds are cheap canvasses that can easily be ignored, dismissed and forgotten – My God says it’ll not be the same cheap canvasses that we see one day – One day – Meanwhile, “that day” isn’t here and we continue with our lives –

    JANUARY 31, 2002 – VOL. 9    

    - I find myself slithering like a SNAKE to the 2^nd floor of    Nanay’s house. The interior of the house seems different / odd. Upon knowing Nanay’s presence (hearing some noise), I immediately slither down. Hazy.

FEBRUARY 2, 2002 – VOL. 9

     - In a theatre lobby (?), I sleep on the floor – I hear voices in my ear. Nolan and Oliver are by the entrance (?) of the place and Tim in another area – Oliver is irritatingly noisy and in one scene about to leave again. Tim with me on the floor lying down, I sarcastically comment to Oliver, “While you leave again?” Next scene, I hear voices again from inside my ear (left ear) and would wish Nolan and the rest could hear this – I ask for an ear head-set phone/ headphone and intend to plug in / put inside my ear the headphone’s / earphone’s socket (?) – One woman passes by and says it isn’t done that way / would not be heard still with this manner of putting the end / terminal of the headphone directly to my left ear, to which I agree – I hear Tim’s voice, too, inside my ear – Other voices prominently identifying the owner of the voice. One scene, I go out of the theatre building into the side/corner with a bag in tow – books and other paper stuffs (?). I am about to write down something, but I get a little embarrassed by the thought of my friends / flock seeing me outside – pathetic sight, perhaps. One scene, I say Oliver is back again with his annoying and bitter resentments about everything – He carries these stenches wherever he goes and in whatever he does. It’s sickening. Regarding the voices I hear inside my ear, I wonder what the doctors would say about them (the voices) – Ear ailment? A disorder or mutation of sort that develops in my ear? It is as if I have a tape recorder in my ear and just replays these voices.

                                               

FEBRUARY 4, 2002 – VOL. 10

                        A Dream of Grand Proportion –

     -A huge sailboat / more like a ship is by the shore about to sail. There’s a giant of a man up on the deck shouting at the massive crowd / looking up at him and listening to his every word spoken aloud as if shouting. I am with Nolan, Tim (at least, on this scene) The crowds (crew) are on board the ship while there are many others off the vessel and just watching by the shore/pier including us. I position myself, despite our obvious miniscule sizes compared to his gigantic physicality, where he can see me – and hear me – for a commanding voice echoing all over would shout loudly – “JESUS, LOOK AT ME!” – And as strongly and fiercely he stands, the giant that he is, he quivers/shivers in fear upon hearing this voice and he sees me from among the crowd. In a flash, he would run (?) hurriedly to his cabin and I follow him. The atmosphere is that of a deck of a huge, older ship as I reach/climb up the vessel. There is a curtain that covers Jesus’ cabin/room. A man sits next to a face (typical – Jesus image) lying down – showing only his head (from the neck). His entire body sort of buried / put in a casket – (though not seen), his head protruding out of a hole, the size of which only accommodates the neck. I come to him and “grab his hand”. Earlier, upon my entry to his cabin, Jesus is jolted in fear as my face stands before him. “Sir Ray (?)”, I say to him – I think I hear him ask, “Who are you?” I answer, “I have come… / I am that…” His position seems to be that of a dying man. Early on, I pull Eric (from inside the cabin, near the door) into the room and then, Nolan (?), then the ever naive Tim – so they may witness what’s going on – A Heavenly intervention / “bequeathal” of roles. Earlier still, by the door of Jesus’ cabin, I would see nuns (contemporary/modern) assisting maybe Jesus (just before you enter his room). Still holding Jesus’ hands, realizing he is to die / exit / relinquish his role, I utter beautiful, comforting words to appease him – divine words to carry on his “journey” (journey to exit / relinquish his role). As I cover his head/face with a white blanket (?) or my garment/long white shirt (?) – piece of clothing – I say to him to “SLEEP…”. The scenes with Jesus are synonymous to that of a shepherd to his flock/herd – A master to his servant, though not as such – more of “his brother” – In the cabin, the scenario is that of a Father to His Son. My utterances are so authoritative and full of knowledge and wisdom – My GOD speaks through the physical (whatever else) being of EAB. I am deeply honored after waking up from this dream. Last scene shows a woman (modern day-looking) walking by the sea shore – She could be in the cabin, too – It is given, she is with me – She resembles the comedienne Joy Viado – She wears white outfit (?).

  Out at night – maybe part of the prior dream (restaurant). Alma, Nolan and myself going home on board our vehicle that initially is a car – Are we abroad? The surrounding is different. Is it just a thought / idea that our vehicle turns to a spaceship (?) that lands on our places or Alma’s house’s swimming pool? It is given, it is the usual landing area. Are we rich? – Abroad – or in another planet?

FEBRUARY 9, 2002 – VOL. 10

   - Nanay’s impertinence – She barges in right in the middle of the talakay and expresses her un-needed opinion about how things should be now that the bank takes over the properties. It seems I see someone at the altar area, who hesitates to come in, but when I do call this anonymous person, it is that Nanay just invites herself in. I resent her stupid interference – Disgusted, I ask her – “You abhor the Sleeptalk that is given to me from beyond / up above?” –I shout at Nanay addressing her as, “Babae!” – I believe I head for the kitchen and see Mel – Later, I find myself jogging (?) / walking up on a bridge – On the other side of the lane/road, I see a nun (?) a bit behind me. The nun later turns to a “soldier” wearing white t-shirt and shorts (jogging outfit) who just blurts out, “I know what you are and what you do / what just happens to you – NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE TO GOD”. Puzzled by his utterances, all I could say to myself is, “What?” I look to my left – a park – where I see a vendor / stall / makeshift-tall selling watermelons – On my mind, (as if I am now in the park), it would be such delight to buy and eat this in the resthouse (?) with my friends, Tim and Nolan. As if in a flash, I’m back on the bridge and listening to a woman (supposedly known to me) with a baby in tow. Seated on the ground, she says, my mother already comes earlier and really intends to break-in / interfere. As far as what she does in the talakay is concerned, it is implied this woman knows about it. Earlier, after Nanay’s unwanted presence / gate crashing, I rebuke her – guaranteeing her that I will never forget her contemptuous disregard of my God – her fearless dishonor to my work. Her meddling will not be forgotten by THE ONE GOD SENDS. In the kitchen, meeting Mel, it is as if I laugh off Nanay’s insolence by saying, I shall be present at the last 2 days of the table (?), Saturday and Sunday (?) – Unsure of this.

FEBRUARY 15, 2002, VOL. 10

   -  I see myself preaching to my flock (?) (Nick and Bel present). Bel is quite / a little far – Nick almost beside me. Standing by the door (not the Old House) dining area door, is Robert who listens intently/quietly – savoring every word that I utter in English. The preaching is beautiful in the sense that it includes these irrefutable declarations – “God will try to make me (us) drift away, but He will also try to bring me back” because I AM HIS SON. Look at the “SPECIAL RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN THE FATHER AND THE SON”. There’s a slight misdeclaration in “drift us near” or something to this effect – but a quick maneuver straightens / corrects the statement. I would think of Bel who’s a bit distant from me / who I, almost physically, see as I make these utterances. Strangely, there’s a very young handsome,presence by turning his back from the camera (?). Again, he would be captured by the camera – face, now focused – It’s Joseph Estrada, a little youngish face (cosmetics?)  - He would give an impish smile – Noticeably , he wears his thinly trimmed moustache looking like Charlie Chaplin, or maybe he’d like to give that impression I’d still be in a quandary  how Jude E. could look like his father. The face seems/facial tissues seem “stretched” (surgically? as in facelift, though not specified) – just a suspicion of mine – trying to figure out who’s who. This man, in an effort (first focus of the camera) to conceal his presence, grabs something – an object looking like a chess board with a handle in the middle portion – Focused now is his left hand putting something in the middle (near the handle) of the round object – small round objects – marbles (pinball looking marbles?) but, maybe not – maybe something used for gambling – just an impression. When this man’s face is focused, his eyeballs would move up and down while smiling a la Chaplin. Back to the young preacher and Espino- It is a question to me how this lad could speak/preach to Espino (who’s a lot older than him) in a loud voice. foreign/tisoy looking lad, who preaches, whose presence (physical) intervenes with my preachings – He preaches in English. There’s a visitor, a certain “ESPINO” who sits in front of him. The set up of the two chairs these two are seated on, is an elevated (?) round narrow area, isolated from the entire floor in a way like a small rounded stage, where they can be most seen/captured as if it’s a TV show (?). A prominent person who’s with Espino would be focused by the camera – All the time I would think of him as Jude Estrada wearing a black vest and pants without the tux (?). He would try to conceal his

FEBRUARY 19, 2002 – VOL. 10

   -  Love Affair – Warren Beatty, male star of “Love Affair” wants to reconcile with me (?) – Unsure about this.

FEBRUARY 19, 2002 – VOL. 10

    - A Dolphy movie with a foreign looking (new) moviestar- (?) later to be introduced as Raven Lady Villanueva – They are on a run away chased by character actor Ruel Vernal. Dolphy and his female lead star board what seems like a light railway transit – Starting from outside a building (train inside the building), it heads for the wall and like a giant snake, it finds its way back into the railing/railway (as if it can). It is, later, hi-jacked by the kontravidas. I see the surrounding as “Makati” – The character actor – instructs the train its direction. He’s infront of the train. Earlier, I would see myself hanging outside of the building where the kontravidas are in, having some sort of celebration – There are kids present. A scene where I am on a street running around seeing street decors/building decors of what seems like a city festivity. On board the snake-like train, I can see down below, silver colored / inspired / motif celebrations of something – Everything is colored silver – As the train moves, we pass by fire trucks / emergency trucks being sprayed silver - two strips / long streets colored silver / sprayed with silver – On my mind, it’s Makati perhaps – headed by Richard Gordon. It is given, I already witness the gold inspired / gold sprayed streets similar to this one which is silver. It is such a beautiful sight. A scene where I have some silver on my hand (droplets like mercury). I would remove it from my hands – Finding myself in a house/building – I would look for a container to put the silver in – On the floor, I would see some stuffs I could use – Strangely, there’s a glass that sort of disintegrate/melts when silver is poured into it – I don’t know if it’s I who put the silver in the glass. Another scene where I swallow a droplet of silver and try to spit it out – metal things like silver could be bad for my health (?). Street scene where Dolphy and the foreign girl cross (pedestrian lane) – There are 2 women who are quarrelling and a scene as Dolphy’s leading lady sees this, she throws canned PEPSIs  to each of them – and perhaps, “starting” the slogan of the product after giving PEPSI. The two girls stop quarreling. The foreign lead star has blonde hair – doesn’t resemble Raven at all (?). A scene where I taunt with a life-size picture of a beautiful/sexy girl outside the building (a display).

FEBRUARY 19, 2002 – VOL. 10

 -  In a flash, I see a man proclaiming ‘’-----------------” as ______?_____ (maybe a place of importance / venue (?). He says / mentions “----------------” twice – as if he’s being interviewed.

