THE BOOKS OF PROPHECIES VOLUME II

THE

BOOKS OF PROPHECIES

“DREAMS SELECTED”

Volume II

THE BOOK OF PROPHECIES-

* A total of 39 volumes and counting

* Dreams can either be “literal or symbolic” or both. Every man has the Gift of Dreams and Sleeptalks. This is the part where God wishes for man “TO SEEK” (AND YOU SHALL FIND) AND “KNOCK” (AND THE DOOR SHALL BE OPENED) - for the names of people, animals, places and things dreamt of have other meanings aside from their literal/ actual and or physical representation. A word, a name, a place, an animal, an act could be a plethora of meanings, information and wisdom and only the bearer of the dream could give the most probable interpretation - ONLY AFTER THE DREAM  SHALL HAVE BEEN FULFILLED

     eg.

1.  DITHER - means be agitated and indecisive: tremble (Webster Dictionary) *Diether Ocampo

2.  KRIS - means two-edged dagger: a Malay and Indonesian dagger with a wavy two-edged blade (Webster Dictionary)

*Kris Aquino

3.  CHRISTOPHER – means Christ Bearer (source: Baby’s names Dictionary)

*Christopher De Leon

4.  ALMA – means soul, warm hearted, learned (source: Baby’s names Dictionary)

*Alma Moreno

5.   DOG – means “rascal”

6.   HORSE – means “friendly”

7.   CAT – means “prostitute”

8. If a person is labelled a “Homosexual” or doing a homosexual act in the dream, it could mean a “weak, cowardly act or decision”on the part of the bearer of the dream. The homosexual or any derogatory tag on any personality mentioned may not necessarily mean literal

 No man can accurately interpret anyone’s dream, not even his own; neither the Bearer of the Sleeptalk and the Book of Prophecies nor the prophets in the Bible, until after the fulfillment of such dreams and visions whereby the recipient of such messages is able to realize what God wants to convey through these dreams.

Let no man inflict malice upon these messages. Let no man misinterpret and misconstrue these messages for they are sent and shared with no ill intent to malign or degrade any and all personalities mentioned in the dreams- but only to enlighten inspire and testify to the truth that comes from ABOVE.

 The Bearer of the Dreams and Sleeptalks does not personally know all the personalities (local and foreign) in showbusiness, politics and religion, mentioned in the dreams and sleeptalk and VICE VERSA. Neither has the bearer ever had any physical and/ or sexual relationship with any and all personalities mentioned in the files and vice versa nor has he ever nurtured any illusions whatsoever to a point that these personalities would reflect or appear in his dreams. Emphatically, the Bearer of the dreams and sleeptalks reiterates the fact that he and all the personalities mentioned in all the files do not know each other or have they ever met.

As in all the Bearer’s dreams, PEOPLE (living or dead, local or foreign, known to him or not), PLACES (existing or no longer, his place of origin or a foreign country, past, present or future, known to him or not), ACTS (moral or immoral, decent or indecent, luridly described in the dream or not, commited in real life or not), EVENTS (familiar to him or not, past, present or future), ANIMALS and INANIMATE OBJECTS (familiar or known to him or not), CREATURES, GHOSTS, MONSTERS AND THE LIKES, they, too, appear in every man’s dream. Let no man be hypocritical enough as to deny that the true nature of his own dreams is synonymous to the Bearer’s and all of mankind’s.

Blank lines ( _______ ) are deliberate efforts to conceal informations about the Bearer and the Mission. Blank lines with question marks in the middle means a particular word cannot be read or understood.

The re-inclusion of dreams contained in the previous files is necessary to correct any and all clerical errors.

The Bearer of the Dreams and Sleeptalks in the past and present files may have miscalculated and/ or misinterpreted some of his dreams such as the “WHAM” Dream (Book of Prophecies XXXIX, Oct. 9, 2009) attributed to the much anticipated Mayon Volcano eruption that fizzled out. Nonetheless, the “Wham” dream shall still happen, not necessarily referring to a volcano eruption. ALL HIS DREAMS ARE PURE AND FAITHFUL.The Bearer is human and fallible just like any man.

The Bearer of the dreams and sleeptalks extends his sincerest apologies to any and all personalities, here and abroad, mentioned in all the files who may feel “slighted” or offended by the mere inclusion of their names in his dreams as well as companies or corporations carrying food products or otherwise, labels, logos such as the Metrobank (M’ here) sign.

         

John 15:26 (New King James Version)

The Coming Rejection

    ²⁶ “But when the Helper comes, whom I shall send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth who proceeds from the Father, He will testify of Me.

JUNE 27, 2000- VOL.3

 - Hazy -I see multitudes of people in the Old House– I see Purita hiding over her things from someone.

 JULY 3, 2000- VOL.3

 - I see myself, Nolan and Grace eating rice with salmon. I say it’s nice to eat salmon, “Paminsan-minsan” for it tastes good. Nanay just looks on at the other side of the table. We are in Nanay’s house, ground floor – near the street – middle stall. There’s a ref that is near our table. Prior, I speak to Olan about the KNOWLEDGE OF GOD which he doesn’t believe. As I talk to him standing up, he looks so tall. I point my finger at him while I speak. He goes out. He’s wearing sweat shirt and a cap (rounded cap). It’s raining. From out of our sight, he just suddenly falls on the ground (by the sidewalk on the street) as if thrown or push. The scene of him falling/slipping on the ground and landing flat makes me remark, “BLASPHEMY” for his arrogance in MY PRESENCE. He stands up fast and goes jogging (?) or biking (?).

JULY 12, 2000 – VOL. 3

-  I see myself in Mila’s former house, near the _______ residence. There are children in the sala room. Inside the CR, I am to move my bowels. I notice a lot of deodorant wrappers which are not being removed for display, maybe, I say on my mind. There’s even some shit in the bowl. In comes Mila. She does something – I say to her to go out, since I couldn’t move in her presence. There’s some sort of occasion. I overhear Bel saying I have six (6) sets of clothes to wear. – There seems to be a parade/procession where I “play”?, or I am “Jesus”. On my mind, I could play it well, but I have shorter hair than Jesus – Prior, I say to myself, Mila has so much money. Likewise, she and Bel (?) could ride in my car. There are several vehicles. I overhear Bel telling the 6 sets of clothes to Lally (?).

 

     -  I see myself in the dining area fixing the blankets of Bel’s mother, who is sleeping in the bedroom. I hear the kids arrive coming in late from a party. They are with Georgie, Brian, Ody and the rest. They are all supposed to sleep in the mirador. Beds are fixed and they are supposed to sleep. I go to their room to stop them from making so much noise. I see them lined up (seated) by the window pane, as you enter the mirador (each with some equipment that they tinker with). One listens to the SLEEPTALK. I tell Gie to have the windows closed safely (along with Albert). If burglars know of these equipment, they may come and steal them. Brian gets a little mad at me for slightly hitting him for he doesn’t want to listen (as always) but I embrace him and tell him I give him “tapa”, his favorite, everytime, and he smiles as other kids toy with him. Prior, Georgie listens to the stereo/karaoke (?) and I order him to tone it down, since Bel’s mother is sleeping. Prior, as I fix the blankets in the dining area, on my mind, I resent that Niño and others are not afraid of my WARNINGS. They think they will never happen.

JULY 14, 2000 – VOL. 3

     - I see myself, Nanay and Alex in the kitchen of Nanay’s house. Alex sits by the entrance to the kitchen. I see Ramil and ask him to stay. I see Albert coming from Olan’s room toying with Ramil who comes in and out of the kitchen. I call his attention. I see Mel seated by the entrance of Nanay’s room. I ask if she’s listening, she nods. I reprimand Alex. He answers, but somehow is not as hostile. I am washing so many dishes in/by the lavatory. I see Georgie who’s by a small table with beer. I see Roberto. Before everybody else is present – (Alex, Nanay, Ramil and I), I am to get a chair by the dining area to intently sit and reprimand Alex with only the two of us present. I notice the chairs in the dining area. They are adjustable, neatly varnished (wooden) chairs. As I bring one to the kitchen, Alex notices it and instantly changes his seat. He says that it’s his kind of chair. As I pick up another chair and notice several chairs are lined up in the dining area (as maybe, there are plenty of them) and lined up, too, in the kitchen area. There’s now a priest officiating this meeting. Seated behind the priest is Georgie and his beer table. I put my chair along with other chairs. As the priest is saying his prayers and blessing, I rebuke him softly by saying, “This is not a gathering of Jesus people. This is a gathering of GOD”. He sneers at the statement. There’s a voice over who asks, “Sasagutin ko ba ‘yan?” It’s Gie’s voice. I look up and around to search for her. I wonder if she’s in Olan’s room, or Nanay’s – or the CR behind me. She does not answer, anymore. Prior, at the time I am rebuking the priest, I am putting on my turban which is placed on the chair beside me. The priest is seated and has a little table, too, in front of him. Prior, Alex is about to walk out, but I beseech him to stay and let me pour out all the anguish and sentiments I have for him, so maybe, the anger of GOD will lessen. Prior, Alex face is focused. His face looks young cosmetically/medically.

JULY 21, 2000 – VOL. 3

  - I see myself in a place- mountainous- since there are lots of trees. I see Gie and Grace with me. Half-naked, I relate a story to them about my conquests and looks – physical. I visualize my young face and indeed, looking quite well. There is a voice that tells me, “Who knows? Your wish might just be granted”. In between, I gasp for breath, since I have clogged nose. Gie suddenly rushes to me and embraces me saying, “Stupid “El Shaddai” group. They almost made me believe I could get a man!” As Gie embraces me tightly, I feel my dick somehow reacts, but I pull the lower part of my body away from touching her lower body. Gie continues to say words of appreciation towards me – I hear her say how great I am – In the middle of her embrace, I point to her from a distance a colonial house that looks so avant-garde and beautiful with its trees and uphill location.

JULY 25, 2000 – VOL. 3

   - From Nanay’s house (?), I follow a gay (old friend?) to Ligaya’s house. Inside, I see Inday Badiday, or her daughter (?) lying down. She looks young and different. The TV is on and it’s her show she’s watching. She wears red eye shadow up and down her eyes. She’s crying obviously, narrating an incident that happens to her – airport, maybe (?). Soon as the gay enters her house (Ligaya’s), I follow him. Inday recognizes me and stands up, probably fixing a drink. She jokes about my recording career (?). On my mind, I am “THE MANG-AALIW” (COMFORTER/ COUNSELOR/ THE SPIRIT OF TRUTH ).The gay man jokes, “Ay, magsho-showbiz na!” I sit on the floor. Her trip abroad makes her younger. I suggest for her to go abroad every week – jokingly. Her face focused on the TV show, especially her red-shadowed eyes – crying (?). It is almost her birthday (?). Prior, she greets me as soon as I enter her house (Ligaya’s), as if she knows me.

JULY 25, 2000 – VOL. 3

   - I find myself drawing/writing on a piece of paper the scenario that is about to transpire. An Egyptian man telling that what will take event would be entitled ‘‘LIZZIE GETS TRAPPED IN HER DRESSER’’. I put the title on the paper and draw the picture of this man. I enclose the written title and make a point directed to the man to inform the reader that it is he ( Egyptian man ) who is delivering this ( dialogue ). On with the story-The Egyptian man asks me to do fellatio on him-( I write it down as well as the story evolves ) which I do so to speak or as the scene requires. The man is either Egyptian or Saudi Arabian since he has the usual long cloth on his head.

AUGUST 4, 2000 – VOL. 3

    - I see myself with a Hindu/ Indian man who says I undergo something- a change maybe of food (?)/ diet to enhance something.