FEBRUARY 21, 2002 – VOL. 10

   - American TV show – I am watching a TV show about a weird/funny teenage boy who’s being protected by his mother, sister (?) / and other women in the cast from guests (?) / friends (?) of theirs at a party they hold in their house. It would appear I am watching this TV series (?) on a huge screen in Nanay’s room. Later, almost inter-laying with the scenes in the series is Nanay’s house. Seemingly, maybe not, some of the family’s guests that night would be monsters/killers – all bloodied looking for their prey/next victim (?) – the teenage boy. The rescue of this boy, or so it seems, will be coming from his family/friends (?) who would avert such atrocities to befall him – One scene shows some characters in the series falling from above below – some naked men showing their long penises – later, it would be the teenage boy, would fall and show his dick – Amazed and excited over this series because of the frontal nudity, I am more glued to it – It is as if it’s a very late night viewing and perhaps, this show shows more of this kind of nudities late nights. For a while, I think of Nolan, that he may not discover this late night airing – Story runs – All attempts to victimize this boy are thwarted by his family – Next scene, I am already part of the series (foreigners all). Walking along a path with a woman who’s probably a “somebody” in the village – a la science fiction / Baroque style set-up – The woman’s left foot is swallowed by a huge, fat snake. The leg gets bruised – I ask her, “I thought there are no snakes here!” She answers wryly – We go on walking towards a covered area with someone (one of the characters) / a man is submerged in the water lying down being held captive by a flat, oval snake. The woman with me doesn’t mind him – perhaps, she doesn’t think he needs rescue. With several “okra” in my hand, I would throw some/stone him with okras  which land in his mouth or is he already gagged with okra in the first place. Already far away or ahead of me (the woman), I turn back for this man and pull him out of the water, contained in steel like, squarish – coffin like vessel. When I pull him out of the water, only half of his body comes out (head to abdomen). Shocked about this, I put his severed body back to the mouth of the flat snake which has the other half of the man’s body. Immediately, after doing this, I remove his body again – bizarre- seeing his body looking like a flattened stuff – a la cartoons but human looking – I massage/run my hand from his chest to his abdomen, as if healing him – putting his severed body together and he does get healed. He stands up saying, “I have faith” or “I believe, and now, I am healed!” For a while there, I AM A HEALER – while the man continuously walks towards the woman and the group she’s in – This woman comes up to me and kisses my right hand. She looks different – like a fairytale character – She has some make-up on her skin – all over – not scary. It seems a part of her body as being partly of nature / the forest we’re in. Earlier, we would pass by several odd-looking snakes on the ground. Next scene shows the everyday hustle and bustle in the city as epitomized by a vehicle (top down) with several guys on board that runs on the city/downtown (busy) area. For a strange reason, this vehicle leaps circling and circling around like a whirlpool – It enters a store and as the vehicle turns, I feel gladdened by the sight that no one of the passengers gets hurt in the process. Next scene, (after kissing my hand) this woman is being attacked or vice-versa by several women (enemies). I believe I help her subdue these women. One scene shows this woman again, in a modest store – She’s Asian-looking now with chinky eyes. This store seems like a front / a door to her “world”- that’s where I belong in, too (?) as I am part of the whole scene in that other world. The store symbolizes /or is upfront an ordinary store being part of the “REAL WORLD” outside – Allured by pictures of women posted on her display window (outside of her store), she’s mesmerized by the sudden transformation of these pictures/posters to real life. The women in the pictures become alive – from outside the glass becoming human (in form) as if like magic – inside/getting inside the store. One by one, these women seduce her – kiss her – thin lips – full and luscious as they kiss this woman – Earlier, staring at the pictures of these women, she would say, “No one’s coming home!” The women in the posters would answer /or some women voices would answer in chorus-“Yes, you are. Yes, you are!” – and the transformation from picture to life / real women begins. From the street, looking at the store’s facade, there seem to be Christmas lights sparkling (hanging).

  - Boyet and I go to Baclaran church – He goes ahead of me. I stop inside, as if disbelieving I’m there in Baclaran church. There are many people – Entering different corners/areas of the church that are bit dimly lit, I track back my way to the entrance/door where I come in (not to be lost). Earlier, entering through different areas of the church, I see (displayed on the floor) some replicas of the tools, nails (?), cross (?) which are supposedly used to crucify Jesus. An image of Jesus lying down on the floor (Nazareno, perhaps?) can also be viewed – I look at them with much complacency, if not compassion (?). I’m well-dressed. It suddenly occurs to me that this is a Jollibee outlet or there’s a Jollibee outlet inside the church. Entering one area and finding myself lost in my wanderings, I see a Jollibee staff – A girl named Amy whose striking resemblance to Lolit is quite impeccable. She would show me the way to go back – but instead leads me to an exit – a back entrance street. I go back to her and she leads me/tells me to use the stairs (going up)- Going up the very narrow stairs, I guess it leads me nowhere and so, I go back to her again. This time, she accompanies me. I don’t know which comes first – leading me to the cashier of Jollibee (this is the first to transpire) and since she’s a member of the staff, she doesn’t follow the queue/line. Confidently, she just places my order, gets some stuffs to her left (we’re in front of the cashier). I wonder what she orders and buy, I wish to tell her to order for two – Grateful enough that she’s helping me out with my dilemma, I believe I ought to, at least, give her a treat. Unable to do this, since she immediately goes behind the counter, pay the bill with the person next to me – It is this person’s order. I have with me a P500 bill which she gets. I try to get my tray after ordering double chicken (which she asks me, by the way, to settle for her way of selecting their menu. Strangely, there’s a bulk (or two) of rice on the tray when I place my tray before the cashier’s register – She says it’s my rice. Someone (or she herself) gallops this bulk of rice and voila, I have my order – I know I want only water for drinks. At the counter, earlier, I would see Ronnie Rickets, reddish and fully made-up waiting for his turn. I guess he hears me talk to Amy. Carrying my tray, Amy would lead me to the dining area (?). She gets to the stairs that is uncomfortably narrow and some sort of crisscross of the wooden railing in the mid-stairs would make you leap/make a big leap unto the next step. It is given, all of the pathways/stairs are on the side of the structure and narrow as this one. Atop the stairs, the floor sends me reeling because there are holes, unfinished (?) floorings on it. You have to tread slowly and step in the more sturdy part of the floor that ensure you don’t fall under. Amy is already near the door to exit. I trail the sides of the area – Seeing Ronnie Rickets seated near the exit (?) and as I carefully watch my every step, he dares me with a simple, yet intriguing question, “Pumupugak ka rin ba?” meaning, “Palaban ka ba?” or ready to wrestle with him in a duel/fight. I say, “No” – I just look it but it isn’t so – It gives him moment of silence – His challenge is not answered. Earlier, as Amy hands over to me my order, I am able to look closely at her face – false teeth. She looks, smiles like Lolit (but maybe it’s not her). Getting back to Boyet, as he enters the church, it is given we’re into something – sexual, I sense – We have something going on between us. Boyet seems to have quite a lot of hair and a bit dashing. To my mind, what will Gam say if he finds out about us? At a table, as if waiting for Boyet, I imagine how his cock’s size could be. As if like magic, I sort of have a small, yet passable dick in my hand (as if it’s Boyet’s). I stand up to look for him because I don’t know if he would order for both of us or that I’d suggest we order for ourselves what we wish to eat. Earlier, as I am problematic with the directions or where to go / find my way, I say to myself not to worry about where Boyet (or I) parks / parks the car. The problem before us is what I should think of first. Inside the church, I would see people kneeled down – praying. On her name plate is where I see Amy’s name. I query on why Boyet is tagging along with me – My mind says, maybe because I AM MESSIAH and he’d like to be closer to me – or that he likes my argumentations and deliberations about God and thus, the alliance of sort.

FEBRUARY 22, 2002 – VOL. 10

  - Gorgonio is in the resthouse – Early morning /dawn- Someone knocks. Gorgonio gets it and before I know it, he already lets people in – 2-3 jeep loads of people sent in by a buyer named Dr. Fidel Zamora (?) – unsure about this. – The doctor’s exact name could be very similar / close to the name I write down here. – This is Nanay’s buyer! These people would see resistance from me. It must be a Saturday and I tell I do not talk to the bank, yet – which I’ll do on Monday. I guess they all leave. Next scene, I would see waiting for a ride some members of my flock who accompany (!) these people – Gie, Eric, Ace and others I cannot remember. I ask them, “Binayaran kayo?” Another scene, inside the resthouse (backyard?), Eric and Ace would relate about their involvement with these intruders. Ace mentions about Coke – bottles of Coke / food that are given to them and they seem to laugh about it. It seems I know this doctor for I consult with him recently – I open the trunk of my car and I would see some papers / prescription (?) from him. A banner of ours hanging by the fence is covered by the buyer’s own / personal banner – posted / glued over the Mission’s banner. As I remove their banner (with the doctor’s name written on it), I would see the Mission’s banner presented / with writings that are quite different from the original “Welcome 2003” and perhaps, not sure about this, my name written on the banner as well as a single eye above it. It’s a long banner. Earlier, I would hear one of the buyer’s people saying, “Bukas daw” – On my mind, it’s only Sunday the next day. I am enraged by my mother’s misdeed – As if I’m relaying this info to Gam and I just think of Nanay not missing the opportunity to get a commission out of the sale – at least, she’s the one / the broker who gains from the sale – but it still hurts. Going up to my unit, I would ask Georgie why he lets them in – I cannot recall if he answers the question – Later, I would see myself trying to prepare food – heating something in a cauldron and sort of neglect checking on it – Seeing it boil heavily – but it’s Georgie who takes the viand from the cauldron / gets the cauldron and turns off the stove that seems positioned / placed where the TV is once located. I guess Georgie gets the viand from the cauldron, leaving out some vegetables hanging by its handle. I would take these vegetables from the handle – Georgie is by the kitchen area. Do I see some swimming gadgets and gears (inflatables) carried by the intruders?

 

                  WELCOME IN 2003      

                THE COMING OF THE

       KING OF ALL KINGS 

         THE ACTUAL  BANNER HUNG IN DIFFERENT PLACES IN 2002-2003

STICKERS WITH THE SAME MESSAGE WERE POSTED IN DIFFERENT TOWNS AND CITIES.

THE BANNER THAT APPEARS IN THE DREAM.

  *Trivia

FEBRUARY 23, 2002 – VOL. 10

  - There’s a special ritual being initiated by me in the Old House in as far as my preachings (?) are concerned – as if it’s an innovative way of expressing praise to God – There’s a woman who belongs to another group / religion who would put aside her religious affiliation and support what I do – My act is something that veers away from the Iglesia ni Cristo (?) – Unsure of this. From the garage as if having a small procession, we walk towards the entrance door of the Old House and there, facing the wall front of Nanay’s room – as if we have some sort of altar, but none – perhaps, a small plant / tree – would we throw flowers (myself) and sing words of praise. Roberto who’s supposedly part of the ritual, fetches water (maybe from the artesian well). He is to my left, about to cross in the middle of the praise. Another one is crossing (?). To my left, a woman suddenly appears and asks a relative (woman), “Ikaw ba ang reporter noon?” – referring to some of my personal (?) / real properties up for sale – She continues, “Pupunta ka ba?” I do not mind them. There’s a part in the song that someone (who reads it) would not continue because of the kids / younger generation. Jee says, continue on – another says, “Itinuturo na ‘yan ngayon sa mga kabataan / bata” – something to this effect. It is given, I am introducing a new way / method /or diversity in the rules / guidelines in teaching – something to this effect. It is the 2^nd time I would hear about the __?__ “Reporter ka ba noon?” from Lally (?). It seems different – Everything – The ritual – The “reporter thing” – It feels odd –