 AUGUST 6, 2000 – VOL. 3

    - I go up to the 2^nd floor of what I believe is my house. I go to Gam’s room. I lie down (?) realizing it’s almost 8pm and the kids aren’t home and are in school. I get up to pick them up myself. Outside the room, there’s a table attached to the wall which has coins on top – Several that I take and one big brown which I leave. Going down the stairs, I realize it’s Nanay’s house. Noticing the door needs extra locks. I overhear Daddy’s voice. It’ll not be practical to buy the usual locks since they get broken daily. I hear someone upstairs, bedroom (music on the radio). I ask who it is. Fe (?) answers- the household help (new driver?). In come the children (Brian, wearing a turban and made up sideburns, moustache), lastly, LA. They just take the tricycle home. I go out of the door. Romeo V. is seated along with others. There are people in Ligaya’s house (a festivity of sort). Romeo doesn’t greet me (neither do I). I go in and through the door under the stairs leading to the ground floor. There’s a gathering of people (Belen, Nanay and others). Nanay fixes something (food, or the table). Belen offers P2,000 if only to preach what I preach in the Old House. On my mind, quite a handsome fee. As if like a bullet, I answer- “I CANNOT ACCEPT MONEY FOR MY GOD”. Nanay reacts with much resentment, echoing the general rule/ COMMANDMENT OF MY TABLE. I go out again and notice Ligaya’s house and the people staring my way. I see a beautiful car parked in front of the door. There’s Georgie. I ask him whose car this is. I remember I drive it one time. He doesn’t answer. He removes the plastic cover of the car to reveal its newness, as if to flaunt it. I say to my mind, it’s grand.

AUGUST 7, 2000 – VOL. 3

    -  I see myself, Oliver and others in Pina’s house. Pina is reading my cards. She counts the numbers of my written name – She says it’s 6. I say to her it’s 7, 7, and 7. I ask Alex if the counting is according to their standard/rules of the cards. He says, “Yes”, I declare to him- “All prophecies using cards regarding me stop”. He leers at me and doesn’t believe. He smokes, as usual. I enumerate to him my dreams about him. He shrugs off his head. I tell him about a huge affair that he will hold, but will be thwarted by GOD – (his famous friends will attend). He sneers at it. I told him, too, that GOD is furious at him. His young looking  face will just sag to make him very old. He mocks my prophecies and warnings. – There’s something Alex’s lover, Junior – macho – a la James Dean “kuno” – He will be embarrassed/lambasted for such.

AUGUST 11, 2000 – VOL. 3

  - I see myself speaking to someone/people telling them to FOLLOW the COMMANDMENT of GOD – but, how do we really know the TRUE commandments if they do not come from HIS TRUE MESSENGER – “He who comes in the name of the Lord”. IT IS I –

AUGUST 14, 2000 – VOL. 3

       -  I see myself in a confinement of sort with 2 men. One is ordered to take a bath in the other room, while I watch him undress. I come closer to get a look at his naked body – stout and little penis. The other man who seems to be cooking something teases my tom peeping. I come nearer the 2^nd man and touch his crotch and suck his dick. – I grab the man’s buttocks as I suck his dick. The men both seem foreigners. As I lavishly suck his dong, I smell the scent of his dick that seems/looks greasy, yet not by taste. The normal foreign scent I know is negligible. From a viewing mirror above the door, there’s a man who peeps and discovers what we are doing. I pretend not having seen him and refrain from the act and stand innocent even before that man enters. He is supposed to be a doctor. He summons me. I am seated in front of the doctor, another man, Oliver by their back. There’s a plate on their table which has a writing that says, “YOU MUST BE YOU”, – on the space surrounding the base of the glass put on the plate – Looking at this writing is when I am asked who I am. On my mind, I know EAB. But this is just a show/make believe. I pretend not to know and do not answer. The man beside the doctor gives me my name. The name sounds like, but not quite – “Boy floy” or “Play joy” – The doctor says I have 80 hours (80 hours or minutes?) to be myself (?). Simultaneously, I gaze upon the plate that says, “You must turn you” / “You must be you”. I am to be injected something. Next scene shows I am with tubular stuff (plastic) attached to my body (a la dextrose tubules) where the medicine is to be injected in and unto my veins. (It’ll take 100 mugs/cups of coffee to melt away the effect of the medicine (?) injected to me?). Throughout the Gestapo-like interrogation, Oliver just signals/nods as if to send feelers/instructions which I do not fathom. Next scene, we are on a shooting rampage – I see the doctor leading our group. I seize the opportunity to run and escape. All my might – run as fast as I could across mounds after mounds of soil – It seems I drag the doctor/ Oliver (?) with me and thrust him into one of these deep/high mounds of soil as I run for my life – Prior, I see Oliver’s face – somehow, I am perplexed if he is the one escaping, or the one I ditch into one of the mounds –

AUGUST 16, 2000 – VOL. 3

    - I see myself in a classroom. There’s a test and the questionnaire is on the ceiling. There are many questions written in a diagram form. Some part I cannot read. I see Jacqui Lou Blanco. One question refers to the “SALOT” that may affect gays. Suddenly, I see Carmi Martin -(She’s a transsexual) and Roderick Paulate  walking together. Carmi is supposedly a prude transsexual only for Roderick to find out she’s promiscuous, leaving Roderick behind. She goes somewhere. Roderick gets a taxi and follows her. The taxi moves slow – until it reaches Carmi in a very compromising situation – In the dark, sucking someone. In the sucking scene, someone else doubled for her. There’s a man leaning against a wall with his dick being sucked by (supposedly) Carmi, who’s doubled by Ricky. ( he dons a wig). Back to the classroom, I know that the questions are easy to answer. I know the one who gives/addresses the questions. It’s supposedly a hard subject, yet I know I could answer them all. Prior, I see Eric who’s supposedly going with the flock (?) and Nolan after we talk about a temporary/trial separation, picking up a piece of paper with two statements of instruction (?) from God. Prior, with Mila, I overhear there’s a markdown on oil prices or fare (?) – A big change – So people avail of it. I deliberately change from one lane of people to another so the man in the restaurant would not be able to follow me. Ricky lavishly sucks the man. There are several on-lookers. The taxi that Roderick boards in slows down every time it reaches Carmi, as if it has to be a few meters behind her as in a pursuit.

AUGUST 18, 2000- VOL.3

-  I am to achieve water by putting soil unto a clay jar and letting the jar stand in one corner-by the street/near the street on my mind, it might get dirtied by something since it’s open and not covered on the mouth ( jar )

AUGUST 23, 2000 – VOL.3

  -  I see Gam, Nanay and myself talking in a house. I tell Gam the kind of house I want – A sprawling house – wide. Nanay as she speaks has an overlap of another voice. Gam calls me, “MANG-AALIW” for the first time, as he relates something to me – at the same time I am fixing/preparing my coffee. There’s no sugar in the container.

AUGUST 25, 2000 – VOL.3

   -  I see the flock in a church, as if to wait for a mass (?). I see Gie, Bel, Grace (who’s at odds with her (?). I see Audrey and Ricky across the street (?) up against (background) the poster/billboard wall/steel placed atop a not-so-high structure. Ricky dances ( his pants dropping to his knees, showing off his light blue brief ) – about busses that charge no transportation fee to poor people at a certain location – the first few miles (to and fro) the boundary/station line. There’s a woman with several kids with her, who’s with our group. She decides to go home and the kids – when she knows that we will not be able to take them in our vehicle since there are so many of us – and that I am no longer going to Baclaran (?). Gie says they will have to go get a certificate/permit (?) /piece of document there. I see Eric, who I think is the woman’s son. I mutter Fe being another problem to me – I think the woman is Fe. She signals for some aid (money) as she is about to get into the bus. Up on the bus, by the door, and as the bus starts to go, I search for money in my pocket – There’s none – In the car, I say. Nick runs to give her some and another flock, but are unable to hand her the money – and so, Ricky informs us it’s okay since the busses do not charge poor people in the place where they are to alight. Audrey just stares, as Ricky dances. Upon saying something about Fe, I look at Eric, and realize he is Mel’s son, not Fe’s. Bel asks from a “girl” in this place (she knows this girl quite a while through someone), flowers. Nick comes with beautiful white/very light dirty white lilies. Yammy exclaims she’ll get some. I say it’s only for me. On my mind, I’d plant them in my place, that Gie labels, “Malacañan” – room (mine) where we are and transfer to another area. I see Bel boarding her beautiful owner jeep with Elsie. There’s a scene where Bel asks me about some sensitive questions hurled to me by someone. I say to her it’s okay. I answer the question, though quite sometime (?). Prior, it seems Grace and others already know and condone the presence of the new girl in Bel’s life. Prior, Baclaran church is where they will go to. Yammy eats while asking lilies. Our set-up is not church-like. – Prior, I realize it’s a Saturday (church date). It seems we are by the side/outside the first church. While Ricky cavorts with his dance, I visualize a dirty/dark skinned young man boarded in the bus and many others being described by Ricky – not asked by the conductor to pay since they are part of this slum-like town – First town, as the busses start their destination and the last town upon reaching their destination. Prior, as Ricky dances, his shirt with hood (?) covers his face/head. For a while, I think of him as “Eagle”, the gay emcee, as he cavorts with his dance. – There’s a scene where Niño hands over EJ to me (some flock present?).

AUGUST 27, 2000 – VOL. 3

     -   I see a Talakay – Nanay’s house (?) – I see Purita and the flock, Titas Rosie and Chat (?). Nanay, Olan seated beside me that I know later on. It seems we are in the dining room. I am seated facing the kitchen to my left, which I do not see. In the kitchen, are some people, including Inday. I am lying down, as in head on a pillow and legs stretched before me. I see my legs. I ask a question, “How or where can you compare the TRUE KNOWLEDGE of GOD?” Nanay answers with sarcasm (?), “CANCER”. I guide her answer (guiding Purita, too) that it is like cancer spreading, to which Olan mocks by kneeling down with hands clasped together as if praying. I grab the table (frame) and hurl it against him. His act is taken by the people in the kitchen as comedic and funny, causing them to burst into laughter, including Inday whose insulting laughter echoes in my ears. I shout at Olan, “Hindi ka Diyos! Tao ka! Na walang galang sa aking Panginoon!” Suddenly, I see myself walking in the rain coming from Burgos street, entering the street between _______ Shrine and the church. I pray to God, if by any chance I am wrong with my teachings to tell me- so I may stand corrected. There’s a pack of about 6 medicines that falls from my pocket (?) – The road is wet with rain – There’s water on the street – On my mind, while holding the Talakay (which I eventually say), “How comfortable we are praising God, having to just sit around”, and looking at myself lying down. It is during the time I ask Ace about the “cancer” which he finds difficult and/or finds sometime to answer, after which I reprimand some of the flock for not paying attention – that Olan kneels down. Tita Rosie (?) transfers to a chair nearer me. I ask, “Where can you find a church where praising God is this comfortable?”

AUGUST 29, 2000 – VOL. 3

   - In a flash, I see my face radiant – full cheeks – youngish?

    -  I see myself seated in the dining area of the Master’s bedroom three boys come in one teenaged, two smaller ones. The tallest one says he there’s something he needs from me. On my mind, it could be money- not knowledge. He takes me or I take him to the Master’s bedroom. I see there are mosquito nets placed along each other. We go inside one that is placed against the closed door that leads the Master’s bedroom to my old room. There, the tallest boy cries his heart out- petty stuffs and childish woes. Prior, I see Geming standing behind me as the boys come in. she just look on. In the boy’s story, he is ‘somewhat’’ maltreated though it seems just accidental everytime he would be hurt by Rita. He says he is Geming’s son. He says his name is “_________” and then, “MASTER EARTH”. Then,“EDUARDO YOLANDO’’. He complains his father is always out as well as his mother. I do not know if I have illusions with the boy finding him very handsome. Nonetheless, throughout some immoral thought, there’s some sort of a hoopla since the other boy shits inside the net- though just a small one. I remove the mosquito net. Mel takes it from me and says- “Papalitan nalang”

AUGUST 30, 2000 – VOL. 3

   -  REVERIE – At about 5:20 AM, I have a refreshing, though a little eerie reverie. I am lying on a bed in a weird-looking room, where there’s a pan being heated on a stove. I wonder if this heated pan is placed against my skin (fears of being tortured). It’ll hurt (and burn) tremendously. “Am I held captive?” I ask myself. Suddenly, I hear the voices of Nick and Ray (?) talking about something. Mysteriously, I am brought out of that room – as if suctioned by something like a magnet – I travel very lightly, like a feather out of the room, out of that modest house – into a beautiful house and another beautiful house. I desperately try to remember the furnishings of the last house. Could this be my future house? I remember one particular piece of furniture – A grand mirror – table ensemble which has carvings on the side and front of the table. I pass through walls, after walls of these houses. The last house has me going back to a room where I pass through the frame of the door and am blocked/hurt by nothing. For the first time, I feel and see myself passing through walls, concrete or wood going out of the house. I recover consciousness on my still bed.