    - Hilarious (Musical) Dream – Recalled Portion – Nolan, another and myself are in a villa-like (Castilian house). Two women all dressed up come out – One would go straight to our other companion and the other would for Nolan. It is given the woman who goes for Nolan is Gloria Romero’s daughter (Maritess?). Strangely, up close, this woman resembles Nolan like a copycat – Earlier, I would only connect their chins – as if this Romero daughter comes up with a prosthetic make-up/mark to elongate her chin to perfectly match that of Nolan’s and it is so – Glo’s daughter wearing such. But later, it’ll be truly Nolan himself well made-up as a woman which he confirms when I say, “Si Nolan din!” He would answer, “Siempre hinandaan ko ito!” – something to this effect – The scene would be to devour Nolan by Nolan in drag. Nolan without the drag would get tickled pink at his other half when the drag Nolan devours “himself” with kisses. Next scene, like an Italian Village set- up (Pizza bar) commercial 2 story building, high noon, only the façade is shown complete with restaurant signs written only in cardboard/wooden boards –one with the caption, “By Paulo” – (hung by Paulo) and another, “By ___?” There’s a man in costume – waiter attire who accompanies a woman (?) / someone to his/her vehicle (left side of the restaurant). On the right side would come out again these 2 women – fully made-up and in Italian-inspired costumes – The first one to come out is Dawn Zulueta in gold make-up/paint on her face, who sits on a chair at a table (with an umbrella cover) outside the stalls. Next woman is Donita Rose who wears a stunning outfit, too. Earlier, (the first episode) in the Castilian house would come 3-4 guests – (all men?) unsure of this – who would run as these particular women rush in and chase these men, including my companions. Back to Dawn, I would grab a chair, too and position myself almost beside her (left side, almost fronting her). I would try to look at what she’s staring at, as she looks at, to my mind, someone a bit far from us – but, it wouldn’t be so. There’s a chair beside us where one of the guests – a man who would position/bend his body to a position where his ass is in front of his face. “Dawn”, or so I think, would comment, “You’re like an “eating dove” ”. I say, “He’s eating/licking his ass!” Dawn doesn’t mind me at all – She comes and kneels in front of the man’s chair and starts kissing/smelling his legs, ass and face – The man would repulse her advances and say, “Un…un…” (a negative prefix, but he wouldn’t know/say the next syllable/word). At this position of theirs, the man would point to me – I do not know and I’m not sure, but it seems that moment when the drag Nolan devours the normal Nolan, scenes will have a speedy/fast pace similar to that of “Moulin Rouge” love songs after love songs will be played – I close my eyes and internalize and capture this poignant and tender moment when I envision myself being chased by Niño and while the drag Nolan or Dawn Z(altogether colliding with their moments with the same man) devour their men, I picture myself being devoured by Niño. Simultaneously, as these drag Nolan and Dawn Z say words of endearment to their men, in my head/vision, Niño is on top of me saying, “I love you, I love you/I need you!” Words of affection I shall forever cherish. There’s a particular love song that captures me when the players drag Nolan and, or Dawn Z. (?) would sing for their men. Such a blissful touching moment when the love song is sung/played loudly, yet serenely – carried by the wind– Suddenly, silence – muted silence. Either someone else says it or the normal Nolan or the man with his bended body says it (more of Dawn’s man) – The words are these – “It’s not for you (referring to Dawn/Nolan) – It’s for him!” – pointing to me – as all focus are on me. If it’s a movie, it says I’m the center of the movie. If it’s the love song, it is intended for me. If it’s my vision, then Niño’s actuations and pronouncements are true. Nevertheless, all the dream is saying is, it’s about me. Earlier, the place Nolan, another and myself are in seems like a vacation house – as if we’re on a vacation of sorts – not given though. I know the scenery is great and the place, fabulous. One scene, a foreign woman (member of the cast, perhaps) is focused by the stairs of the entrance. She would mutter the words, “Ciao, ciao!” and wave her hand to the people inside (?). Later, at the stage-like / set-up Italian restaurant terrace (front of the stalls) there would be two (2) foreign-looking-women who would stare at this woman who says, “Ciao, ciao!” They would repeat what she says, but instead would say, “Jiao, Jiao!” – These are the women that the waiter would take / accompany to their vehicle (?). Annoyed by the 2 women’s gestures, this foreign woman would say, (with Vangie Labalan’s voice), “Hindi ako si Jawo!” Like a theatre curtain (straight, no pleats), this woman’s lips would be focused – her lips/mouth alone (along with Labalan’s high-pitched shrieking voice) – “Hindi ako si Jawo!” It is then, I query if it’s just a movie made by Filipinos. I remember Oliver being part of this dream – Hazy – Yet, I remember him lashing out (a la Labalan) at someone. His participation is wacky. As Dawn Z. and Donita Rose start their way towards the covered table, I would hear Nick’s voice saying, “Parang mannequin”, referring to their make-up – Jawo scene – for a while there, I think I would see Vangie L, herself, chinky eyed (or just make-up) and her lips on the canvass-like-curtain. Lips are with red lipstick. On the canvass, the mouth/lip scene ends with the mouth sort of painted on the canvass – first as lips and then something else – a bag (?) – a house (?) – Unsure of the sketch – Or perhaps, a pouch/fluffy thing.

FEBRUARY 26, 2002 – VOL. 10

   -  A Wonderful Feast in the Old House – By the stairs leading to the mirador area, I am fixing myself (my attire). The dining area (with my flock already positioned / seated) is three (3) table-full of food. I do not know who are with me in the altar area. I run (sort of) towards the dining area with my sleeveless shirt and a tall hat on my head (and I guess, something that I carry in my hand) – a tool-like / weapon-like object that goes with the outfit. My flock is amazed (?) / surprised at my sudden appearance though they are actually waiting for me – It’s the costume – they expect my usual white outfit. As if the camera is focused on me, I see myself with the tall hat – it sort of exposes my high forehead despite its pointed arch at the middle (of the forehead). I remove the hat and summon Nolan to get my blue hanky that I use on my head. I sit exactly where Elsie sits – at the table fronting Rizal’s garden. Food is delectably presented, though much of it seems served with something sweet – sweetened stuffs just like those of halo-halo – I see chicken – several differently prepared food out of chicken. Jee precedes me as she holds      the “sandok” to get the food I like. I see some spillage on the floor. Behind me is Tim and I call his attention to it and, yes, he does step on it. There are several people – flock (?) lined up for food. In front of my table after having the round of selecting what I wish to eat, I see 2 more huge pieces of fried whole chicken. I say, “Wow!” About to sit down, a woman in white whose odd way of stealing my attention really does catch my attention as she slumps her body (with a backpack in tow) to a rolling chair that hits the wall where the cross is placed. I do not notice the altar. It seems this woman wants to be invited (this is her 2^nd KSP act). There are other people coming in – Digo sits at my table – A decent looking man comes (in suit?) and introduces himself to me, Mike Fletcher (?). Unsure about this. We shake hands and I say to him, “Yes, I know you – I see you on the movies (I use “on” instead of “in“). I see Nick in the dining area and perhaps, wonder if Yammy and her mother (?) are present. There are visitors I do not really know. Looking at Robert’s house, I see a brand new (?) sports car maneuvering (to enter the garage?) which Robert’s house doesn’t have or heading for ______Street. Strangely, the entire car is wrapped in (transparent) plastic. Generally, the gathering is fantastic – One scene with Jee, she introduces to me the name of a dessert (?) – with slices of bananas and sweetened stuff – “Ito ang __?__ at ito ang “tao” ”. In jest, I would copy what she says – Tim being behind me – “Ito ang __?__  at ito ang bakla!” The room explodes with laughter. It is to my understanding this table / Mission is already out and known by quite a number of people. – It occurs to me that if people ask about the source / money used / spent for food, I have much confidence to claim I do not get it from my flock or anyone who follows / believes in me (except, of course, Gam) – Some of the flock have no more desire to eat much, especially Oliver who is seated to my right (a few seats from me). I say to him, seeing his saucer of desserts, “Kasi magde-sessert ka na!” He already eats ahead. I see Ligaya as she serves herself – trying to figure out what to choose from the many selections of food before her. – I see Albert in the dining area and relay to him my surprise (about his attendance).

  - Sort of festivity on _____ Street – There’s a group of showbiz people who’d meet front of Nanay’s house (old set up). This goup includes Paquito Diaz who’d lay the right side of his face on the closed door of Ligaya’s store. Other members are mostly young – teenage boys, one of whom I know. They are to sing – a la caroling – They may have a (recorded) song out in the market to promote – This boy member is seated beside me as he waits for his time, perhaps to be called in by the group. He talks to me – I would ask about why he seems pensive – It’s about his girlfriend who’s staying with his parents – “Baka hindi pa kumakain” /or “pakainin” ng parents niya. I suggest for him to text her. Taking out his cell, I go find a piece of paper – from a pile of garbage (pieces of paper) to my left. I ask for his real name – Orlando ___? He stops me from writing it down – He asks me to write down AFX, meaning Alex (?). Writing AFX before “Orlando”. Someone from looban comes (I know the guy) and talks to him. Seeing AFX, he says to write X instead of A. Anyway, it is given, I know his alias – Nolan would be intrigued. Olivia comes carrying two bags of groceries/gifts. She just stands infront of us. Orlando and I are situated on a higher level. Olivia mentions she has gifts for me – dares to leave/not give then if I don’t give her time (something to this effect). I plead for her to go to the Old House – the gathering in the Old house as mentioned earlier – Earlier, I greet Olivia, “Merry Christmas, Olivia!” It is the same gathering where there are several guests (preceding dream). For a moment there, I would consider the gathering as my birthday celebration – that the bank wouldn’t seize my property, yet, until after my natal day – a favor from the bank, perhaps – (do they know my birthday?) I remember writing down part of Orlando’s address abroad, “Chorale Room” (?) being part of the said address. Analyzing, I say – he’s based abroad? It’s a turn-off realizing somebody from broken homes, this boy. Olivia seems a bit younger than she is now. Olive is in the right of way fronting Nanay’s door. I would peep through one of the plastic bags she carries. In an attempt to lure me to notice her, she’d pick up something from the bag, a small sausage (?) / hotdog to put in her mouth. The preparation in the Old house is pompous and I’d be glad to have her. The showbiz boy is mediocre as far as looks and height are concerned. The birthday question in my head that MAYBE the reason for the preparation/gathering in the Old house is a thought/notion – ain’t sure about this. But, yes, it is incorporated in this dream. Part of this “thought?”, if it is, is the dreamy idea that I may die after my birthday and that the whole of mankind will resent the day they realize the “ONE OF GOD” is with them once more – but that they miss out on the opportunity to meet with HIM / ME. For awhile, I am stunned by this thought as it seems so real – almost stated as a fact or message. This thought is impactful in the sense it is given that the days of the man God sends are numbered (?). The outpouring of sentiments of those who do not live during the time of Jesus, as well as the sentiments of those who do actually live during the time of Jesus, but nonetheless miss out on the opportunity to be with him.

FEBRUARY 27, 2002 – VOL. 10

 -  Nick shows to us/makes us know giant/huge letters to these words – Monte Vista puts these placards of letters by/on their fence. There’s a placard

     still not posted/not to be placed (KING) (?) before the name EDWARD  wonder what it must be.

 

- “AIDS” is on my chest (?)

FEBRUARY 28, 2002 – VOL. 10

    - Recalled Portion – There’s a girl that Joseph Estrada likes/dates (?), but does not like him (?). He sends her home. It seems I like this girl, too. One scene shows me writing something on my Book of Dreams and finding the writing in Spanish – the last 2 statements, perhaps – Unsure of the exact translation in Spanish. I write down the page number where this Spanish caption is written on, page 234. Writing the page when done on one page, then on the first/back cover-page to make sure I don’t forget it. “p. 234 for translation” is what I write. As I am busy with this, I would see Mel in one corner / almost behind me muttering something – a book (Filipino), she finds hard to acquire for Adeth (?) – Unsure of the child – I don’t know what I suggest to her, but she immediately pacifies me by saying she can find the book elsewhere (second hand book, perhaps). Suddenly, I would find myself walking with Joseph E. at the back of some modest house. I request him to translate/give me the translation of the one I write on my book – stating to him the English version/ Tagalog version. Part of it is, “The flame/fear in my heart (?)”. Joseph seems to know Spanish quite well, yet he’d still correct the first translation he lets/asks me to write down. Going inside what seems like a store room, I would find him up on a high window reaching for a fruit (mango?) that’s oddly sprouted mid-trunk of the tree. He reaches/picks up the fruit and dismayed it is perhaps sour (?), makes a facial expression of grievance. He hands the fruit to me while I try to pluck him out of the narrow window. Looking at both of us, we may perhaps look funny – him on top of me/my shoulders as I pull him from the high level window. Out of the store room, we would see the girl she wants taking a bath on an open area a la provincia/ barrio – He greets her – She doesn’t. I tell Joseph I like her, too. There’s one moment of silence in me – the desire to tell him about the Book of Prophecies – In between tears, I would ask him to promise before God that he __?__, keeps the knowledge of the Books to himself (?) / I do not know what I say to him. Passing by a small chapel, I am to invite him inside to swear/promise something with regards to the Prophecies – But, I think it wouldn’t be enough – We need a bigger church – _________ church (?). It is as if I am telling him, I hold the answer to your problem – The problem of the country/the world. That I am the answer to his problem. Reaching the front of the church, Joseph is stunned by the sight he sees – flooding – this flood with many garbage /or debris from something – We would hold on to a post of a destroyed house (?) /building. There’s a shark as well lurking around the flood which I show to him. Like the twinkling of an eye, I see Joseph leaving a woman seer, who just informs him of a malady / coup d’etat (?) / bad news. He walks away – I see Joseph walk off from the row they are seated on. This seer is lost/ wanders – One matron who sits behind her / a few rows behind her asks her what she says to Joseph – coup d’etat, she says. Leering at the seer, she suggests, “not to tell Joseph bad news!” – something to this effect – “only the good ones”. This matron stretches out her hand summoning the seer to kiss it – She doesn’t. On my mind, would Joseph do the same thing to me once he hears of my prophecies (all ten of them?) Inside _______ Church is where Joseph and the seer would talk. Would Joseph have me killed for this? Earlier, we are so close to each other as if it’s my duty to inform him everything in the book. I feel him so close to my heart. – Joseph’s arm nestled on my shoulders as we walk together. Aghast at the sight of his reaction towards the seer, it gives me second thoughts.

MARCH 1, 2002 – VOL. 10

  - Parked in a somewhat mountainous area with the Vice-President a modest car comes and stops right before us. To my surprise, it is Gloria Macapagal, President of the Philippines with several companions. One of her companions, the driver (?), alights from the car and intends to take a leak – to Gloria’s seeming uneasiness because of his act. For some reason, Gloria steps down from her car (she’s seated at the backseat/back of driver) and comes to our car. She seems to be asking for a favor (?) /help. As she steps down from the vehicle, I would notice the upper portion of the car’s backwheel (body) is a bit rusted. By the hood, she’d be talking to us – me and my companion, the Vice-President of the Philippines. It is then that I would notice when I look at my companion, it is still Gloria Macapagal – I wouldn’t know the similarity – as if these 2 Glorias are 2 different people – One scene, I would see myself seated with Gloria and other government employees /or her staff (?). Gloria employs me as a government worker (appointed by Gloria) – if I work for her then I could help her even more if I belong to the government. Crying over this /or the opportunity, I guess I feel honored over Gloria’s gesture. The woman beside Gloria (in uniform) would hand me several ID’s / papers validating my employment / designation. One scene, I would see FVR singing many Filipino/Tagalog songs – as if these groups are camped out somewhere. Wandering around the camp (?), I would be going to a certain cave/room (?) / area where the 12 disciples (of Jesus?) once stay (?). There’s a man (a tour guide?) /or one of those who excavates the areas / renovate areas and declare each area as such, who would bring me to Jesus’ cave/place. Setting now seems like the Banahaw mountain’s “Holy places”. And so we reach this Jesus’ place – a small place where there’s a long stair leading to a higher level – Reaching this area, I am stunned when a man suddenly throws 2 pieces of bread inside (where I am) from a small window saying, “hindi na pwede” – something to this effect – to continue the digging / excavation of another area to be designated as such/whatever. I go down – Grace arrives. I look for my slippers. I find one – My slipper has a “Coca-cola” design on top – looking for the other one, I find it downstairs.

 - In an open area (?), there’s a fight of which I am a part of. Someone tells me I already have a wound/ I am stabbed already. Next scene, at a table I see a man- Oliver (?) and myself (?)- about to eat. A replica of me is to be eaten along with some okra. I do not feel hurt by the wound (?) caused by the first stab/ one stab. I am afraid Oliver would have something harsh to comment about the okra viand. The replica/ image of me is like a piece of cardboard/ paper laid on the table. A hat that I wear is also on the table.

    -  Right of way – front of Nick’s garage where there’s a huge screen (TV?) showing a movie – There’s an actor focused – Best friend of Julia Roberts. in “My Best Friend’s Wedding” – that Alma and Audrey point to me as Nolan’s look-alike. I seem to be going to the direction of Ligaya’s house (?). I look at the screen, yeah, I guess he does look like Nolan, flowing hair, chin – Nolan arrives, coming from the direction of Ligaya’s house (?) – There’s no fence – He smiles – As if on a slow-motion pace, I run towards Ligaya’s direction. I see Virgilio Galicia by Onggay’s house standing – asking me when I am supposed to die – as if he doesn’t open his mouth (?) but just waits for an answer – AIDS stricken? – I say /gestures (?) I don’t know – as if communicating mentally – Coming from Ligaya’s direction (?) back to Nanay’s house, I pass by Merly who’s also infront of Onggay’s house. She also wants to know when I’m going to die – I think I say, I do not know, too. Nolan and I are going to school. Earlier, I already notice Nolan’s “bitin” (bitin and masikip) pants (khaki?). Upstairs, he would sit down quietly by the piano area (near the window) while I prepare myself in the kitchen. I pee first, pour some water on the floor where I pee. There’s a huge mirror by the door of the kitchen (ref site, hole in Olan’s room – old set-up). I would try to wear a brief I suspect to be any of Onggay’s son‘s. I just couldn’t wear it right. Finally, wearing it seems embarrassing – There are tears and holes in this brief – Checking it out in Nanay’s room (mirror), I find there are people there. I say the brief’s okay – but then again, maybe I’ll just wear my jockstrap. Earlier, wearing the brief, I notice a lot of Rowatinex tablets scattered on the floor by my feet. Likewise, I seem to be wearing something else (another brief?). My father sleeps on the sofa – I wonder if I’d still ask (or Nolan) money for transportation. Later, I’d realize Nolan and I won’t be late for (Manila) school – I’d take my car – Virgilio and Merly expect my death on a certain time – AIDS not specified, but perhaps, an illness where death is inevitable. Going back to Nanay’s house, still on a slow-motion pace, the wind runs through my face like silk – Am I riding on a horse? – maybe, just the feeling – that when I pass through /by Merly’s site, it seems like a gush / breeze of air – It could be Ligaya or Toying’s place I run to – I do not feel it’s my Altis car that I’d bring – another car which is my own, as well.

MARCH 7, 2002 – VOL. 10

    - Lahat ng __?__ included, others are not. Those who would be taken in or forgiven, all those who are here (referring to those who are not counted, but present). Pointing to the (few) crowd before me. They are amazed. Those who are closer to grieve will be consoled.

  - Two brothers killed somewhere in Malate- teenagers- good looks- as if I see the re-enaction of the killings- reason for the murder. One of them is hit on the head by another (their assailant is hit on the head?). On the one of the victims (or both) is a fisherman with putok?. On one scene shows the assailant mocking the victim because of his putok. Another scene shows the brothers lying on the side of a building/ sidewalk about to die- hog-tied. Who do I see- two men tied together? One moment, I feel as if I am one of them- about to die. Weird dream. I feel the gruesomeness of the murder.

TRIVIA:

BONG PANLILIO SHOOTS IN THE HEAD BROTHERS ARIEL AND ALBERT

“BONG” is the Bearer’s nickname. “Ariel” is his alias in cruising men

APRIL 1, 2002 – VOL. 10

   - Merly talks to me about a dream – a frog – Nanay butts in and interprets the frog as, “Ipapako sa krus (?)” which, of course, I try to correct – That the interpretations to dreams before no longer hold true – and that is why preachers have different opinions / interpretations about things – something to this effect, said in Tagalog. One scene, I see myself or Merly (?) wrapping a small portion (1/3) of butter using 2 wrappers (?). She says to me, it’s not I who give the interpretation to her dream (?).

APRIL 6, 2002 VOL. 10

  - Hazy- A voice that I hear saying- “make this day an outstanding day (?)”

APRIL 10, 2002 – VOL. 10

- With Tim and Audrey (?). Tim says “MAGSASARA NA RIN ANG TABLE! MALABNAW NA ANG ___?____”. I just nod though perplexed over what Tim says. Unsure about this- but is Bel’s group gone already?

TRIVIA:

The Table closed June 24, 2002. The bank seized the two properties involved in the Mission June 25, 2002.

June 24, 2002- Last day of the Talakay in the Old house.

January 3, 2004- Resumption of the Talakay in a friend’s house.

*December 20, 1998- Beginning of the Talakay

APRIL 11, 2002 – VOL. 10

   - Nanay arriving from abroad brings different dogs – Looking at the gate of Nanay’s house from the Old House, I would see under the existing concrete floor of the steel gate is an excavation where lots of water come out / maybe the drain gushing into the right of way (left). It seems she has a few steps constructed that I think in the dream, do not exist (but actually do). I talk to Nick about it – The cement not drying up because of the water running over it. Excavation is a little wider for a provision to store the different breeds of dogs / puppies she brings from abroad to give to her friends (according to Nick). Nanay claims these dogs are local breeds – I am so elated seeing these dogs and would ask Bel about their kind. She’d surely want to own / have one. I see 5-6 dogs chained under the ground / concrete floor of the gate. Next frame, I am naked (facing the wall) sleeping on a bed in Nanay’s room. Beside me is a woman Purita talks to – Olga is her name. Resentments over Nanay are      Purita’s topics. She even stresses out how the house is neglected because of Nanay’s dealings with her friends. I am awake, wondering what this Olga would say about my butt exposed – Me, being Messiah and all.

APRIL 13, 2002 – VOL. 10

- I see myself just off the stairs wearing a robe (?) and saying/ advising something about mouth and cheek (?). Hazy-Waking up, I am unable to write this down. I dream of it again- This time, it’s mouth and poem instead of cheek.

    - I’m devouring three men- sucking one guy. Some people see what we’re doing and they apprehend me- I try to escape but do I still get caught?

 *    In real life, April 12, I see a homosexual movie “BEFORE NIGHT   FALLS” at the Greenbelt Theatre, Makati. It somehow affects my dream? Psychological? Unsure of this

APRIL 14, 2002 – VOL. 10

    -  Hazy – Recalled portion – That Gam and I on separate cars, would go to a house. It’s already very late, evening (madaling araw) and so we decide to go – I oblige all the children (?) to board his car so I wouldn’t have anyone ride with me (gimmick?). We’d both be looking for our cars, but we don’t find them where we leave them – There are other cars parked in the lot – It seems it’s the Old House and the place we go to is Nanay’s house / Nick’s house (?). I ask myself why we need cars – It says, “Holy Week?” but is the birthdate of Jesus – This is the celebration / reason for the gathering. – The cars are parked on the premises of the Old House.

APRIL 19, 2002 – VOL. 10

   - Out of the corridor of our school, I see myself wiping a long stretch of glass frame (?) on top of a table-like structure, about a foot, horizontally and perhaps, as long as the corridor , vertically. Under the glass frame could be pictures – class pictures / school activities. Tim and I are classmates. As I run the rug on the glass, I would be consoling myself- Tim and I are in section II of our classes / subjects – not section I – where the best of students can be found. It’s best no one expects the best from us, for we have our hearts and minds fixated / focused on our Mission where we should be most intelligent / superior in performance. There’s a boy janitor at the edge of the glass frame, who perhaps, also wipes it clean. He looks at the pictures / illustration with much candor.

APRIL 28, 2002 - VOL. 10

 - I hear/ see myself say- “YES! I AM.” (JESUS)

APRIL 29, 2002 – VOL. 10

  - I am to retrieve the car (jeep-type) of Kuya Obet that I borrow from him – use in the talakay and leave in Makati Avenue, near / almost fronting Tim’s place. As I am to get it, I see 2 men irate that the vehicle is parked in front of their house. One man removes the wheel (front) and the other, I don’t know. I try to reason with them. – Next scene, we are inside their house. One of these men is particularly disbelieving in me – Behind me, I find out, it is LA who secretly boards the vehicle (the jeep?), sits at the back with Tim who doesn’t report it to me. I ask LA why he does that – He says, “Sinisigawan lang ako ni Nanay, eh!” In comes Mel who follows us (rapidly) and finds where we are. Next, the flock arrives with Nanay and others (?) with candles- the men, who are mad at me about my concept of God, as if to find out if I really tell the truth about the“talakay”. I find myself on the 2^nd floor, wide, and ask for 2 blank sheets of paper and a pencil. A woman relative (?) (staying in that house) hands me several pieces of pencil (10 or more) (not yet “tasa”). This same woman would give me “tasa” pencil. The other man, earlier, is to my left – wearing different color paintings on his face. Another one with facial paints would come and ask for something     from __?__. I remember him saying apologetically, “Kawawa ka naman …” something to this effect. The eyes and the brows are accentuated with paint designs. I realize they are gays. Asking the man who’s mad at me if he wants to hold talakay upstairs since it’s more spacious, I guess he agrees. One scene, I’d see Tim seated with others (the people in the house, as well) faintly explaining our side. I take notice on his seemingly chapped, darkish colored lips as he mutters something I cannot hear so much. To myself, I say it’s perfect – I can start with everything that I know as far as my role is concerned  and my flock will be reminded once we explain every detail of my preaching / story. Earlier, on the 2^nd floor (pencil/sheet scene), I would ask the woman what the name of man– A is EAgrace? Man B says to just call him EAbrae?