SEPTEMBER 7, 2000- VOL.3

  -  I see Mel seated on her chair (her usual place at the table) essaying to me such beautiful lines. The first line is a statement or a question- part of the line is this statement “We are like tiny particles…..” I stop since I cannot catch up with her. I look at my ballpen and notice it writes not as clearly- the ballpoint isn’t showing. I say- “I don’t like this ballpen”. I ask Mel if she writes them down/or if she has a written copy of this. What she says is actually her point of view of the LIGHT.

   - Mel meets with someone (old?) with humongous problems. She relates it to me and delights in the way she handles the situation. Says she- “It’s good I don’t tell her we’re waiting for YOUTH”. Looking at her, on my mind, she does need a little REJUVENATION- if it really comes

SEPTEMBER 11, 2000 – VOL. 3

   - I see myself outside and some friends waiting for the “OLD ME”, which will NEVER DIE. We wait for SIGNS.

   - I am needed most. THE DEVIL IS OUT – AND ON THE LOOSE – Yet, I am not around. I would want to quit. Someone, or a flock member waits for the OLD MAN /myself and nowhere can he be found.

   - I see myself inviting Zsa Zsa Padilla (?) to a dinner at a plushy place (?). She is wearing something already (decent gown)- suddenly seated in a room where the dinner is going to be held (?). There are dancing lights as I overhear Zsa Zsa and Purita talk about the former’s dress. Says she, “Bibigay na nga sana ako sa comment/praises ni Jona”. She desires to get a better gown. Purita asks, “The question is – sa gabi or umaga na fashion designer?” On my mind, I wonder, she will be dressed flamboyantly to a crowd of “SIMPLE- DRESSED PEOPLE AND A SACK-CLOTHED PREACHER”? Maybe I should wear something glittery – white, of course, but flashy – It is an RSVP – invitation. I plan to hand out invitations to Niño and Nolan (?) – I wonder how they would feel after having abandoned/taken us as a less important thing in their lives- and now – a la RSVP dinner – I look up while I am seated with dreary eyes of the would-be situation – More of Niño on my mind.

SEPTEMBER 12, 2000 – VOL. 3

    - I see Niño with a baby and myself walking through the corridor of the building. It is LETRAN school and Niño would have to call to LA SALLE. On his right, Niño carries the baby. On his left hand, he carries a folder, or something about school work – I guess the purpose of his call. Walking, I see to our left, a store where someone bare-chested and donning “her” hair with panty showing and “her” flat chest, Niño tickles/touches lightly “her” abdomen. She complains and is heard by 2 elderly men, professors, maybe. They scold him. One asks, “Why is there a need to call La Salle? Why doesn’t La Salle call you, or someone from La Salle?” to which Niño doesn’t answer but instead, faces the person who actually is a girl (only flat-chested and Niño mistakes her to be a gay) and asks forgiveness. The girl if only to put a stop to the squabble, holds up her hand (holding a piece of paper) with the writing – “THE ONE GOD SPEAKS!” Prior, before Niño touches the girl’s abdomen, I warn him that “he” is actually a “she”, but it’s too late. Prior, facing the 2 men, he turns over the baby to me. Holding the baby, I feel it’s a little wet or sweaty.

SEPTEMBER 16, 2000 – VOL. 3

    - I SEE TWO SETS OF PEOPLE LINED UP. ON THE RIGHT SIDE, DROVES OF PEOPLE BEING TAUGHT/ALREADY KNOW JESUS AS GOD.ON THE LEFT SIDE ARE DROVES OF PEOPLE BEING TAUGHT BY MY PEOPLE (DIFFERENT FACES- I DO NOT RECOGNIZE). THEY, TOO, SORT OF HANDOUT LEAFLETS FOR “LESS”(?). I, MYSELF, WALK AROUND AND EXAMINE HOW MY PEOPLE TEACH THESE PEOPLE. FROM ALL ANGLES AND POSITIONS THERE ARE GROUPS AND GROUPS OF PEOPLE I TALK TO.

     - I see myself or Oliver (?) being fucked by someone- simultaneously, playing on my mind, the date OCTOBER 9 which I am instructed by Gie’s dream to be something significant. I wonder- during the fucking session and feeling the scenario around- I sort of wait for the significant event.

SEPTEMBER 17, 2000 – VOL. 3

    - I see Niño- I can feel his hard chest and manly strength. There’s a VOICE that tells me to JUST DO THE THINGS WE NEED TO DO. For when the time comes, that HE FINALLY ARRIVES, we wouldn’t know what to expect and what to do.

SEPTEMBER 21, 2000 – VOL. 3

   - I see myself talking to my mother, telling her I cannot change the form of my teaching, according to her or anyone’s taste. We are at the table (in the dining area). She writes down something (a cheque ?) about a certain payment where I take pity on her. On my mind, I would dissuade her to pay and/or offer her not to pay, anymore (something like P700.00). Suddenly, I am the one writing something on an envelope – (?) an address or something – I overhear Ruby Rodriguez’ voice speaking Spanish which I sort of write down, “Tu eres…”. I write this down. Prior, I mention to Nanay how vulgar and totally frank discussions about life and things on TV and radio/print are, nowadays and that she’s just playing deaf/dumb to the current trend of communications, especially “VAGINA et al” piece of Monique Wilson ( name not mentioned in the dream). She listens somehow, so she obligingly would pay the amount mentioned earlier. Ruby R. is on the street fronting the house, talking to someone.

    - I see Mel, myself and another in front of the entrance to the mirador. Mel has a plate of food she eats. Nolan donning a long hair, walks by to the mirador /or out of it. I tell Mel of LA’s dream that there’s going to be an emergency meeting (at a very early time) and she’s not there for, she’s doing “it”. Mel doesn’t react to this. She says, maybe, the meeting is at 6 AM. LA’s dream says, “The MANG-AALIW comes early for an emergency meeting.”

SEPTEMBER 28, 2000- VOL. 4

    - I see myself composing a song by singing the melody along with the lyrics. It starts with……. “LATELY…MY DREAMS HAVE NOT COME TRUE…”

OCTOBER 3, 2000 – VOL. 4

  - I am in a school where there’s a band concert. Earlier, I go for staring and watching all the gimmicks, but end up climbing up the building/stage where the concert is being held – (Dawn?). There’s a way through a small library of books – Some students walk through a sort of stair-like shelf (with mirror). A lady supervisor/guard (in civilian clothes) calls the attention of the students who climb up, and I lose interest in following suit. Nonetheless, I reach the backstage – only to realize the group leaves. It’s Zsa Zsa Padilla singing. Afterwards, or during her song, 2 male with well structured bodies, dance in unison. I see Albert watching, too. The 2 dancers, later, compete as to who is stronger between them – The one who is able to subdue the other removes the brief of the loser and shows off his dick. The men are brawn-skinned and look primitive. I see the defeated man with his dick out of his shorts/brief. Afterwards, I go to a room where students flock – I am met by a thin, close to being ugly guy, who I think to be a guard. I pretend to follow after him. He asks me why I have no uniform – I say, “I am not from this school”. Later on, I find myself where some students fancy themselves with – a WISHING WELL made of something hard – cartons, styropors maybe. It’s deep and already with much coins and other stuffs. I search for some coins in my pocket – and wish all I could – about my dreams – The good ones to come true and the negative ones, never. These wishes are wished upon repeatedly, as I throw coins to seal the wishes.

OCTOBER 4, 2000 – VOL. 4

  - THERE ARE TWO PLASTIC BAGS OF SHIT COMING FROM ME- ONE SMALL AND THE OTHER, BIG. Timothy goes to the window (boarding house in Intramuros) and tries to find a good position to throw the plastic of shit. He throws both plastic bags (not at the same time) very near- not throws but drops them on the ground. One boy who sweeps the ground gets the small plastic bag and throws it against the window screen. The other plastic of shit remains there in front of us.

     - I go to the Old House – passing through the old structure (set up) of the Old House (no gate and just the door). I see Ligaya – She moves in the Old House (the ground floor). She has a make-shift door. I am so furious – shouting at her for non-permission to do so. She calls on someone inside the room. I go check on the other section of the ground floor and enter one unit – I am calling someone at the upper floor. I go further in and see children getting wet from something (sleeping). IT SEEMS I BECOME RUDY FERNANDEZ. Comes down a couple – a woman who is so guilty of what she does. Prior, upon entry to the unit, I see myself playing billiard. There’s a billiard pool. I throw them out – I see a woman sleeping on the floor. She looks like Klaudia Koronel. Meeting the couple, I slap (?) the woman. Suddenly, I see Rudy Fernandez as if training the children (about 20 or so) who are lined-up in front of him (to pick-pocket?). The children are poor children – mostly dressed in white.

OCTOBER 7, 2000 – VOL. 4

   - I see myself in Baguio – with Christine Jacob, Charo Santos doing part-time jobs as announcers/ DJs – Bel comments, somewhere, Christine is doing quite well. I am in a park where there’s a big pool of different, huge animals - a huge tortoise that crawls and jumps into the water. I see a former friend, Orly with Elsie and run from him/hide from him. Run around a big building/museum to avoid him. I am in front of a new structure – theatre, maybe. It seems the flock is on a vacation. In the park, I am afraid to dip myself in the water because of the weird looking, quite big aquatic animals. – I AM RUNNING AWAY FROM 2 MEN WHO MAY HURT ME – ONE, OR BOTH HAVE KNIVES/ WEAPONS – I KEEP RUNNING AWAY FROM THIS PLACE WHERE WE ARE VACATIONING –

OCTOBER 9, 2000 – VOL. 4

    - I am walking on a street where a man/bi-guy sees me and whispers/talks about me with another. This man I see before in another dream. It’s all out – about my sexuality. Walking still, one gay from the store where the other man comes from – stares at me. One scene, where I am seated on a high table/pasimano wrapped in white sheet/blanket while I listen to Purita looking up on me – telling (she’s seated) me stories about Jesus in a film she has in possession and now she feels is in mine. The title of the movie is “DOMINI”. She tells of Jesus’ “sacrifices/brutalities (?)” he does or goes thru (?). Nanay comes and joins us, yet I feel a certain strain with her presence. I remember reading intently something – A book about GOD – An excerpt saying “…in the stillness of a desert – or, a tree in the middle of nowhere, where there is drought and “lifelessness” – about to fall on it, HE is there”. – something to this effect. One scene shows I am watching along with Nanay (and others) TV program. They seem unbothered by the gossips maligning my sexuality. My father is, on the contrary fazed by them, and resents such about me – or so I feel, or he makes me feel. Prior, while reading the book, I remember how absorbed I am with it – about GOD’s presence in EVERYTHING – LIFE AND LIFELESSNESS. Noticeably, I wear nothing on my head when I am walking on the street, while being talked about by some people.

Trivia:

In 2004, Mel Gibson came out with the movie “THE PASSION OF THE CHRIST” which highlighted the supposed brutalities done to Jesus.

    - I see myself walking on a road/street of modest houses. I see Romnick Sarmenta. It is said that he’s a very strict and decent man. In between shooting skeds as an actor, he takes on another job – as a postman /or one who brings bills to houses. I approach him as if to ask something. He notices and arrogantly says, “Blurt it out/ Sabihin mo na!” Yet, still he is bewildered with me and asks, “What’s with your eyes?” I feel something “strange” with my eyes, too – They’re the EYES of – DIVINE ORIGIN or, something to that effect – “THE EYES OF JESUS” as others would say. Romnick writes down something and puts it in an envelope and gives it to me. There’s a woman who recognizes him, as she’s a regular customer /or a friend of the house Romnick gives the bill to. She says she’ll notify the owner he’s here. On my mind, he’s game. I ask him if his telephone number is also written. He says, “Yes”. Next scene, - I am by the window of a modest house - opening the envelope Romnick gives me. There are tablets/drugs inside. Prior, taking the envelope from Romnick, I go walk towards my place. I fear I might lose the content of the envelope – looking on the street where something could fall from my envelope. I turn left on the corner. By the window pane, I place the contents of the envelope. As if by magic, I overhear/oversee Romnick talking to several men (police?) as he plants me drugs to set me up. I hurriedly go to the CR and flush the drugs repeatedly, pushing the flusher and pouring some more water from the “tabo” in my hand. I wipe the window panel with a rag. There are knockings at the door/gate. Romnick overlaps with me – I see Rolly Quizon, a woman and maybe, 2 other women. There’s a security guard and 2 other men inside our gate (?) who meet them. In a rush to get in, the guard is shot for procrastinating/delaying their attempt to get in and catch me/Romnick by surprise. One of Rolly’s companions says (the woman) – “It’s just one life…” One frame, I see Michelle Ortega and kids running towards the door/gate to meet him – It is a very modest house for a showbiz personality like him.

  - In a flash, I see myself teaching a la Jesus, roaming around. I see myself hovered by a crowd (?).

  - I see a woman being besieged by something. She is with some people as she tries to spread her wings – I see a small feathery structure on her back and then, I see a bigger span of wings –

   - REVERIE: Vividly I go through the stages of reverie – sound. I am afraid to open my eyes, or else, I would lose this reverie. My eyes struggle not to open – but they do, for the first time, and I AM STARING AT THE SKY-STRAIGHT TO THE BURNING SUN. MY EYES ARE AS AFLAMED AS THE SUN AND AND THE FIERY RAYS OF THE SUN DO NOT BLIND MY EYES. How amazing to stare at the sun without having to blink my eyes. Suddenly, there are cartoons after cartoons playing in front of the screen (?) or my sight – very, very long series and character after characters of cartoons – I see a particular movie title written on a wagon – “ADE UGLY” – Prominent cartoon character is an elephant running. The elephant goes through tunnels (?). In one scene, there is singing and the one line of the song goes, “THE COMMANDMENT IS GOLDEN STEELE”. Another scene, I am in a village, cartoon still, being narrated. I see houses – I hear and see a writing on a house-EA__, then I forget – I hear Brian asking me, “Daddy, kaninong bahay …” I say, “Hush, I may lose this reverie!” I am staring at the sky again. I see a white and blue plastic sign posted on the sky against the sun and the play of clouds as backdrop. I remember (lying on my bed) writing this sign/scene, as well as Ade Ugly/ the poster on the sky. The sun comes up again. I close my eyes and ask GOD, “Will I open my eyes again? Please, write Your “Yes” or “No” on the sky” – I remember now – I am lying on my bed and facing the window. I open the blinds, so the sun shining can be seen. What time is it – if it’s just a little over 10 AM, I can open my eyes without being strained. I query – Prior – the second time I am staring at the sky – after having seen the white and blue billboard, I see a man (?) falling – I say to GOD – “I SEE DEATH”. A VOICE says, “Where?” “INSIDE ME”, I MUTTER – as if relating to the man falling from the sky.

OCTOBER 10, 2000 – VOL. 4

  - There’s a house/apartment of Ricky’s friend that we are in – Nolan, Ricky and myself. I am about to sleep inside a “kulambo”-laden bed, but it’s hot in the position I am in. Instead, I position myself under the ceiling fan. In comes Lucky who says he needs “budget”. It seems he already asks previously. – On my mind, perhaps, P500 pesos will do for Lucky’s budget, since I have only so little in Metrobank. – I ask for his mom – His answer seems she’s just outside/around. Alma has payables of P100, 000 plus which I compute plus, plus which somehow, reaches up to P160, 000 plus – because of a certain man (?) that she has this expenses (?). On my mind, I worry about Niño’s budget, or if he will just pop out to ask for some. Suddenly, Ricky’s friend who owns the property arrives with many gay friends – and men. We hurriedly get some of our things in the sala and we just nestle ourselves in the kitchen. I see Oliver getting some things, too. Nolan cooks. It seems I forget something else and go back to the sala where the group is – One of the gays recognizes me – It’s Pablo S. Gomez – I hesitate to greet him, but I go back to do so –I bring him over to my friends and introduce them one by one. Lucky, whom he says is cute. Nolan, Albert and another “pamangkin”, 3-4 related people I am suppressed to know. He asks for Merly whom he says – “Nasan ‘yung mabaho?” One frame, I look for Nolan and see him by the garden. He is tinkering with something/someone who I suspect to be Lucky. I grab Nolan’s left hand and push him, to expose who he is with. To my surprise, when I come nearer, Nolan is seated with a sort of box containing the body of Christ and 2 cut fingers of Jesus, supposedly (handless body and 2 cut fingers). It is cheaply made. We go back to the kitchen, realizing the group leaves already. Nolan prepares the food. I see another viand on a small bowl. Despite the numerous boys that I see, ready for sex, I know I cannot indulge in it –

   - I see Ray-An Fuentes kiss on the mouth Allan K., both emcees of Eat Bulaga. Allan shows to the viewers a new wine product that has a container that allows another bottle to go through it. Before Allan inserts the other container in the box, he motions a fuck motion against the other/ under the other bottle, and then kisses Fuentes on the mouth. It is a commercial. One scene shows a contest which I think of the contestant as Lorna. It isn’t. I hear a voice from the participant that it is, “FOR EAB”. She repeats one more time. In the dream, I wake up/stand up hearing my name being mentioned. The contestant is to enter (?) a booth/ door with a curtain as covering.

                           *EB/ EAB/ BEA – initials of the bearer of the dreams.

OCTOBER 17, 2000 – VOL. 4

   - I see Oliver and Tim at a table with me. Tim and Oliver wear turban on their heads, a la “Sheik”. We are waiting for something – A CHANGE OR SOMETHING NEW THAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME (?) OR TO WHAT I’M DOING.

OCTOBER 19, 2000 – VOL. 4

    - STRONG REVERIE: VOICES, many voices – I hear my voice saying something, “Nothing special/significant about September” – something to this effect. – I remember eeriness – I am scared. I hear myself crying – Formation of weird insects that I refuse to see and decide not to see, as the frame comes near me. In one frame, though I do not see anyone, I sense a feeling of being stabbed, or maybe, entertained a feeling of such act without seeing anything of the sort actually happening. Every scene passes with much emotion. Fear, annihilation, agitation – Weird! Initially, I am facing a frame where there’s a box or container and a VOICE saying, “Ayan na, ayan na!” But, nada! Though terrified, I refuse to end this reverie and I pursue to continue, and it does. Entry to this reverie is something else – I know it – The sound of _____? so unlike the other dreams. Another reverie transpires after the first – but, nada! The first reverie is tormenting – which is to frighten me which is ineffective. – Voices in my right ear.

OCTOBER 22, 2000 – VOL. 4

   - I am in the Old House. On my hands is an issue of the Panorama magazine. A 2-page article is written about me. I read the article intently and I see my name written – On my mind, this man (Arthur) never attends the table. Where could he get my story? from? Suddenly, I see Myrna, Nanay discussing about the rental of Myrna’s house where she asks how much I am to give her (divided between us). The rental is P3, 000. Purita is present, and is the one signaling through her hand the amount of P3, 000. Though, Myrna tells it, too. On my mind, P1, 000 for Myrna and P1, 000 for Nanay. By the window facing Nanay’s house is where we talk. From the window, I see the long steel sliding door (?) that I use somewhere, in one of my houses – Myrna’s (?) that is standing in front of Hernando’s door (almost), standing right there with no use. I see Roberto, too, beside me and giving me something (food), which I refuse. I see a billiard (pool) table in the Old House that I say I am selling. Matter of fact, I say I already have a buyer. Suddenly, it’s in the master’s bedroom. Beside it is a huge bed where Gilbert lies on. I see Eric lying on the billiard table and I reprimand him. First, I see the billiard table in Eric’s room. I tell them (Gilbert and Eric) not to use it because I am selling it. Then, it suddenly is in the master’s bedroom. Soon as I call Eric’s attention (lying down on the billiard table) he gets up and lies beside Gilbert. He gets on top of Gilbert, playfully kissing him on the chin (?). I leave the room. I see Gie reading the article about me at the window near the stairs. She goes to the dining area with Nanay. Gie cuts off the 2-page article. I see a page where there’s a man naked, almost falling to the ground, surrounded by many angels above him. Could it be an illustration of me? Nanay says the article is just in time – “Holy Week?” I ask. I proudly utter, “At least, nasa Panorama, no less.” Gam could see it since our newspaper is “Bulletin Today” /Manila Bulletin. – I sense Olan’s presence, too, in the Old House. To my mind, this Panorama article would send uproar everywhere.

OCTOBER 29, 2000 – VOL. 4

 - VIGIL STARTS AGAIN, JUNE 16 OR, WHEN YOU’RE 16 (?).

NOVEMBER 2, 2000 – VOL. 4

 - I SEE MYSELF HEALING – talking to a group of older men by a van/bus. I call on an old man and ask him, “What do you believe in?” He seems not to give me the right answer, while his group waits. I leave without having to heal him, since Nick and another already drag me to go to another place to meet other groups of people. From a distance, I raise my hand to heal the man and his group – Before I enter the building I raise my hand in an attempt to heal the man in the van. – I wait for them to shout for joy (out of healing), but no wailing.

 - I REACH THE OLD HOUSE – THE TABLE SEEMS LONGER AND MORE ORDERLY. MY FLOCK IS JOYOUS OVER AN AWARD/PLAQUE TO BE BESTOWED UPON ME BY SOMEONE/A GROUP THAT’S KNOWN. I SIT DOWN WHILE THE FLOCK FEELS TRIUMPHANT OVER THE NEWS. THERE SEEMS TO BE A TV SET ON THE TABLE.

 - ON MY MIND, I DESIRE TO BRING BACK GINA PAREÑO’S YOUTHFUL BEAUTY – AND WHAT GREAT STAMPEDE AND COMMOTION IT WOULD CREATE WHEN OTHERS WOULD DESIRE TO BE “RE-BORN” PHYSICALLY. IN ONE OF THE HEALING SESSIONS, I FEEL I AM IN MANILA AND/OR METRO MANILA.

  - There’s a woman/girl who complains that she doesn’t have much clothes in her bag. Miraculously, her bag is filled with many clothes – compliment of THE MESSENGER.

  - I SEE MYSELF SEATED (?) HEARING A VOICE THAT SAYS THERE ARE 4 STAGES THAT I’LL GO THROUGH. IT SEEMS I AM ON THE FOURTH (4th) STAGE, THOUGH NOT SPECIFIED. THE 4^TH STAGE SEEMS TO BE SYMBOLIZED BY DROPLETS OF WATER ON THE TABLE IN FRONT OF ME.

                                                         TRIVIA

Milla Jovovich’s movie “THE FOURTH KIND”(The true story of Dr. Abigail E. Tyler About Alien abduction)

1. An encounter of the first kind- when you see UFO

2. An encounter of the second kind-when you see evidence of UFO

3. An encounter of the third kind- when you make contact with UFO

4. An encounter of the fourth kind- when UFO abducts you 

trivia:
*Sometime 1995 - 1996, a dream is given that the Bearer shall be taken by ALIENS.

   - I am told I AM the SON OF GOD. I ask GOD why HE calls me such and gives me tests.