MAY 2, 2002 – VOL. 10

  - Second floor, Nanay’s house – At the piano area / sala area, I see (3-4 inches) small snakes – of different colors coming out – In Nanay’s CR and the sala, at first, I’d see black ones. Daddy would get wooden / hard soled women’s slippers which I’d use to quash / crush the snake. On my mind, could this be caused by the soil erosion / collapse of the kitchen area?I’d hear Nora Garcia’s voice who speaks to some people downstairs – foyer of Nanay’s house – She’d mention the words “Madame Ariel” and “Wala naming masasabi kundi kanyang kabaklaan!” – something like this. Her speech surmises I lose something / over them. Furious, I am about to go down, but would feel an urgency to take a leak. I hand over some documents to Daddy, excuse myself and head for Nanay’s CR. Inside the CR, there would be different colored snakes, too. I’d see extra-ordinary looking bees (?) – green/blue green in color which would, later, all nestle on a box and enter it – It’s Olan’s bees / bugs – It’s given. I see these bees / bugs in an earlier dream. Likewise, I’d notice I have a head-set / right ear receiver and mike for transmitting messages (a la operator). Someone calls for Olan – It’s Olan’s headset, as well – I answer. He says Olan who goes by the name Romero __?__ and other names. He (caller) mentions they have receivables – They can’t get these receivables for reasons he explains – Suddenly, Oliver dressed in drag with wavy hair (wig) pops out – He’s by the door of the CR calling my attention. I motion to him to be quiet, as I am on the phone with someone / there’s a call on my receiver. With regards to Nora G.’s comment about my “gayness” – I am to say to her that I am the only living (proof) example of True Manhood – Manhood before my / your God. The dream does not prosper after the CR scenes.

MAY 13, 2002 – VOL. 10

    - I see myself, Eddie Garcia and 2 unfamiliar/new actors in a movie about Jose Rizal.  Who plays Rizal – Is it I? Unsure about this – very unsure about this.

    - On the street between Square J video and Central 1, I would desire to be Superman and fly – I do. I’d stretch my right hand first and then, left. Later, I’d find myself fighting UFOs (?).

MAY 16, 2002 – VOL. 10

    - In a foreign country, I see Filipinos mingling with some foreigners who are allies to them over an act to raise a “flag” (white flag). I see myself come near the flag and slowly tear a piece of it (quite long). It seems there is wide opposition to raise the flag – Filipinos I see could be political figures of dubious background/character. As if I now hear of this situation on TV (a la CNN?) – A woman reporter says, “We can see Filipinos cross over the wall (?) / boundary”. Could be “only Filipinos” crossing/jumping over the fence. I see foreign soldiers with guns who do not touch these Filipinos. There’s a commotion over something – COULD IT BE RELIGION? Unsure of this – The foreigners (at least some) look like Jesus (?) / Middle-East-looking – unsure of this and the cause of the commotion over some issues. On the same report on TV, I’d see a mother holding a huge snake about to have her child killed by it – as told in the report – Unfortunately, this mother is the one attacked by the snake – She is bitten at the nape/ the snake still plunged at her back – as she is ravaged (?) by the snake. She wails in pain. I see her baby near her. They look submerged partly in a swampy area. It must be a documentary report, as the ordeal of this woman is captured on camera and can be viewed up until perhaps she dies –

 -  I dream of getting up very early morning, board my car, drive and upon reaching a certain area (Makati?), I stop in the middle of the road – bumper to bumper (?) traffic /or merely a stop. I get off my car since there’s a jeep right infront of me to check how far the traffic / how worse the traffic is. All I know, the next thing I should / do is get back to the car and close the door (of my car). To my surprise, I am already on board the passenger jeep which earlier is just in front of my car. I am carrying something folded. Realizing it’s my stop / destination, I am to pay the driver (intersection). There are only 2 passengers – myself and another. Shocked to find out I only have a few coins – less P5.00 – about P2.00 plus, I hand the coins over to the driver who doesn’t mind counting it. He inserts the coins in his polo shirt pocket (?). Carrying the folded thing in my hand onward, my scheme to watch a movie, I reach for my pocket to find out I have only a P5.00 bill as money. Such a weary day, I decide to go home. I know I have a car coming here and so I unfold what I carry as if I just need to open the door of my car and drive home. – But there’s no car – just a YELLOW folding bed. How does that happen? Next scene, I’d see myself lying on a bed (Resthouse?) with Niño, both of us sleepy / just wakened up because of my dream experience. I relate to him this dream – and ask him how I could miss out my white car (unless it’s YELLOW colored, too) with the yellow folding bed in the middle of the road? Does God deliberately do this to me to show His Power and Might? In the thick of relating this dream, I remember an incident where upon sight of an illustration in my book (a sketch / a list of choices), a new scene / frame enters. There’s a woman (Inday?), Tim with me, I am reading this illustration (not a dream) of an actual experience where I ask Tim – What is it, Tim? Tim recalls – “When you couldn’t sleep!” – “Ah, yes!” – Apparently, I draw / do this illustration of what to do – In real life, no such thing happens. It is merely incorporated in my dream being related to Niño that I have an actual experience of not being able to sleep and that I do some illustrations of what to do – All of these things – the Hand of God – The Power to do and undo, to arrange and re-arrange. The scope of this message goes far back as the Old Testament. Earlier with Niño on the bed, I feel my left ear oozing / gushing with phlegm (?) / cold discharge / secretion (luga). Soon as I wake up, I check on my left ear – there’s none.

                                                        TRIVIA:

EAB’S CARS ARE ALL WHITE/ BEIGE, PAST AND PRESENT EXCEPT FOR HIS FIRST CAR- BLUE TOYOTA MACHO AND CHAMPAIGNE HONDA CIVIC. NO SUCH YELLOW CAR OR FOLDING BED IN REAL LIFE.

MAY 25, 2002 – VOL. 11

- In a museum with Bel, Grace, Jee and another (Alma?). We are (as well as the museum, of course) in the U.S. (?). Paintings, art pieces, plant arrangement/landscape that are done by Nita, our household help – Jee asking how she does it – “WHOLE TOMATO (SLICE?) ?” Jee says as she’s inside the building – while I am outside just overhearing her through the tall glass windows. I say, “Yes!” – And some others that Nita uses to make the plant arrangement / landscape fantastic – gorgeous – the plants from the smallest to the tallest. Throughout the walk in the gallery/museum, I find myself alone – One very wide room display is that of JESUS – His crucifixion (?) and some statues (human- size) of his disciples (?) – I think the human- size statues are partly submerged in water (?). I don’t enter the room. One scene I feel Bel. I already see this exhibition or this museum called SAMPAGUITA Museum (?), formerly located / on display in Mandaluyong (In real life, I have no knowledge of this). Another scene shows Bel coming out of a room / reaching the top of a stairs and Grace nestles her head on Bel’s thigh (?) / part of Bel’s body and she says, “Uy!” Bel comments that Grace “flaunts” her love (?) / fondness of her. Bel wears a pajama outfit / slightly resembling a hospital gown – V-neck upper shirt (polo) – more of a sleeping attire. Both Bel and Grace are enjoying the outing. On my mind, I wonder if Jee and Alma (?) overhear their sweetness – There’s a voice that suggests we go visit another State in America – I forget the name of the State where Philippine jeeps ply the road and Americans would ride. The jeep has doors on the side (both sides?) and a steel protection block at the door. One scene shows (with a voice over) as if a commercial on TV that Americans also have/use monobloc chairs – white – which are widely used in the Philippines.

MAY 26, 2002 – VOL. 11

 -  There seems to be a festival / holiday celebration. People are out. People on the side of Romy’s store (In the dream, still the Salgados store)- It goes aflame – People in commotion. Chavez’ store and others seem to be moved closer to the Salgado’s store like moving stores. I think for a while it’s the Chavez’ store that’s burning. I see her there (Chavez). From Nanay’s window, I can see all these happening. Next scene, I see Purita in Nanay’s room – She hits something or gets hurt by a closet door – Crying and without saying anything about it. I’d be surprised to see some of those who are in the Salgado’s fire, Tony B. and others still with some stains on their forehead and others (little stains / ash stains). There seem to be guests (?) in Nanay’s house. Going back to Nanay’s room and settling by the window, I say to them (the guests, as well as my relatives?), “YOU ALLOW THE FESTIVITIES GET OVER YOU AND YOU GET HUNG OVER THEM (FESTIVITIES). I DON’T AND THESE FESTIVITIES HAVE NO CONTROL OVER ME.” something to this effect. One scene, from the sala window (?), I’d see a boy (who I think as Brian) jump out of Nanay’s window. It is Ody when I check him out. He ties both his feet / leg with something looking like a long pajama pants / ordinary pants (very long) – like a bungee jump without hitting the ground. I pull him up and remove something like terminals with electric current on his head. From the window (Nanay’s), I’d call out for Brian, Adeth, Adine to eat. Earlier, Tony B. goes to the kitchen upon arrival with another guy. Earlier still, I’d tell Nanay it’s my dream that the Salgado fire is a prophecy of mine. I see Adeth and other kids in Nicky’s garage playing / doing something.

MAY 30, 2002 – VOL. 11

- Recalled portions – Outside, in an unfamiliar place with Allan K attracted to Me. We are on board an owner jeep. Intently, he gazes at me trying to figure out how old I am until he asks finally – I say, a little over 40 or late 30’s (38?). A few seconds later, I’d say the truth – I guess he still likes me – He promises to pay me / gives me something after doing sex with him, I guess. Oliver comes – because I call him and ask for a stick of cigarette (looking like the Philip Morris pack and gold-plated lighter). Oliver grins as I take notice of his gold lighter. Bel comes, too and is amazed at Oliver’s beautiful lighter – “maliit kasi” – slim – but not that slim – still looking like the ordinary lighter. I light up my cigarette – a la Robin Padilla. Oliver and Bel both leave – One scene, I would see 3 high- ranking priests standing infront of a low rise (one level) establishment – looking like Biñan Jollibee (?), but maybe not. Hurriedly getting off the jeep, I approach the one I think of as the POPE (?) / CARDINAL SIN (but not looking like him). He wears a tall headdress like a Pope or a Cardinal. I remember shaking his hand / do I put his hand on my forehead or kiss his hand – I cannot recall. What I do is a gesture of respect – after which I say to him, “One day, you will kiss my hand!” The priest hardly hears what I say, probably because we’re on the street and there are other people (not much) around or he hears what I say and find it audacious and ridiculous – He asks me, “What?” I say it again – “One day you will kiss my hand!” Now, clearly does he hear it – Leering at me, he says, “What a stupid (not said) thing / idea…” something like this. I leave and go back to Allan who transfers / drives the jeep elsewhere – For a while, I think he abandons me. Strangely, the jeep now has loads of fruits inside. The owner jeep seems roofless at the back. I see 2 pieces of papaya which I place on top of a tubular steel (silver colored) patungan. There are other fruits on the floor of the jeep. Allan parks the jeep near mounds of calamansi dumped on the ground. Beside the calamansi mounds is a pushcart - filled with coconuts and maybe, some other fruits. I am tempted to board some of these fruits. I suggest to Allan to get some, but we don’t. Earlier, after my encounter with the priest, I take out 3 brown folders pertinent to the mission (as if I’m searching for something). Uncertain about this, but I think I am able to tell Allan about my role which he disbelieves claiming, “Ah, yon? Dati na ‘yan!” meaning, there are cases like mine / cults / false prophets though he doesn’t say these derogatory words. We’re parked on a corner lot – looking like EDSA corner White Plains Avenue, on the site where the People’s Movement is erected (but, maybe not). Of course, the monuement isn’t there, yet. There’s no one tending the mounds of calamansi and other fruits on the ground.