NOVEMBER 8, 2000 – VOL. 4

   - I am picked up by a man I feel to be a fitness instructor, nice body and all. From my car, I hear the operator /or ticket lady say that i bring my or Brian’s ID, so I could get a discount /or pay only P3.00. I have what she needs for me to give. – As soon as the operator informs about the papers for Brian (for discount), I search my compartment (glove compartment) for the papers. – I do not know if it’s a mall I am going to, but this man who is to escort me is intimidating, maybe because he wears a slinky sando showing off his muscles. He is the one driving the car. I notice his trousers are unbuttoned and he shows off his skimpy bikini brief. Driving up the building (?), I hear Bel’s voice – almost the same time that I gaze up on his chest and brief. ON MY MIND, I’D WISH FOR HIM TO TAKE OUT HIS DICK BECAUSE I CAN’T TOUCH HIS PENIS – IT’S FORBIDDEN. SLIGHTLY, I TOUCH/RUN VERY SWIFTLY BY JUST RUNNING MY FINGERS (?) ON HIS CHEST – I SAY TO HIM I HAVE A VOW I ALMOST BREAK. Suddenly, we are already walking up a sloping driveway. He goes first/walks ahead of me. I hang myself by grabbing something like a cemented (narrow) roof of the pathway. Going up (climbing with my hands) following my escort. I find myself in a room where my escort talks to his superior – A police chief (?). He is a policeman, disguised. When I look at him, he looks physically different. The chief has a piece of paper given by my escort. – Looks like a visa application form/ITR form which he crumples because he doesn’t believe the info I write down on the paper regarding my business (?) of wayback. He asks (according to the papers) I open the business, and after 2 days, close it down? I answer him, “Ask my mother” or something to this effect, as an excuse. – I sense this police chief is to set me up, or is digging up something about me,that he can use against me. – On my mind, I already am asked by Miriam Defensor and company about his allegations or, would-be allegations. – I feel the pressure of important (politicians) people and their effort to pull me down. The chief is with decayed teeth, or numerous missed teeth, or plucked out teeth. I feel a sense of truth to what his questions lead to. I choose to wake up from this cryptic dream – and I do. – I feel I am (already) moneyed in this dream. – I feel being seduced by my escort. –

NOVEMBER 11, 2000 – VOL. 4

   - I see myself in Bel’s house – master’s bedroom (?). Josie is there. The curtains are to be hung. I see old dampened curtains loosely hung. They are to be replaced. From the back of a huge ____? that’s open at the back, sort of drawers (I get a pair of pants with coins in them and a wallet). I am tempted to get some, but not quite (Audrey’s for marketing?, or Joe’s?). I put them back. It is as if I am looking for my clothes /or getting some, not necessarily mine, to wear. I get a long sleeve shirt and another t-shirt on top of it. I see Yi push the big bulk of whatever it is, to the wall, maybe a bed (?), to put it in place. I see other very old furniture being placed in their ideal positions – furniture of the 60’s. I dance as they are placed against the walls on both sides. I sing, “nah, nah, nah!” and dance. I see Eric helping out. I tell Bel of the pants and coins in them. I see myself talking to Josie and showing her the roof that’s broken and has many holes in them. I see the ceiling/roof that’s so broken. I see a man doing something on the roof. The roof’s broken, like, I can see the sky. I lie down on the floor to gaze up on the sky along with Josie. I SAY TO HER, “I SEE GOD” – NOT JUST THE EXPRESSION, “I SEE GOD” BUT I TRULY SEE GOD – The sky is so beautiful – The stars are out. She suddenly plants a kiss on my mouth which I sort of anticipate and answer back. She says I kiss her and lick her mouth with my tongue. She does it again, and I kiss her with open mouth – I seem to like it.

NOVEMBER 19, 2000-VOL. 4

  - There’s a man I seem deeply attracted to despite my awareness of the vow (to be chaste). On my mind, I am almost certain I may disavow- that lust may finally cave in. But I think of another solution- ask the man to go to the cinema (?) and maybe to the CR and lavishly stare at his dick. I go first. There are two men cavorting with each other at the entrance of the CR- workers/janitors maybe. One man who is an amputee (both legs-up to an inch reaching the buttocks) is on top of the other man (by his back clinging like a vine). The man who is being clung to by the neck is standing. He swings the amputee slowly as he moans and groans as if being fucked by the latter. The former plays along by doing a fuck motion (without his legs- looking both funny and pathetic). I go past them- but the CR seems cramped. There are roaches everywhere. A man is inside (another worker maybe).I blast out of the roach-infested CR unable to resist the fear of being caught/landed on by roaches. I guess this is where Nolan and Tim come in when I see them on the street. On board the car, while unable to move the car because of one or two vehicles before us making a U-turn, I think ill of Nolan. The thought of maligning him for his sexual preference crosses my mind- maybe my own weakness beclouds my mind and I take it out on him. This feeling springs, maybe, out of the failed gimmick with the man I am surrenderingly enamored with.

NOVEMBER 20, 2000 – VOL. 4

   - I am seated on the window pane of Nanay’s room on the ground floor, fronting mang Mario’s house. I ask from Gilbert his concoction, or something about the food that would help me. Gilbert asks, “Ano ‘yon?” / “Pano ‘yun?” – “Lagyan mo ng kahit ano, toyo o asukal, ayos na ‘yon”. He comes up with something – Maybe a gulay of sorts. I say, “God, with one word, all my sorrows will be gone”.

NOVEMBER 22, 2000 – VOL. 4

    - I HAVE A STUDENT (?) CHINESE – TEENAGER– THERE’S ANOTHER TEACHER (?) WHO’S 16. THE STUDENT IS ABOUT 14. I AM ABOUT 17 YEARS OLD (?).

Trivia:

Zac Efron’s movie- “17 AGAIN”

*“E.D.” is shown in the conference scene. Another scene where Zac Efron wears a T-shirt with the “Ed Hardy” print, front and back of the shirt (scene at the Dean’s office.

        *ED/Eduardo – the Bearer’s first name.

       *Other dreams in the succeeding files state that the Bearer shall be "17 again". To date, he is 56 years old.

DECEMBER 3, 2000 – VOL. 4

  - I see rocks, big rocks on a desert/deserted place and then the big screen with the words, “Paramount Pictures” presents – the scenes from the“new version” of Aladdin The Movie – Voice says I have to “GENIE” /side/sides in me. The scene is about to introduce me by way of the escalating sound of music – I feel the surge of intense “sensation” in my gut for I AM THE GENIE IN THE MOVIE (?).

DECEMBER 6, 2000 – VOL. 4

   - Purita and I are in a theatre. There’s a middle-aged woman who comes up to me and says my face and/or my hair is exactly the same as Jesus’ in the Iglesia picture of him. She touches the hair on my forehead and says, even the length of Jesus’ hair – and that she wants to see me during one of the supposed meetings with me, but it’s either I don’t arrive/or she doesn’t come. Out of the theatre, I see a billboard of movies to come (bold?) and I ask Purita, “May passes ka na?” /or “discounts for tickets?” As is I am permitted/allowed to watch, or her, such bold movies. Instead of answering, she asks that she needs a t-shirt for a contest she’s joining.

  -  I SEE 2-3 WOMEN AS I KNEEL ON MY KNEES AND A WOMAN’S HAND IS ON MY FOREHEAD SAYING (THEIR HEADS TILT TO THE SKY), “PAGPALAIN SI EAB” – I SEE RELATIVES WHO GIVE OUT SOME THINGS TO ME (SHIRT?) WHICH HAVE SIGNS OR, GOD’S PROOF OF HIS MESSAGES ON THESE THINGS WHICH I/THEY TESTIFY TO THEM/ME – MY MOTHER HANDS ME OUT SOMETHING TO WHERE A SIGN IS ON THAT OBJECT SHE GIVES ME.

  - ALMOST A VISION THAN A DREAM – THESE WORDS – “TO     ENJOY __?__ _____ THROUGH THE TECHNOLOGIES, MAN DRAWS INSPIRATION (?) FROM”.

DECEMBER 7, 2000 – VOL. 4

  - I AM A SOLDIER IN A WAR WITH A HIGH POSITION. One of the soldiers, under me /or soldier next, or lower position than me, is in trouble or, has a case that the ALLIED FORCES/country holds against him. In a place where they keep him, I try to make 3 men (one old) understand him. They speak a different language (FRENCH?). I cover him with my body. The soldier I protect seems at first, an actor who seems familiar in foreign films – until he becomes Niño. I plead to the men to forgive him and sort of explain to the 2 men that even if the whole nation turns against him, I would still believe in him because he’s my friend and will protect him. The old man taunts Niño with his cane and I cover him with my body. It seems that these men honor me and/or respect my position (?). Next scene, I see a bed (?) or a group of soldiers or officials by someones bedside – IT’S A CELEBRATION WHERE OUR COUNTRY WINS OVER THE ENEMY – AMERICA IT IS. Niño is with us –beside me, informing him if we don’t win (America), he wouldn’t be free. I see a young man with one eye blinded (?) who’s supposedly close (?) to Niño, embraces some men with us – He’s a soldier, too. He distances himself from someone (Niño?) and relegates himself to the background with his younger friend. IT’S A TIME OF TRIUMPH. – The young soldier who embraces his friends looks stinky – On my mind, how can another man stand the stink that one has. I call Niño “Frank” and let them, our comrades in arms, see our closeness, at least, mine to him.

  - I see myself washing an object that comes out of my body. It’s almost 3pm and Nick urges me to hold the talakay. I say to him, when it’s time, sit and stay at the Holy Ground and wait for me. Ace (?) sees me as he comes towards the kitchen. I brush the object with soap and a toothbrush that I find on the window pane by the lavatory. It turns out like a plastic, rounded (rubberized) hat. I see the numbers 16, 43 on the back part of the hat. I see the letter “B” and the word, “NAGA” – the province probably where it is made in. The upper, rounded part of the hat is tainted with hard shit which, after intense brushing, turns out with beautiful colors – red, white and maybe, blue. This, too, comes out of my body. Prior, the 2 plastic toys of women soldiers have colors, one is reddish, the other yellowish tinge and brownish shade. I put the 2 plastic toys together and show Nanay. We are by the window after climbing up the stairs. There’s a table placed there by the window. I EXPRESS TO HER HOW IMPOSSIBLE THESE OBJECTS COULD BE EXPELLED FROM MY BODY THROUGH VOMIT AND DEFECATION – YET, THEY DO – What a strange thing, I say. Prior, with the rubber hat, I think of how my flock would say “Yuck!” upon knowing it comes from my shit and is not washed, yet – So, I do.

DECEMBER 8, 2000 – VOL. 4

   -  Mel leads me outside to take my medicine, maybe. I chance upon Eric in a store that belongs (?) to his relative. I see Santi eating there with someone. The woman who owns the restaurant prepares food for me. Eric just arrives in the restaurant, for the day before, I just am in the Old House (?). I see Oliver. In front of the resto is a double program theatre. From where I am seated, I can see the movie posters. Somehow, I see my name, “BONG”. Santi is offered sinigang (?). In comes the group of Nanay and Purita, who eats a lot of scrambled eggs from what seems like the huge frying pan itself. If I come closer to the pan to get some eggs, it becomes almost scarce, but if I go away from it/look from a distance, it seems there’s much. I go back to my table. I see the owner of the resto put a lot of food on the table. I see Gie and ask where Eva is. She says, “She’s already dead!” The sad news sends shivers all over me and I SWEAR I SHALL RAISE HER FROM THE DEAD. ON MY MIND, I MAKE THAT PROMISE – BUT MY HEART IS FILLED WITH SO MUCH GRIEF.

DECEMBER 13, 2000 – VOL. 4

  - Oliver, Niño, I and others listen to SLEEPTALK over our respective headphones. Mel Martinez comes in as if watching over us. He sits likewise and listens – In comes Maricel S. who watches over us and notices the older people hearing (women?). She notices Mel whom she addresses by saying he’s not listening to the Sleeptalk, but is under drugs. Mel wears a certain amount of make-up. Niño and I play with a plastic tube, “KATIALIS” cream tubule that’s colored light green. – Prior, Niño and I already play with the tube. – Maricel joins us by asking, “Sino’ng gumagamit nito?” I say to her maybe she should use it, since her shirt is colored light green and Niño also wears light green t-shirt. We keep on laughing. Before Maricel leaves, she relates how hard a time she has with “collegiate level”. On my mind, I visualize showbiz personalities who are popular and rich now, and would be later, the opposite. Prior, we toss the tubule among ourselves, Maricel, Niño and me. Prior, Maricel listens and anticipates the Sleeptalk garnered by the people around her. I, too, ascertain what each other hear and pit them with the actual message.

DECEMBER 14, 2000 – VOL. 4

    - I go to the further end of Recto/ Avenida. On my way back, I pass through the underpass. There are many vendors selling Christmas trees which are small, and some fake. Something gets stuck in my slipper (left). It a is plastic rope (straw) that binds 3 Christmas trees together. The way the rope gets entangled with my left slipper is so incredible that it’s not possible to happen, but it does. I remove the entanglement and walk on. The vendor calls my attention to tell me I get entangled to 3 Christmas trees. – The 2 Christmas trees are usual in their contour (Pine tree) – The other is different – like a cabbage enveloping the 2 other trees. One Christmas tree has Jesus on top of the tree, as if hanging and swirling round the tree. There’s an angel that goes with the trees. – Oh, well, I say it’s great! Turning my back, he calls me again – For that incident, he shows me a piece of article/papers of miracle cures for ailments. I ask this copy in hope of gratis. He says he has many copies of it. He says I should avail of this article thru Panorama (?). There’s a client that buys/needs something from him that he attends to. I go walk towards my path and by chance, I see a friend going up the building (by the door). I call out her name – “Marivel C.!” I do not look at her. It’s strange how I find I have a small Christmas tree in my hand and I swirl it (with decors). Marivel says she can see my face even if I don’t face her. She asks – “Meron na ba?” I board my jeep. I see my money for my fare – a very green P5.00 bill.

DECEMBER 15, 2000 – VOL. 4

   - A SCENE WHERE I AM TO DO AN ORGY WITH ONE GUY AND ANOTHER WHO LOOKS LIKE JUDE EJERCITO, BUT WE ARE BESIEGED WITH A LOT OF GAYS WHO WANT TO JOIN/WATCH.

DECEMBER 30, 2000 – VOL. 4

   -There are 3-4 groups of people who listen to the Sleeptalk (?) that include Gam (?). The flock seems to have a trip – preparation is done. I am in a room – strange, eerie rooms – empty – Gie dies somewhere in the scene – From that empty room someone comes/tries to get in – I forbid her. It is as if there’s a curse. It seems like Grace who I pull out of the room because there’s a “bad spirit/curse”. She goes hysterical. I carry her to the place where the rest of the flock is. I busy myself with writing something on a notebook – While I am reading, someone sort of makes us frightened (by the door). It’s Elsie. She says she goes to the strange room. She says, “Marami nga doon” (friends/people Grace knows). And so Grace goes wild again. She goes to sit under a cabinet (low) where you can use the top as table. We pull her out of there. Suddenly, she has a rope around her neck, coming from the “strange room” which is beside our room. It seems on the ground/lower floor while we are on a higher floor. Bel is mad at Elsie – There’s a man with us whose death is “caused by fear of him” who touches the rope around Grace’s neck and she’s free. Someone asks me, “Ikaw, hindi ka natatakot sa kanya?” This man goes inside the “strange room” with the rope (and puts it around his neck?). Suddenly, I see from the “strange room” Ramil Rodriguez and another (?) getting up from/awakened by us. This man is now on a bed being cemented on it /or playfully being cemented on it. He agrees to this probably because death will not befall him. Prior, as I write something on my notebook, Nolan says, scared maybe, or excited over his discovery that says, “Malapit na! Malapit na!”

JANUARY 3, 2001 – VOL. 5

  - Oliver shows me Sleeptalks (2 lines) that he hears and I do, too – written and/or manifesting on my abdomen, “LOVE ME” and another. Later, it seems it would not be as visible/audible – I tell him to consult the “Confirmation Committee”.

JANUARY 6, 2001 – VOL. 5

  - Niño, Tim and I go to Ali-Mall (?) – A place where Gam could probably see us – The movies being shown are on the boards. I see one particular movie when Niño goes to the CR (while Tim and I are outside) – where “Puta” /or “Grabe!” is written. I am gladdened by it and show it to Tim. – It’s a teen movie where teenaged people line up for tickets. Come Nanay, ate Toying (?), Lally (?) – I avoid them, but Nanay insists on talking to me – One piece of conversation – I say – “You want me to build a church? I have a church (Old House) where people can come. But they want churches which are like this (pointing to a church infront of us) – concrete, huge (the typical church). Minsan, okay pa yung walang pera – hindi ka naghahanap/nag-e-expect – Sanay ka na, eh!” I leave her – At one point, I notice I am leaning on a cane/staff – As Nanay and I talk, I see old movie posters – like FPJ and an actress teamed together. – We head for our destination – with Niño. Ate Toying and another still follow me and inform me, Nanay makes a sale with 32 people and/or negotiations – The primary buyer, Singson but she submits my name to the seller (?) or the licensed broker she deals with, since I am a broker. On my mind, I feel a sudden feeling and awareness of how it feels to have/ expect a commission – The lure of earning money gives me a surge of excitement. I ask – if it’s already closed. Someone much ahead of us – a friend of mine, Oliver (?) leads us to Recto (?) where Nanay’s group comes from and there, we are headed, too, for our ride.

JANUARY 7. 2001 – VOL. 5

  -  I AM IN THE HOUSE OF THE MARCOSES, IRENE (?), IMEE – I AM NOT SURE WHETHER I AM DRESSED “PAMBAHAY”, OR DRESSED TO KILL – ON MY MIND, I WISH TO BE CLEAN-CUT- HAIRSTYLE A LA BORGY. I AM IN AND OUT OF A ROOM OF EITHER, IMEE/IRENE.

JANUARY 11, 2001 –VOL.5

- I see Bel informing me about Joepot who prostitutes himself to gays and women to sustain his needs (?).She suggests I do, too (?).

JANUARY 15, 2001 – VOL. 5

   - I am in a huge place heading for the front part of the house that’s open like a lanai/veranda. I AM LOOKING UP TO THE SKY – CLOUDS ARE COMPACT AND AS IF THE CAMERA ZOOMS IN AT THE CLOUDS. I CLOSE MY EYES – AND TALK TO GOD ASKING HIM – “WHY ME OF ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD?” I go inside the house – It’s the altar area of the Old House. I see Bel and Elsie. From the window facing Eleng’s house, I see 2 people looking at me (from Belen’s house) as I dance to the beat of the music playing. I notice I am wearing a polo shirt as I dance a la Samba. I head for the dining area and see a pitcher of buco juice made by Bel and Elsie. Looking at the altar area, I see Elsie dancing, too, following my dance steps. I pour in some buco juice with “laman”. I try to get some more coconut from the pitcher, but say instead, I have enough buco already and drink. Prior, in the lanai/veranda, I see numerous banana trees (as if the property is likewise by the/near the sea shore). I see foreigners headed by Brad Pitt. One scene shows (waking up) Pitt is embraced to another man (face glued to one another instead of his girlfriend) and commands another man to “fit in”. The man adjusts his watch as Pitt actually means, “synchronize” your watch/with us or both.

Trivia:

          Brad Pitt endorses a watch brand- Tag Hauer?

JANUARY 18, 2001 – VOL. 5

   - I see Roger, Grace’s friend, roaming around in what seems like a mound that seems like Rizal’s ground/garden area (?). The mound is about 2 storey high where one can climb on, having stairs on them. I am seated on a bench in front of the mound, and i see Roger come down later with his family, as this is a regular practice for the family – I SEE HIS OTHER BROTHER WHO TELLS ME AND MY COMPANION (NANAY?) THAT THIS PLACE THAT THEY SUPPOSEDLY OWN “IS THE NEW ______?______”.  I continue the statement.....  “THE NEW JERUSALEM /ISRAEL”.

  - THAT I SHOULD HAVE A COMPACT, WELL-ROUNDED KNOWLEDGE/DOCTRINE, LIKE A POLITICIAN HAS HIS PLATFORM OF GOVERNMENT – WHEN GOD CREATED THE WORLD (CREATION). I WAKE UP ANSWERING TO MY MIND, “MANY CENTURIES AGO – ” BUT THE REAL ANSWER, AS FAR AS THE MESSAGE IS CONCERNED IS NOT GIVEN.

JULY 21, 2001 – VOL. 5

   - Angeles City – building structures look weird. I am roaming around. I see a structure (building) which has a concrete mold of a face (?) attached to its building wall that looks weird (?), or too monstrous as far as its size (?) is concerned. I do not know if I see life-sized images of religious icons – but weird in a way. I see a court where a young handsome basketball player is squatted – practicing his routine along with 4 other members of the team – a la rap music. I guess it’s their entrance number/act once they are called. The beat of their music is great. In the court area are people rehearsing for a “senakulo”. One player whose role could be Satan (?) /Judas (?) has a big, long fork – Satan’s fork pointing at me. In this scene, I am one of those Senators who vote “No”. The player’s line goes – “I can’t/can understand that” – to which I distance myself immediately – I may be hurt by the fork. Then I see a woman playing Magdalene (?). – Suddenly, I am inside a church with others (?) I do not recognize. We are deciphering by way of using symbols and placing them on the church wall – Two priests wearing the monk attire (?) come and hear us. One asks, “Why the use of foul words?” or something to this effect – He is intrigued by it and tries to listen to the SLEEPTALK – He grabs a headphone and listens – I am still in Angeles City. The churches are weird looking – as if made of reddish/brownish molten clay – as well as the structures outside.

JANUARY 23 2001- VOL. 5

  - PEOPLE START TO DOUBT MY SANITY. I SEE A VAN/TAMARAW WITH A PLATE. THE WORD “SANE” IS WRITTEN ON IT. TWICE SEEN.

JANUARY 25, 2001 – VOL. 5

 - I am with a group that records different words/voices coming from me (?). Next scene, we are on a restaurant about to eat (ordinary carinderia/counter). I see Mel – I bring my egg (someone hands me his/her egg, too) for frying – I give the 2 eggs to the owner of the store who supervises the orders. She tries to point where I should bring the eggs – but I just leave them to her. Suddenly, I hear voices – the recorded voice done earlier, as I head towards/look towards Mel’s table (with others) – as if the word/s on the hoarse shouting, wailing voice is Niño. Prior, as I hand the eggs to the owner, I see there are other viands that the woman sells which I like.

JANUARY 26, 2001 – VOL. 5

   - AS IF I SEE JESUS’ FACE AND HOW HE PORTRAYS HIS ROLE IN THE PAST – AND THAT, NOW, THE ROLE IS TURNED-OVER TO ME. IN MY HEART AND SOUL, I THANK GOD FOR SUCH A BLESSING – I FEEL THE EMERGENCE OF A SUPREME DIVINE AUTHORITY INSIDE OF ME – JUST THEN, I KNOW I AM TO TEACH MANY PEOPLE ALL OVER THE WORLD.

JANUARY 29, 2001 – VOL. 5

   - Vigil – I slightly wake up from Nolan’s vigil and experience different heights – I AM BEYOND LIFE OR DEATH (?) – A feeling of nakedness

JANUARY 31, 2001 – VOL. 5

 - As if we have a church (or office?) /outreach program where a question about something is asked of me/my opinion. I say it would have to be based on the truth, nothing else.

FEBRUARY 2, 2001 – VOL. 5

  -  By the entry point of Nanay’s garage are Julia Roberts and Richard Gere – There’s like a mattress on the ground and we lean against the wall. We are cavorting with one another, playing around. In the Old House, I see some people staring/watching us. I say to Gere, if I could see his dick that I see last, during the time of “Pretty Woman part 1”. He takes it out – kind of small and I suck it a bit in front of Julia, who jokingly sneers at us. I tell Julia, all three of us lying down and I am in the middle – starry eyed and wishing upon a star-like attitude – that if I am “MESSIAH”, I’d tell everyone, the whole world, how much “Pretty Woman Part I” provides so much warmth company during my trying/painful years and “Pretty Woman Part II” practically does the same. – That if I AM MESSIAH, I would give both of them their Kingdom/palace where they can reign – laughing out loud, all 3 of us, with the idea of them wearing heavy robes/crown, even as they piss, eat/walk around. I tell Gere that it will be like a Prince Charles (of the modern day). I kiss Richard Gere on the mouth after touching his dick, again. It has a small head. Julia looks on the posters/newspaper cut out posted on the door of the CR. The wall we are leaning on, is the wall of the CR. As I kiss Richard on the mouth, I whisper to him, “I love you!” I believe I mention, in jest (?), “Pretty Woman III”, when I am wishful thinking about being Messiah – I mention amidst the laughter, how many people would be carrying their capes as they walk around.