JUNE 4, 2002 – VOL. 11

   - ________  Church – right side wing of the church seems filled with people. There are people outside the door. I enter the front door. As I enter, there’s a woman who sells something. It is given in an earlier dream, she has a regular store inside the church, just as you enter. It seems dark and her store today, Sunday, is partly closed. There are many vacant seats as I proceed on to the church. There’s something being fixed / constructed inside. Noise / music comes from a living quarter inside the church – A small party, perhaps – and the church would allow this noise while mass is going on? Seated now, I see the one at the center of the church – speaking / sermonizing (?) over a microphone – The man isn’t wearing a priestly attire, neither his ways are that of a clothed man. – More like entertaining the people, instead of holding a sacred mass. He’s replaced by another man. The sight of an orchestra at the right side of the altar shocks me even more. The kind of music the orchestra plays seems atypical / improper to the occasion. Nick stands by a window at the left side of the altar, while the man at the center makes funny, if not scary gestures that produce equally scary, if not odd looking shadows of his hands.  Nick imitates this man’s absurd mannerism, perhaps to elicit laughter from the audience. Likewise, Nick’s hands produce reflections / shadows of a monster’s hands, as if to scare. I think these 2 men (Nick and the other) growl as they make these grotesque shadows with their hands. A scene, earlier, where the first man at the center of the church (or is it the 2^nd?) who lipsynchs a song. I have a feeling I’d do it better (lipsynch) than him. A scene where I say to someone (?) THE CATHOLIC CHURCH WILL BE THE FOOTHOLD OF MY PREACHINGS. – Uncertain if this is part of the ________ Church dream. Could also be a mere thought (?) – Vague, but nagging and persistent in my head. Unsure if it is a dream.

JUNE 5, 2002 – VOL. 11

- I see a foreign middle- aged man wearing khaki uniform with a narrow sleek hat (military uniform) against a backdrop of still and moving pictures as if searching- singing the song, “AROUND THE WORLD”. He (almost) finishes the entire song – I could savor all the lyrics to the song. Moving pictures show different people and places – One scene is on board a moving vehicle with lots of rich people (mostly women). I think I see a royal princess / young Queen Margaret / Elizabeth, bejeweled with her hair up to neck only, laid down and parted in the middle. In the vehicle, seems like a luxury coach, women chat and giggle – a familiar Hollywood actress (she’s a little old now) amuses me, Lesley Ann Warren. She’s young here. She looks at the “camera” and smiles twitching her hair. Almost all the women, if not the young queen and women sport the same kind of hairstyle – maybe a fad during those days – seems like a “lioness cut”, but shorter (up to the neck only). A downtown alley/subway entry (still picture) is shown – All foreign people and places. I vividly recall the lyrics – “I KNEW SOMEHOW, SOMETIME (?), SOMEWHERE – YOU’D LOOK AT ME AND I WILL SEE, THE SMILE YOU’RE SMILING NOW” and the rest of the last lines of the lyrics. The song is captivating – haunting to a point that when I wake up, I think of the one person I ever truly love, if not the topmost reason why I am here – GOD, as well as the possibility of falling in- love again – with any very gorgeous young, foreign man.

JUNE 7, 2002 – VOL. 11

- Recalled Portion – There’s a man or a woman (the man is EAB?) who has an affiliation / special relationship with a real man whose wife (?) and sister (?), sister-in-law try to expose if he or she is a con man / woman. This man /or woman stays / is made to stay once in a while in the man’s house to the ire of his wife (?). One scene, when he opens his room, his wife (?) finds out “I am” there. The wife brings food. A scene where I prepare something for cooking (some onions?) and the sister/ sister-in-law takes over the cooking. Another scene, outside the house (within the premises), this sister / wife (?) of the man brings over an old man who performs a certain ritual using his tears as tool. On my mind, this old man may find out I am gay / have gay relationships that’ll turn off this nice man who takes me to his home. I go behind the old man who’s guarded by his sister. I gaze at what the old man does / uses – looking more like saliva to me than tears. About a few feet from the old man and the sister are seated this nice man, his father (?) and I, supposedly – In an instant, I’d leave the scene which may expose something about me. Outside the gate, there are 3 spies / detectives who are given to be in surveillance of me. The androgynous me now is a woman, who they initially subdue, but later would fight back. I sort of jump and hangs on electrical wirings and destabilize these men. Hazy. – Earlier, in the man’s room, I’d go to the CR to take a bath (?) – to conceal myself from anyone – This man enters the CR, too, to do something which I sort of dislike – Later, I’d realize there are 2 CRs. Seems this man likes me /or is very close to me to a point he takes me home to his wife and family (?). Weird. – The 3 spies merge / turn to Darna (?) – One Darna – later, I’d just see a monster hand. I only see Darna costume.

JUNE 8, 2002 – VOL. 11

 -  Thought or Vision? – I see myself embracing Audrey and others (?)     consoling them with words, “HUWAG KANG BIBIGAY, MALAPIT NA!”

JUNE 13, 2002 – VOL. 11

  -  Bel and I are in a room separate from the others. There are mirrors (?) infront and side of the room as if a booth/ an office cubicle- piles after piles of notes of dreams (?)/ records of the things we do on the table are before us. Some are written on pad papers. It sends us a sense of panic realizing they are not chronologically arranged- dates, years. Are they all mine- my records/ Books of Dreams/ notes? I see myself pull out one pad/ note- seeing the dates (I forget) not arranged properly. A scene where I see an album of pictures of people who witness (?)/ are part of the table/ friends who sympathize (?)- an album of my witnesses? One particular picture catches my attention- that of Lucky holding his cellphone showing its screen. Amazingly, the screen of the cell still receives messages/ or its graphics still moves/ cell screen still activated still despite it being suspended in a picture. Actually seeing a movie picture of a woman (?). Showing Bel this unbelievable picture of Lucky, she says- “Naka- on pa naman ang cell ni Lucky hanggang ngayon”- not the exact words but something like this. Earlier, not certain about this- do I see a year incompatible to the years we record- as in earlier years than 1997 or future years 2000 plus ? I could be wrong 

      

JUNE 17, 2002 – VOL. 11

 -  I see a newspaper headline with a picture of a man (side view) and the caption, “WHO AM I TO BEGIN?” Left side portion (?) of the newspaper is about JOHN THE BAPTIST (?).

JUNE 18, 2002 – VOL. 11

-   Nanay’s house (outside) painted YELLOW/ gold. I, Nolan and another, a young boy 10 to 12yrs old are on the right of way, Old house door. I am wearing a large, thick T-shirt and yet it doesn’t make me feel warm/ uncomfortable despite the heat of the sun. My shorts are so big- sometimes, they fall to my knees. There’s music once in a while coming from Nanay’s house. Roberto plays music. I see him pass by the window of Nanay’s room. Surprised at the bold decision to have the house painted YELLOW/ gold. And it has some sort of design (painted only) like WAVES in some areas. It’s nice- I go infront of the house and delight at its new face- as if the three of us wait for something

JUNE 19, 2002 – VOL. 11

- Timothy, Nolan and I in America. Either we see our passports stamped upon entry to the U.S., or the stamp for visa approval – it’s the former, I believe. In one scene, by the door of a church (?), I’d say to Tim, “Imagine we’re in America after 2 / 3 days after dreaming it? Who’d believe it?” I’d see myself with Purita in the hospital – entering a room for Purita to show me around (?) and take some medicine (?) for hypertension (?). Hazy. Though every scene may not be chronological in this record / writing, I remember one scene where a woman talks to Purita and asks her if she knows a man by the name of Eduardo Villegas or Eduardo Vargas. Strangely, this woman is sort of sucked up by a screen /or that she suddenly disintegrates and appears on a white screen like squarish structure when I ask her, “Who are you?” (?). This woman shouts and says something about Eduardo Vargas’ wrongful conduct (?) because he has no problems with his “titi”. The woman’s image transforms to different flashes of absurd if not devilish (?) / scary illustrations – I must see a skull – fast paced changes of bizarre images – As if my hands are able to enter the screen, like a 3- dimensional movie, clutched – and yell at her, “I will crush you!” She disappears from the screen. I do not know how I am portrayed / described by this woman – whether he’s a messenger of good or evil – A sinner or saint – Another scene with Purita shows us about to watch an opera (?) / stage play. About to sit by a structure placed near the stage, Purita leans on it (in a sitting position already). The structure moves because of her heavy weight – and I quote, “Ang dali nang mag-reduce dito sa America – why can’t you?” – something like this. She smiles only – At the upper balcony, I think I see a shirtless, almost sweaty boy that I suspect to be Ace – I could be wrong. He’s with a girl (?). Unsure about this. One scene, Nolan, Tim and I are so happy (we’re sort of jumping / running) that we can show our passports with the stamp upon entry to the U.S. Earlier, the crazy / raging woman who talks to Purita – I see her earlier in this dream – Some scenes in this dream show me with Tim only. Earlier, the tone of my voice seems loud, authoritative and very powerful when I yell, “I will crush you!” – As if the crazed woman disappears on the screen because of it. I am waiting for her to say my name, EAB, instead of Villegas or Vargas. Earlier, the 3 of us (Nolan, Tim and I) could not believe we’re in the land of milk and honey. I don’t know for what reason, there’s a part in this dream where Purita tells me about a medicine which is to be taken with a small amount of lard / oil – for what? I can’t remember.

JUNE 21, 2002 – VOL. 11

-   Bel and Alma upstairs in one of the bedroom (?) unsure about this – I think I get something from them. I, too, perhaps, do something. One scene, I take a brown envelop and see if I have correspondence – I find out it belongs to Olan who’s just near me. It’s a job application. I ask him if it’s his - Astonished at his answer, “Oo” which he changes to “OHO!” I keep my composure. He perhaps now recognizes he has to respect what I have. It is somehow given Nanay would make him comprehend about reverence to my God. On my mind, do I have a job application, too? – Just a thought. On Olan’s job application, he is graded /or I see a number 4. – Olan does not pass / his application disapproved – I remember Bel and Alma who are doing something? – not nasty – I think of preparing some coffee for them. To the kitchen, I go. I get 2 mugs – noticing almost all mugs have no handles – but the 2 mugs I get for Bel and Alma have. The maid Gam and I hire years ago ___?___. We call her “Mato” (Matutina). Her real name is Gemma. She works in the kitchen – She mentions about “kapeng barako” which my brothers (Olan perhaps) prepare which Gemma laughs at – I say to her we like that kind of coffee – but would not serve them to Bel and Alma. I look for milk and sugar. She says they’re in the upstairs kitchen. By the lavatory, I’d see 2 kettles – one with cold water (?) and the other with hot water. One kettle is silver in color. The kitchen where Gemma and I are seems like the 2^nd floor kitchen. I ask her, “May gamit din dun?” I see Nanay and ask her something – I forget about it. I’d bring my friends coffee and something else – bread, perhaps.

JUNE 24, 2002 – VOL. 11

-   In an open field, I see a BLACK HORSE- my favorite horse. I run towards the other side AND ANOTHER HORSE RUNS AFTER ME/ TOGETHER WITH ME/ TAILS ME. I watch it as we reach the grassy portion of the field- to find out what it’s going to eat palmera plant. I pull out some branches to give to my black horse. I run towards it and I guess, I give the leaves to the horse. Not surprised, THE HORSE TALKS TO ME WITH REGARDS TO THE ANTS THAT LIVE AND WALK AROUND WHAT LOOKS LIKE ITS FOREHEAD- HARD PROTRUDING FOREHEAD ATYPICAL OF A HORSE- WHERE THE ANTS STAY.  I short of run my fingers on it (forehead) .THE HORSE SAYS SOMETHING LIKE- NO ONE WOULD NOTICE THESE ANTS WHEN THEY SEE HIM (THE HORSE).