FEBRUARY 6, 2001 – VOL. 5

  - Juanita L., a guest in my boarding house. I walk past my old landlady in the Intramuros boarding house. She is fuming mad, as usual, with her boarders. As I go to my room, I am met by Melinda (?) informing me how mad the landlady is. Nolan brings the TV out of my room and into the hall. He turns the volume of the TV to high and I urge him to turn it off and bring the TV inside the room which he does. Juanita and another woman are in my room. I offer her something to drink. Pleasantries – There’s a hearing in the other room (?) and I am bothered by it. Bel is present in the room. Next scene, I offer Juanita coffee again. I go to the closet for a mug – but she says she already has a cup – a small coffee cup which she uses earlier. I take the big mug and another crystal mug. As I wash the mug, it gets broken (the one intended for her) – I do not know if the problem/hearing is about the landlady, or if she’s causing the problem that I am a bit affected about. I ask Juanita a question. Is there a period of time/exact time when all about religion/Jesus preaching’s shall come to an actual culmination? She mentions something and I raise/repeat the same question, as I prepare the mugs for coffee. Her face overlaps with another woman (?). She concedes to the innuendo that there’s none – On my mind, I know somehow how to map out/calculate the events/prophecies given to me – and pretty sure, they don’t. Earlier, I see Nolan return/borrow an extension cord (?) from another boarder. I comment, “Nakakarating ka pa doon!” It showcases Nolan’s audacious character, as he nonchalantly puts on the TV (loud volume) and takes it inside the room.

 - A FLASH WHERE BEL DELIBERATELY?/ ACCIDENTALLY CAUSES THE FALLING OF THE BOOKS (“1,000” BOOKS?) . SHE DOESN’T SEEM AFFECTED BY IT(?)- SEEMINGLY UNFAZED BY THE INCIDENT- FALLING OF THE BOOKS FROM (A TALL BUILDING?) MY ROOM(?)

FEBRUARY 9, 2001 – VOL. 5

  - I see an office like set-up. I see guards cavorting with themselves. I see a worker ordering something – He pays/gives someone an advance payment of P6.00 – He gets his order, but one worker warns him he could loan/put on credit what he gets/orders – Food later turning to be SLEEPTALK. The worker says he would warn him of putting the food/Sleeptalk into credit/paying it later – but says he knows/realizes he already pays in advance. As in a theatre, I see myself seated with 2 people hugging/embracing one another. Comes a couple of security guards who check on us – but go outside the theatre area unto the lobby and cavort/play with one another. There’s a word/bulletin being passed around – that, “You should treat SLEEPTALK with much respect as you have never done before.”

FEBRUARY 16, 2001 – VOL. 5

    - Earlier (prior to the dream). It seems like I am in the resthouse – about 9 PM, restless, I go out. I find myself wanting to buy a bold magazine, but couldn’t find any – But I am able to buy something wrapped in newspaper. I go stumble on a church – small chapel with only a few people. About 2 children are in front of the church door – One is about to ask money, but I ignore him and proceed to the church. Sitting down, I get curious as to the goings on at the altar – 4-5 people mostly women (?) carrying long spears and stabbing all together something/an object of what seems like a dramatization of Jesus’ torture with the Roman soldiers where he is stabbed with a spear atop the cross. The act makes me shudder in fear, as to what it could feel like being stabbed repeatedly (and not only one spear) – I go out of the church.

FEBRUARY 17, 2001 – VOL. 5

  - A FLASH where I see my coffin (myself in it) being pushed to the tomb and I pull it/push it from the inside (?).

FEBRUARY 19, 2001 – VOL. 5

 -  Dining area – There’s a TV set by the window facing the garage and another by the opposite window. Earlier, I am seated and I see Nanay fixing herself for Manila and hints on some money. On my mind, I have thoughts of whether to give Nanay money or not. – She seems uncaring. She goes out of the dining area. Her dress seems blackish/light black. I go to the CR barefooted and just let the faucet run some water on the floor. There’s somebody in the other CR. Going out towards the dining area, Mila, a little stouter than usual, enters and embraces us. Bel seems present – The flock seems to be living/staying in the Old House. Purita is not here yet from abroad, but to arrive the same week /or in a few days. I exclaim – THE PROPHECY IS FULFILLED – They come almost at the same time. I ask Mila how long she stays. She says, “Hintayin natin ang __________” – maybe, referring to the Fiesta – On my mind, I rejoice over the idea. My next move is to introduce Nolan who I do not see around.

 - I see the SLEEPTALK compiled/ binded /bound and placed on the wall

MARCH 7, 2001 – VOL. 5

  - We are to go to a province, Purita along with Eric and myself. A boarding house where Nanay keeps lots of nice things for décor – Nice thermo-looking pitchers (made of aluminum of different colors/pastel put on a shelf in the room of 2 weird looking boarders (men). One man has something reddish- wound inside the eye (corner) – As I talk to them, asking them if they are not done with college yet, I notice the pitcher are removed already. One says he’ll put his things (books, etc. there) which I agree to. Gie and Grace are in the boarding house. I see Grace by the small lavatory area with beautiful green color tiles/paint – Purita and Eric go out ahead. We are to take the bus – Earlier, it’s Mila I am going to the province with – We are already waiting for the bus which just goes past us – not the right buse – It is as if I go back to the boarding house for something – shoes, maybe. The next scenario could be still Mila and Eric (?) going on ahead for the bus, as they wait for me to be done with my concern over the boarding house, leaving already. I forget my shoes – Now already proceeding to where Mila/ (Purita) is (actually running). On my mind, what a hassle in a sense I do not wish to be tired travelling and then coming back the next day. Suddenly, I see a sort of a carpet of good, fine, colorful linen on the ground. It is reminded to me that /or I feel inside of me, I already anticipate/know this particular crossover. I walk closer to this mystical bed of colors – It’s a bed of different flowers – wide like the size, width of 2 matrimonial beds. I lie down as if on a suspended state afloat- softly lying on the bed of different flowers. From 2 far corners of the area/field are 2 groups of uniformed-looking people, who for centuries/many years wait for the coming of THE ONEwho would posses all heavenly signs, such as these phenomena before them. The flowers blossom, sort of slow motion scene, where the air breezes on the flowers so divinely. In the sky, from where I lie, I see something – dewdrops – something that hung there so serenely, sort of blessing / heralding THE ONE who lies on the bed of flowers. – On the sky, an event of divine affirmation to the one lying on the bed of flowers. – Someone rushes beside me – a priestly-looking-well-attired member of the Catholic Church who instructs someone so nervous, and maybe, rejoicing because the one they wait for, for the longest time, since the death of Jesus comes in such a miraculously, unbelievable way. There’s a hand (?) from afar as if it is there for a long time, just waiting for THE ONE– I feel a tear runs down from my left eye – I do not move – just lying in a state of blissful and sublime reality that, indeed, it is I, the blessed one of God. The church man who is actually an Archbishop (as he’s dressed that) wants to “take” me, or maybe, just joyously desiring to commune with me – yet, his instruction to another person sends a sinister note. THE ENDLESS FORGOTTEN WAIT OF THOUSANDS OF YEARS IS OVER– This is echoed in his astonished reaction while I lie still in ethereal and tranquil state. You are, indeed, the LIVING GOD who would come the LAST TIME, I say to my mind. – The ground where the bed of flowers is, is a bit lower than the ground I run on – The colorful pitchers are many, put on a narrow shelf. – The lavatory has a thin panel (narrow) with a small closet on the upper portion.

Trivia:
*Vic Sotto repeatedly says "THE ONE" in his Solmux commercial
*Jericho Rosales does the same saying the words "THE ONE" in his Chowking commercial

MARCH 10, 2001 – VOL. 5

  - There’s a talakay in a modest house. Noontime – The sun is high – I get to sleep on the wooden sala. I call on everyone. Eric hears me and calls on Nolan who sleeps in a closet like – very narrow room/storage room with the man he brings with him. Bel and company are somewhere. I fix some of my clothes in the sala/near the sala where I sleep. I see my old, new trousers. Nolan’s friend comes out. He’s tall and with a bag. I tell Nolan, walk out on me – Now – My suspicion is enflamed by the non- reaction of the man and non-defense of Nolan. I say I want him out of my life. Earlier, while I sleep, I wake up because of the loud snore/rush of voices coming out of my mouth, simultaneously with my breath. It is as if I breathe, and a voice comes out, exhort at the same time.

   - There’s a lion (or 2) in my place (or where I am) that does not attack me or us (?) –

MARCH 13, 2001 – VOL. 5

  - That my preaching should go down to history and that my children’s children should know about this.

MARCH 14, 2001 – VOL. 5

   - NOT A DREAM/VISION? – I TRAVEL THROUGH THE DEPTH OF THE OCEAN, OLD HOUSE-    SEEING THE HUGE IMAGE OF JESUS (?) THAT TRIES TO CATCH ME – CEMETERIES UNDERNEATH THE EARTH (?). – I GO DOWN THE DEPTH OF THE EARTH. I SEE WATER, STEEL BARS, SUBMERGED IN WATER – UNDERNEATH THE EARTH, IN THE CEMETERY, I LOOK FOR NIÑO’S GRAVE. – ENTERING DOORS AFTER DOORS WHICH ARE CLOSED – A DEEP SEA STRUCTURE WITH WEIRD LOOKING MEN (GAYS), AS I PRETEND TO LIKE THEM BECAUSE THEY CARRY ME TOWARDS SOME PLACE. I GUESS TO KILL ME. I TOUCH ONE OF THE MEN’S DICK, AFTER WHICH I RUN – ROOMS AFTER ROOMS, REACHING THE UPPERMOST PORTION WHICH IS THEIR ENTRANCE/EXIT DOOR, SOME WOMEN VAMPIRES ARE ABLE TO FLEE. THE DOOR CLOSES ON ME AND A VOICE ECHOES, SAYING, “NO MORE VAMPIRES”. WHEN A STONE SLAB FALLS BECAUSE OF THE CLOSURE OF THE EXIT. I HEAR VIVIDLY THE NOISE IT CREATES.

                                                        TRIVIA:

  The emergence of numerous vampire movies bearing EAB’s first   name;

Robert Patinson- “Twilight” Saga is EDWARD Cullen in the movie

Ethan Hawke- “Daybreakers” is EDWARD Dalton in the movie

MARCH 16, 2001 – VOL. 5

    - One beautiful, almost fantastical dream/episode where forces (cartooned characters) come to my rescue. I am in one not so big a structure. There’s a huge, almost palatial structure where enemies (?) come from. From afar comes a phalanx of people with lights/torches – my friends / rescuers. Missiles are launched against the enemies – bombs (cartoon) which can be commanded to stop and directed to go up or down – There are enemies atop/hiding in the foam of clouds/ceiling which one missile passes by me and goes up the ceiling and bombs away. There are bombs that look for the enemy. It is as if I hear instruction coming from the palace. I am with someone. There is an enemy that fires/shoots at me, bombs even, which just disappear before me. I ask the person beside me and he wouldn’t know. I believe the advancing phalanx of people is the enemy (?). The bottom line of the episode is RESCUE (for me and my adversaries) – The palatial structure has columns in front. – Battle ensues, explosion here and there – I just watch and cheer. There are so many colors and lights flashing – I see banners, too, being flown/carried/swayed by the strong wind. It’s a magical and mystifying vindication for one helpless soul – It’s a grand Walt Disney movie where I see myself and others are real people and the emergence of the rescuers as cartoons (not the characters, but the missiles and the surrounding activities to transpire). I see motorbike-riding policemen (?) pass by me, going towards the people arriving (?).

MARCH 17, 2001 – VOL. 5

  - Rotation of the Sun and Earth counted, or calculated by me and Tim.

MARCH 20, 2001 – VOL. 5

  - I’m a very little person (or another person) carrying the STONE OF KNOWLEDGE (?). I am running around the Old House and sometimes it gets out of my hand, but Audrey is able to get it. There are many little people, (too?). One scene shows Audrey on top of me, my back resting on a lounge-type seater– There are about 3 loungers – There’s Carmina Villaroel whom I ask how many men she encounters in her life. She says, “2” – Audrey and I are in that position for a long time. Next scene, I am lying on my side (dining area) and Audrey tightly embraces me – hands on my chest – I can sense “some throbbing/movement from her flower” and a little “sound” of “lubrication” dripping as if to tell me she’s into me (?) and I feel somehow my dick throbs a bit (not quite). On my mind, why not? – I can make love to her – put my thing inside her and it wouldn’t be as hard as putting it inside Nolan’s ass which is almost always not relaxed. I see myself get toothpaste and rub the toothpaste on my teeth –

MARCH 22, 2001 – VOL. 5

   - I AM BESMIRCHED BY SOMETHING – UNTO A MOUNTAIN (MT. ________?) I GO AND TRY TO BESEECH GOD. THE MOUNTAIN DISAPPEARS AND APPEARS, AS IF THERE AND NOT THERE. –

MARCH 24, 2001 – VOL. 5

   - IT IS AS IF SOME PEOPLE STONE US / THROW STONES AT US. WE ARE BY THE GARAGE AND I AM FEARFUL THEY MAY HIT THE CAR. IT SEEMS NOLAN IS IN DRAG (?) AND WOULD COME OUT LATER. THE MANG-AALIW WILL TRIUMPH OVER THESE STONE-THROWING FROM OUTSIDE. HURLS OF STONES IN THE GARAGE – I TAKE COVER, AS WELL AS ANOTHER.

MARCH 28, 2001 – VOL. 5

   - I AM ALONE – SEATED AND LOOKING AT MY BODY – FROM THE LEGS UP. I AM EXTREMELY SAD KNOWING/REALIZING I AM TO DIE THE NEXT DAY. ON MY MIND, I AM SORROWFUL TO LEAVE "EAB'S BODY". I AM REMINDED OF A DATE THAT (I AM NOT SURE/I'M SURE) IS GIVEN TO ME EARLIER – FEBRUARY 17. I ASK MYSELF, "IS IT A MESSAGE? IS THERE SUCH A DATE?" – I WONDER IF FEBRUARY 17 PASSES BY ALREADY – ASKING MYSELF WHAT DATE IT IS. IT FEELS AS IF IT'S THE MONTH OF FEBRUARY (?). I INTEND TO ASK MY FLOCK (?) ABOUT THIS – THE FEELING OF HAVING SAID "GOODBYE" EARLIER, TO ANOTHER BODY IS EMINENT – THIS TIME, IT'S EAB'S BODY, I SORT OF BID "GOODBYE" TO. – I ASK THE CONNECTION, ON MY MIND, OF THIS DATE TO MY DEATH.

APRIL 9, 2001 – VOL. 5

   - I see Eric by the stairs of a house. I go to him – I show (?) a knife (?). His relatives come (?) – gay and woman with colored (multi-colored) hair. There's blood – Eric's (?) coagulated blood (?). Suddenly, I see myself on the floor wearing my socks. The 2 guests are in the sala. The gay whispers, "Bakla". I say, "Yes! I am gay – Are you?" They ask about the talakay and its preaching (?), but I ask something else from them – A trade-off – I'll tell the preaching/answer their queries. Earlier, Eric and I discuss the kind of brand/metal the knife is (?) Eric's relatives are smoking – Going back to Eric, I find him smoking, as well. – Cigarette on his lips – long cigarette.

    - Someone informs me (Merly?) about my being "MASTER".

APRIL 14, 2001 – VOL. 6

 -  While lying down in a place with Tim, I see a poster of an “AIRLINER that strikes me. I get something (notebook, ballpen) from the car. It drizzles. Earlier, I see Eric Quizon staying in this house/modest house. He sees me. There’s another man (middle-aged). Eric Q. somehow recognizes me from the Gym days. Going back to writing down the “AIRLINER” (?) and its phone number written on the poster, I am surprised to find out it is no longer there – Eric has it removed. Getting in the place Eric Q. meets me and asks, “Ba’t ka nandito?” I start telling him about my journey of 11 years and even mention of it as a weird beautiful story – (garage area). I sort of invite myself (by gesture) to the living room (?) interior of the house, so we can talk further . I call his attention about the phone number being removed. I inform him, “I am not going to riddle you with calls”. We both laugh at the idea. Eric has quite a head full of hair. Earlier, I point my car to him and instruct Tim to close the window of the car and to lock it. – He waits inside the car. Meanwhile, it is my intent that should anything happen (?), I could easily call the number for whatever it will serve me. As Eric and I laugh, we are holding each other, by hand or body touch, as if we know each other quite well – Well, about during the ULTRA Shape gym days.

APRIL 14, 2001 – VOL. 6

  - I see Tim coming up to me – He calls out for me – “Ariel / MANG-AALIW!” – as if to tell me something / an excuse maybe – or an alibi to serve himself and/or his interest – He wears that familiar “mischievous” smile – then again, perhaps, nothing sinister about his gesture/smile.

APRIL 15, 2001 – VOL. 6

  - I dream of Richard Gere fornicating with me (Victory Joe) and then later, as he refuses to mate since he despises the idea (M to M). I lick his asshole and he gives in. Currently, my lover is Keanu Reeves. One scene, there’s a man, cleaner maybe, who comes in. From under our mattress, he finds a little short-rounded dildo (Keanu’s). I get the dildo and show it to Keanu, who doesn’t say a word, just “Hah!” We are in our room. Another scene, where I kiss Richard Gere on the nape and back – I feel the thrust of his dick as we make sex.

 -   Another scene shows Julia Roberts, who wants to go shopping as she, like a child, urges her friends to go out, buy this and that. Richard Gere is seated, I am standing up with erect penis inside my pants. Julia comes up to me and touches my dick and she shouts in surprise.

APRIL 17, 2001 – VOL. 6

   - I am walking on a street with someone- holding a penis- like dildo and sucking it as I stroll/ walk around. I wonder if anyone minds it. I go on sucking it- the whole of its length. Texture and color are synonymous to the real/ actual penis. Dildo has balls. Almost authentic I delight doing the act while walking- like a pacifier to a baby.

APRIL 18, 2001 – VOL. 6

    - I am talking to Alex and another about “ARIEL’s” cousin who’s a host (TV or something) named “YRIEL”. It is as if to be his friend / simply to know YRIEL is being “in”. Alex confidently takes out an almost tiger- colored ballon that probably belongs to YRIEL. I retort back by telling (and stroking the hair of the other person we talk to) that YRIEL is provincial and anyone who idolizes him is likewise provincial. I go up to the third floor (?) of the house which seems like the Intramuros boarding house (?). One scene shows YRIEL says- (looking for a place to stay) “ I find my boarding house!” Inside a room, there’s a bed. Right beside it is a box almost the same in size and length as the bed. There’s a pillow on top of it- It’s covered with plastic (transparent). There’s water contained in the box and another pillow almost submerged in the water. I remove both pillows (?) and take a leak. I see Onggay’s house from the window/ Nanay’s house (?). In comes Nolan who earlier prepares his bed in another room and probably intends to stay there. He says. While I take a leak that it’s Daddy’s bed/ Daddy is coming. I say I know. Deep inside, I resent him for intending to sleep in another room and not with me. He goes out and unto his room. FOR A WHILE, IT IS YRIEL WHO IS PLAYING NOLAN’S ROLE. On my mind, I plan to suggest he finds another boarding house. Later, with Nolan, I intend to leave him (separate).

    - Resthouse- Tim and I upstairs. I go down. Nanay talks to me about a woman named “JOSEPHINE”. The ground floor is still occupied by Rina. Theres who is her visitor. Nanay tells me I have to be honest and true about what she is to ask me. I snide back at her, telling her- “IF YOU ASK ME (a question),  WHEN I ANSWER, BELIEVE IT. IT’S ALWAYS HONEST AND TRUE”

APRIL 22, 2001 – VOL. 6

   - I am walking, downtown area, I see two men standing and talking about me – They know me. It seems I know them, too – familiar Antonio- clan look – cousins of mine who know me since childhood. I walk on – Seems like the road is empty – There’s a bookstore I see with so much “GOLD PAPER” – cut like the border pieces on the SLEEPTALK BOARDS – There are also GOLD PAPERS lying on the street. – I feel serene seeing gold paper strips on the pavement and infront, almost like hanging on the structure of the bookstore. I say, this is __?__  I plan to buy – maybe it’ll be cheaper – but realize, well, it’s another department store – price could be the same – As I look for its entrance door, I couldn’t locate it. It seems closed. – On the pavement, as I walk, it is as if I see a small window-like face of a cell phone. It sends a message / writes a message which I fail to catch / get because I always am awakened by the radio that’s playing a song (real radio) –MESSAGE (on the cellphone screen) IS ABOUT HOW I WOULD FEEL ABOUT MY DEATH (?) OR, HOW IT WILL HAPPEN – I CAN SEE THE MESSAGE /OR HAVE THE POWER, ANYTIME, TO SEE THE MESSAGE.

  - Lally instructs Nolan to post two(2) calendar months on the wall where the Resurrected Image of Jesus is. I take notice of the number “7” on the first month sheet (?) that is colored RED. The scene shows Nolan standing on a chair/ladder posting the 2 calendar sheets

APRIL 27, 2001 – VOL. 6

  -  I look up to the sky and cry out help from God – I say, “FATHER!” This dream is preceded by another dream (I forget what it is). From under the sea, there’s turmoil. – A LOUD VOICE, NOISE WOULD SHATTER THE OCEAN BOTTOM AND BED UNTO THE EARTH / SOIL. While this sort of CATACLYSMIC EVENTS transpire, I wonder if it is all feasible – that I would be listened to by God and I have the emotional, mental and spiritual equilibrium to call Him, “FATHER!”

APRIL 28, 2001 – VOL. 6

    - Malou, Purita fetch me at the hospital? / airport. Earlier, I am in a hospital (wearing a hospital gown) on a chase (?) – I go down (?). I see myself go down a high steel stairs – Malou is up on the highest / top most portion of the stairs, seated, with my stuff. Purita is at the foot / near the foot of the stairs. I ask Malou to hand me over my stuff – I walk first – and reach a huge, weird looking one level church-like structure with its GURU seated and his wife (?). There are a few crowds seated, too. Purita comes in. Earlier, I am by the window. Malou is out – watching, too. Georgie is in the mid-portion (side spot) being motivated to pour out / share / express himself – He is Purita’s former husband. I call on Malou – as I sit beside Purita. The Guru is on the left side, as you enter the door – Purita and I on the right side. I say to Malou, Georgie is his father, but my mind tells me, too, he isn’t upon realizing it’s Tony B. who is her father. I say this to her. – Georgie is still being motivated by the Guru leading him / teaching him how to relate his story. I stand up, walk towards the door, see the surroundings, and examine the structure outside and its façade. I see Filipino guys. Further, walking leads me to a calesa. On my mind, I ask, Is this America? – Maybe a Filipino community abroad. Regarding the cute group (one without a shirt), I wonder if you can just have sex with them – AIDS could be a scare. Outside the structure, I see the name of their church – printed in red (and another) color – temple-like with a high post (where probably a cross in Catholics) could be attached to, but there is none. – On my mind, I ask (the topless guy) “Is it hot in America?” Upon seeing the calesa, “They have everything here, just like the Philippines”. I hear the voice of the Guru’s wife saying, “Dito, lahat nag-o-open-up / share their feelings and emotions” – something to this effect. On my mind, this place is perfect for me – The flower named Petunia (?) is mentioned while I am outside the temple – Concept of the temple. – I go inside the structure again and get to the middle of the conference area – I COMMAND THE GURU TO REMOVE ALL THINGS PRESENTLY USED AS DECORATIONS AND FURNISHINGS (?). I see a leather covered cushion for sitting on the floor. I sort of command the white color to be used – for the temple of God is inside you. YOU ARE THE TEMPLE OF GOD, I tell each and every one of them. This place / temple shall be my teaching ground.

    - Opening a magazine, I see an article entitled, “I KILLED A POP STAR / ROCKSTAR NAMED “JESUS”. Another article about a Latin/Spanish- speaking family- a father growing up/ taking care of a daughter to make her pretty and delectable to feed/to be ravished by his very own sons. One page shows a picture of his daughter and her brothers. Another page shows his interview/article about the father’s “weird” scheme plus his picture.

APRIL 29, 2001 –VOL. 6

      - I AM A FORM OF/REPRESENT A FORM OF SOAP. Portion/strips of this soap can be used/sold to acquire more soaps. I see Audrey, LA and Mel. The production of more soap is done by slicing small portions of this soap which stands almost infront of me/ as tall as I am.

TRIVIA:

1. EAB’s alias is “ARIEL” (during his cruising/gimmick days.)
2. ARIEL detergent powder was introduced to the Philippines at about the time the Mission began.
3. ARIEL is the LAUNDERER’S SOAP mentioned in Malachi 3:2?