JUNE 25, 2002 – VOL. 11

Sleeptalk: EAB’s sleeptalk

“THE MULTITUDE OF PEOPLE THAT WILL SERVE HIM!”

TRIVIA:

June 25, 2002- Bank seizes the two properties involved in the Mission.

JUNE 29, 2002 – VOL. 11

- I am holding talakay at the corner space of the stairs (right, as you reach the 2^nd floor stairs, Nanay’s house) with Olivia – about HOW TO LOVE GOD WITH ALL HER MIND, HEART, SOUL AND STRENGTH and setting her daughter, Tessa, as an example. I ask for Tessa’s age – 20? (Not married, yet). There seems to be no wall, left side of the stairs covering the dining area – I see Georgie. Later, Georgie would talk to Nanay on a loud tone of voice (no quarrel) unto the sala where they’d sit down with Olan (?) (Or LA?) who’s so well dressed – casually – shirt inside with a Hawaiian- looking polo shirt (round neck T-shirt). I request them to be quiet. I would mention the 20 years Olivia continues to shower her daughter with love – The only time (20 years) when Tessa can say her mother truly loves her – I ask Olivia, “WHO DO YOU LOVE NOW, GOD? IN WHAT WAY AND HOW LONG?” Olivia and I seem to be seated – The floor seems elevated (?).

JUNE 30, 2002 – VOL. 11

SLEEPTALK: EAB’s sleeptalks

1. “Come here My Child! Come here My Child!”
2. “Tim!”
3. “I can’t sleep, John!”

 

JULY 3, 2002 – VOL. 11

- I see an old man (Preacher / leader of a Religious group) at a table with several other people / members of the group. Someone hands out money / coins to him and he puts the money in a box / container. The old man seems to be wearing quite a long messy hair – It is the act of receiving money / donations in the name of God (in the guise of propagating the Gospel) that I resent / My role resents.

JULY 4, 2002 – VOL. 11

 -  Still very ill – I see myself in one corner of Baguio Rotonda. I say / hear the words, “Hanggang dito na lang ako” / “Tama na ‘ko dito” – essence of which is to say to God – “I stop here” / “Can’t go on anymore” – maybe referring to my desire to go back to Manila (the weather is killing me – Not part of the dream)

TRIVIA:

Baguio 2-yr refuge after the bank seized the two properties involved in the Mission.

- An unfamiliar house (?). I see Tim seated, his back to me by what seems like a counter. As if simultaneously happening- the information that whatever is learned / taught in the Old House (?) will be wasted away (?) / forgotten and the slow disintegration of the counter – as if being sucked up / pulled away by a force. There is a mention of something new / a new group? Hazy.

- I am to go somewhere – to Attorney Volante who earlier, insinuates sexual favor in exchange for some money. It seems / I expect she’d give me, at least, P1, 000.00. The thought is on my mind. In a hurried frenzy, I find myself parking my car by the road and walk. Behind me is Nanay and another (?) who I never know are with me / tail me. I carry a leather jacket in my hand. It drizzles. A change of mind – Instead of walking, I go head for my car. Nanay hurriedly follows me and ask about my “manananggal costume”. Earlier, I’d be informed about this costume that I’d wear. Boarding now a tricycle (?), I notice Nanay a bit irate when she mentions about her dream which she wants me to believe and follow. Inside the tricycle, I’d yell at her, “Ngayon ka lang nanaginip / isang panaginip lang, gusto mong paniwalaan ko. Ako, 5 libo, kahit isa hindi ka naniwala. Gusto mo maniwala ako sa isang panaginip mo lang?” It seems the “manananggal outfit” has something to do with her dream. It seems Nanay boards a tricycle, too /or drives it herself. I’d see myself driving the tricycle, or so, it implies that I do.

JULY 6, 2002 – VOL. 11

- An unfamiliar house where Gam and I live in – near the highway / front of the highway. Both Gam and I climb up the stairs leading to the highway (?) or stairs (ours) overlooking the highway. From out of the clouds / sky, a huge dinosaur- head (design only) of a vehicle (airplane?), unsure about it – detaches from its main body and zooms its way down towards the highway / our house (?). All vehicles in the highway stop – I summon Gam to get out of our place / house. The moment the huge dinosaur- head (design of a vehicle / vessel – Train? Ship? Unsure) / cockpit of the vehicle detaches. It’s given to me / reminded to me that this is a flock member’s dream (Elsie’s / Nolan’s?). I say this to Gam. Frightened as to the destruction this mishap may cause, we get down the stairs (elevated rail).

JULY 11, 2002 – VOL. 11

- A book with pictures and illustrations about Jesus – Author Luminaire (?) de Barbierie (?). Jesus’ picture has meanings – eyebrows, lips – with interpretations and countries that are significant in the future (?). Jesus’ picture magnified 1,000 times, perhaps, that reveals such names, countries and future events – An article that Jesus is still “alive”. Is it a Bible that I hold? – COULD I MISREAD THAT JESUS IS STILL ALIVE IN THE PHILIPPINES (?). One fantastic book – fiction, perhaps – but in the dream, I am glued to it – No words to explain the contents of the book. – It is as if they are decoding Jesus’ picture which I find ridiculous since there is no such authentic pictures of Jesus – thus, the unreliability of such magnification and interpretation.

 

JULY 11, 2002 – VOL. 11

- In an unfamiliar place, I read a certain book – I see a name, “Daniel Byrne (?) Baptiste” – newspaper files featured in the book – places he goes to – preaching – old photographs – very old – One photo of him as a soldier (?) out to preach. Headline of him coming to a certain place – written in different languages – “Baptiste” could mean Baptist preacher – I go out of the room to get another book (?) on a pile of several books placed on top of a small table. Daddy comes and picks up one book. He says he’s not into reading books. Mentioning a particular word, “PHOTOSYNTHESIS” which means, according to him, “A MAN’S / HUSBAND’S OBSESSION OVER HIS WIFE” (man to a woman). He says he can’t do that (?). Unsure of this – I see a photo of such – A woman in the 50’s (old photograph) and a story about a man’s obsession to a woman / husband to his wife (such obsession is detrimental / bad). – It is as if I keep reading books. One story I find is bizarre – It becomes so real – like moving / acting characters – where THE “EVIL” (?) ONE (though not looking as such) asks who challenges (?) him. The character who answers “Me!” turns out to be myself. Do I hear myself answer “Me!” while holding the book? Suddenly, I am transported to the scene in the story – dressed like the olden days – Knight’s days / Medieval age – a certain luminous cloth / plastic covers my groin though there’s no sexual organ / penis at all, just like my opponent. – We are both naked with loin cloths only (loin cloth or aluminum foil-like paper, inch wide to cover our groin). We do not have bulges in our groin – flat – like a woman’s – I seem to be being lifted up by a chain / rope, as well as my opponent who laughs viciously – WE ARE TO FIGHT ONE ANOTHER – Suddenly, I am back to reading – set up and I tell Gam to look at the scene where I do not have penis – and I sort of marvel / query at this. – A caption – A part in a story that I read in a book (don’t know what dream this is included in) that reads (?) “BEFORE THE WRATH OF GOD… ” I see a picture / old photograph of people on the rush (?). Hazy.

JULY 15, 2002 – VOL. 11

                      “MY HEALING HANDS”

- A scene where I see myself walking – headed to a church. I do not know where it begins, but I see a man bring over his daughter he carries in his arms – The girl seems sleeping with some tiny pimples / eruptions / boils (?), perhaps not – on her face. It is as if I speak earlier before the crowd and hopelessness over the case of his child pushes his feet and resolve to find out if I could be way better than mere speeches – With a slight doubt / fear on mind, I may not live up to this man’s expectations, I just lay my hand on the girl’s forehead – It seems drizzling. Do I hear me say (to myself) / on my head, or to the father and daughter – “BE HEALED!” without ever seeing the girl wake up. The man walks away. I remember touching the man’s forehead, as well, noticing the same eruptions on his forehead – The same illness, perhaps.

 -  A scene outside of the church – entrance – where there are people listening to the mass (?). This man is sick – I lay my hands on his face – surprisingly again, Nolan would “imitate” or try to draw some power (?) from me or the person I heal. The first time he does this, I push Nolan away. He repeats the same act again with this man. When this man realizes I push him or he himself pushes Nolan, I tell him not to (?) push him? – Order him, “NOT TO TOUCH THE HANDS OF A MORTAL” referring to Nolan.

-    I see myself walk straight to the altar where a priest (?) wearing white priestly attire is ascending the stairs – Right behind him, I imitate his every step/climb – This is before the crowd of people hearing the mass. Before the priest (?) could ever look at me, I remove his headdress to mock him – Candles are stationed at the uppermost step/level. I burn his headdress through the candle flame. Looking down at my feet, I fear I may get burned by the candle under/between my legs – but, the flame of this particular candle, by some stroke of power, is put off. My hand stretched holding this headdress (cloth) watching it slowly burn. Next scenes are hazy.

- A scene in front of the altar (Is it the same church?), I see myself standing before the crowd while a cynical disbelieving man challenges the POWER that beckons me to heal – if I could put out the flame that threatens to burn part (whole?) of the church. From the door of the church, I see from afar another building (?) being engulfed by flames. On my mind, will it rain? The day seems clear – I hear the man say, “IT’S THE ELEVENTH DAY…” As if to insult / rebuke / mock me – I know it’ll rain – This rain will put out the fire. I do not actually see that it does – Next scene, or what transpires is not given / shown.

 -  I see myself by the side of (external portion) a church that is dimly lit, if there are lights at all. Dark it is – from corners of every closed door of the church would I feel and see movements of shadows / people who do not wish to be seen. Individuals who hide in the dark – maybe ostracized by society – infected by a dreaded disease, perhaps – On my mind, should they attack me, it’ll not affect me – Is it here where I pick up a piece of cloth? It is raining – I open the gate of the church – In a very unfamiliar territory / ability to manifest GOD’S POWER and HEALING HANDS, I find myself slowly transforming to the role / entity – Incredible and impossible to my eyes and the disbelieving and scornful eyes of many, I once was – and will always be – “THE HEALER”. I seem to always see my feet as they take their steps forward – Scenes of other healings where I lay my hands on the people’s faces run like a fast paced movie – People seem foreign? Unsure about this – A scene where Nolan is pushed away – He walks towards a steel grill and upon touch on these grills, a flash of light brilliantly shines upon him and his surrounding – I see flowers and fruits (?) mangoes (?). Nolan seems shirtless as he stays glued to the grills while I continue on healing a man.

JULY 25, 2002 – VOL. 11

- I am reminded of a dream, supposedly dreamt this morning (although I have no recollection). It is about Tim, Nolan and I going to Malacañan (?) ( though not specified) – seeing / talking to Gloria Macapagal- I discuss with her my “role” and perhaps, other things – She’s mum about the whole thing. This afternoon’s dream reminding me this dream includes Oliver (?) – I ask Tim/Nolan if we ever go talk to GMA– I don’t get to ask it – I see myself writing down this dream on the back of a magazine cover (topmost) – I SEE THE WORD “ROLE” and what I am just about to write (on my mind) but don’t actually see written down /or don’t actually write down, “THE GLORY OF WHAT IS TO COME”. Gloria M does seem “impressed” / convinced.

JULY 27, 2002 – VOL. 11

-    Lita (?), Mila M’s younger sister (unsure of this) and Olan hand-over to me my Book of Dreams. It is amazing to see that some of the pages of the notebook have illustrations/ representations of actual stuffs given in the dream- FRUITS- LOTS OF FRUITS- REAL FRUITS that I put on the page. Every page bulges because of the size of the fruits. I see avocados (black red), santols? And others. I see a page with grilled beef and other real stuffs with it. It seems we are by the door of the dirty kitchen (___________?)- unsure of this. Deciding to just draw some of the real/ genuine fruits so as not to make my book messy/ bulging, I summon Olan to get a pencil. I see Nick in the scene. Off Olan goes to get a pencil. It takes him so much time. Next scene, I see myself climb up to the second floor unto Gam’s room. There are some stuffs in his room- ceramic decors. Going down the stairs, someone plays Christmas songs (Nanay?) . Descending from the stairs, I see somewhat of a platera / shelf of decorative ceramic plates which I fear would fall off. Seeing it’s positioning (back of ceramic plates), it is safely placed (by Gam). Downstairs, the music stops. I wonder who turns it softly/ off. Do I see Yammy playing / joking around with her Tito Olan (shrugging his head/ shoulder). I think I see Ody (?)- unsure of this- wearing a Santa headdress (?). Back to the dirty kitchen, I ask Nick where the pencil is. Lita is by another section of the kitchen- driver’s room (___________) washing her hands in the lavatory (There’s none in the driver’s room in ____________in real life). I keep searching for a pencil. Some pages with real fruits have no writings under/ on the page- as if the fruits represent the dream itself. But there are those pages which have some captions/ writings.    

                                                       TRIVIA:

The “FRUITS” on each page of my Book of Dreams/ Prophecies are the pictures, newspaper clippings and info attesting to the fulfilment of the dreams.

 

AUGUST 4, 2002 – VOL. 11

 -    I see myself walking along what looks like Ayala Ave.?- unsure about the street right side going to the north direction. By the sidewalk with some grass on it/ island perhaps, I see a CAR KEY- rubber top- just like the new breed of cars nowadays. I go turn and walk and look at the wide carpark beside or on the side of a building. There’s a guard on the street- seems like he sweeps the street with something (walis tingting?). I guess when I sense it is kind of safe to check on the car key if it works, I push a certain button- remote ignition key. ALL, I mean, ALL THE CARS IN THE PARKING LOT IGNITE/ START THEIR ENGINES. Amazing, I say to myself. Despite the key’s remarkable/ unique ability to ignite/ start all the engines of the cars, I decide to return the key to the guard of the building next to the parking lot. A few minutes later, as I head for the same direction (north?), a group of students (with the guard) follows/ comes after me- thanking me and introducing themselves as “E.E.”?- of LETRAN. More of girls- one boy (?). According to them, it’s a project they’re working on. The loss of the key yesterday causes them alarm. They look plenty but couldn’t locate it. I show to them where I find it. Just then my mother arrives coming from somewhere. (Earlier, I am given such an info that she goes somewhere). Tired, perhaps, of walking, she removes her shoes (bulked shoes?). The students walk not towards the building but to the left front of where we are. We follow. Next scene we are inside the ground floor of the building. Nanay, barefooted, staring at the billboard. I, too, am lured to look at it- “MILO” posters of sorts. I ask my mother where her shoes are. Overhearing a girl a student ask a guard how to cook tinola. He answers correctly but the girl says “No”. On my mind, the answer is very clear for I know how to cook tinola. As if a vision in my mind I sabaw/ content of water after sautéing garlic and ginger seems like a roomful of water. Earlier, I ask a girl student what “E.E.” means. “Electrical Engineering”- do I say this and she confirms it or she says it herself. Right after returning/ giving the key to the guard I go back walking and just like my earlier find, I would see two more car keys- one very old and the other, like a wire- twisted key (looking like)

TRIVIA:

1. 221/122,223/322,225/522- the Mission’s mystical numbers.
2. 223 is the Old House address where the Mission began.

 

AUGUST 16, 2002 – VOL. 11

-   Nolan passes a scholarship test abroad and he’s happy about it. There’s a festivity of sort in _________  (?). I watch many people play some sort of game / sport. Looking for Nolan, he’s nowhere to be found. From where I am, I see him somewhere right side of ______Street, fronting Bel Rizal’s house (pharmacy) – He seems to be engrossed with something else. I go closer to where he is – Now, he’s on the other side of ______Street (Aguilar’s property) seated on the fence while many people also gather on the same area – Intently examining the area, I see there’s also some sort of sports game with lots of beautiful men. Nolan has binoculars with him. – Perhaps, even when he is seated at the pharmacy. I call him – Nolan beside me, talking as we head towards the direction of Nanay’s house (not necessarily going there). He looks like an old sort of ugly woman (not so old – about 40-45 years old). I remember him mention, “Huwag kang mag-alala” referring to his departure for his scholarship – He mentions other nasty stuffs about my doings. There’s an old drunken man still holding his bottle of wine who butts in to defend / protect Nolan (a woman) from me. He has another companion who is on my left while the old man is beside “Nolan”. He doesn’t want to be stopped – Pulling out his gun to shoot me, I walk faster. There’s a sort of human size image of Jesus – sort of like a Nazareno, but not – lying down with his eyes closed. Soon as I get near this image, Jesus slowly opens his eyes and sits up. I am now by Jesus’ side. Seeing a gun on top a pasimano (higher than Jesus and myself) I pick it up and aim it at the man who has his gun, likewise, pointed at me. Earlier, the moment this old man pulls out his gun, I feel this is my time to die – A gun shot wound in the head – And I fear so much, yet, I wait while walking / heading near Jesus’ image that I be shot in the head – I guess I am sort of ready for it. In a totally different situation (a la action movie), both of us have guns aimed at each other. The man begins to slowly pull the trigger – same as me – I pull the upper part of my gun and aim it at him. He says the words, “GOD, BLESS……..” but before he could say, “YOU”, I say swiftly, “YOU’RE NOT” and I shoot him at close range. Nolan’s scholarship is something about computers. A scene earlier where Nolan talks to someone (a man?) in the crowd. Again, I would see the other side of Nolan T. The woman’s face (Nolan’s) is rough – smothered with so much whitish make-up – ugly sight. It is that when “she” says she leaves / departs from me because of the scholarship, I begin to think after a while of absence, maybe I’d easily forget him / her – just like many others before him who matter to me.

AUGUST 17, 2002 – VOL 12

- Bizarre Dream – _______ Shrine – Hazy – One scene, I am looking at the _________ Shrine supposedly during the Spanish Era / time. I do not see, (naturally?) the Old House on the right side – It saddens me tremendously – synonymous to the PNB seizure of the properties. ______  Shrine is a 3 storey house. Another scene, wanton sex with different men – You can make sex with every man you meet – I do not see women. A scene, I invite a man to do sex with me – He hesitates – Something (a shadow) lurks in the dark portion of the house (ghosts?). Suddenly, a sinister man (foreign looking) appears and runs after us – after I discover something hidden in a box – DEAD BODIES being used in experiments? Weird – Scene changes – Old House, ground floor – I see Eric remove his clothes (and another familiar face, short but good-looking). I see Eric’s stiff phallus. I say, “May size pala”. The other guy likewise strips – I see his small, but very stiff rod – They are to be used / they wish to be used by women who’d give them gifts / money – I see a woman carry lots of gifts – Her arms stretched holding on to the gifts. Niño, likewise, desires to be used (it is given, he is already done with others). Seeing this woman with gifts, he strips (Niño) – Transferring to another area of the ground floor (dining area?), so as not to be seen by Eric and others – his phallus, actually-  Sex in _____ Shrine – Sex on the ground floor area of the Old House (with women). Do I feel jealous over Niño’s act? Earlier, I’d see “GOD”? atop the roofless ______ Shrine – Like a giant – I’d see a man at a counter – It is given, his surname is _______ . I’d even hear my name, Ed / Eddie mentioned in another scene. I would remember (after seeing it) the word, “UMPIRE” and swear to use it as a password on somewhere else.

AUGUST 27, 2002 – VOL. 12

- On my way up to the 2^nd floor, there’s music playing, “ROCK WITH YOU”. I dance beautifully to it like a pro – People see me do my piece. Reaching the bedroom (?) / 2^nd floor, I’d still be dancing – Turning – hitting the beam posts on the ceiling, but doesn’t seem to distract my dancing. Later, I’d see some guys backing me up (not so good-looking ones) a la male group dancers about to do their routine.

AUGUST 28, 2002 – VOL. 12

  -    That I need a SECOND/ LAST STEP TO A DANCE ROUTINE. There’s a book that offers such. I summon Tim to buy it. SOMETHING ABOUT PERFUMED STEPS according to the book. When we open the book, a bunch of beetles (insects) fly out of the book.

AUGUST 30, 2002 – VOL. 12

- In an unfamiliar room, there’s a woman / young girl (supposedly working for me?) standing up infront of the television set performing a certain ritual. As if her hands are pulling something from the TV. She summons Evil to come out from it. Tim and I watch on while she does this ritual. Panting / breathing heavily – She has a notebook, a book, a black cloth and a pencil. I send Tim out for something (?). The girl and I are left in the room. It is now I who stand in front of the TV set – directing her to “TAKE YOUR BOOKS OUT OF THE LIGHT AND OUT OF THIS ROOM!” Kneeling on the floor, she hides her stuff under a piece of mat / rug, but takes them out upon my command. I see a notebook, a pencil / slightly covered by the black cloth and the book. Before she can leave, I drop to my knees and start kissing her on the mouth. I ask her to lock the door. Kissing her again /or prior to the first kiss, I utter these words – “THE GOD THAT IS GOOD IS ALWAYS GOOD”. She responds to my kisses – It feels unusual though – “She” tastes like a man? – Or, does she turn into a man? He’s a boy now whose lips taste good.

SEPTEMBER 6, 2002 – VOL. 12

-     Seated along with Tim, I am squeezing my under lip. There would be some kind of ejectment of a cheesy material or pus-like material. Tim jokes if I could squeeze the mouth/ lip of his rectum (?). He ask what would probably comes out of it- I say shit (?)/ sperm (?). Next scene, we are walking around looking for a place/ store (?) to buy medicine. I see a barbershop- A barber is my source of medicine? Unsure about this. From the barbershop, I’d see some prescriptions (several) for medicines (old/lapsed prescriptions) and a 3 or 4 peso change. The 3-4 coins are attached/ glued to one another. I try to detach each of them. The coins seem soft- they can be removed. Tim helps out?- A drugstore- where I am to buy a certain (?) medicine that I suspect would cost about P26, 000 plus. There’s a salesgirl who’s to leave her other companions. She cracks a joke? – Hazy

   -    Talakay- Nanay’s dining area- Present are Purita, Olan, Tito Ody. After the talakay, we go Nanay’s room? I lie down on the bed beside/ aligning with the window facing the Old House? Olan lies on the floor infront of my bed. Tito Ody on the other bed under mine. Purita comes in and informs us about a woman (?)/ a person who also goes to a certain mountain and that this person will also proclaim Kingship/ being King. I say-“ANG DAMI NAMAN NAMING NAG DE-DECLARE NG KINGSHIP!”. Perhaps, it’s Olan who comments this. I say- “KAYA NGA NAGBIGAY NG SIGNS ANG DIYOS”/ “WHAT ARE THE SIGNS FOR?”- something like these words. Purita goes out? Ace comes in. He lies beside me- very close to me. I’m not sure if he gets up and leaves and comes back again. This time, he goes up on top of me- naked. I put my left hand on his butt. Ace almost kissing my neck (?). I kiss him on the neck- smell some sort of ointment on his body (his usual scent?,oil). I would fear Olan and Tito Ody would notice our position. Next scene, I would stand up and see a different place- seems like a basement of sorts where Ace goes and sleeps- There’s a makeshift kind of bed a few feet from me.

TRIVIA:

            Pastor Apollo Quiboloy proclaims himself as the Appointed Son of God.

SEPTEMBER 8. 2002 – VOL. 12

      - Thought or Vision?

- Inauguration of my own building/edifice named “THE REDEMPTION” Building.

SEPTEMBER 10, 2002 – VOL. 12

NOTE:

Nationwide texting of the message

                                                                            “WELCOME IN 2003

                                                                          THE COMING OF THE

                                                                            KING OF ALL KINGS”                                                         

                                    began Sept. 10, 2002 onwards.

NOVEMBER 11, 2002

                                                TRIVIA:

“Welcome in 2003 The coming of King of all Kings” STICKERS posted in different areas provinces, cities and towns